Sunday, 16 September 2007

I love flowers! and hate exams.

These are the pictures i've been wanting to post.
I really love this flower. very much. i can't remember what flower is this.
It took abt almost 3 weeks to take this pictures.









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Now.. exams are coming..real soon....
and it will take me almost 1 month to sit for it.
The ones highlighted in yellow are the exams im sitting for.
haih.. so long...


Friday, 14 September 2007

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to me....
Happy Birthday to me.......
Happy Birthday to Denise....
Happy Birthday to Me.....

Yeap.. its my birthday today...
I can say a lot of people wished me today.
Thank you everyone!!
Sorry i cant mention everyone's name. too many.
I appreciate it very much..

my day was good today.
Its the happiest day in this 2 months.
I was quite touched when Preshna, Aishvarya and Banu sang me a birthday song.
So sweet of you la... =)

I seriously want to post some pictures but blogger is quite slow now..
Im lazy anyway..

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i enjoyed myself today! =)

Thursday, 13 September 2007

food stealer.

as usual.. i'll bring my own food to eat in school. well most of the time i do that.
i KNOW that im going to be hungry.
So, i asked my mu to buy gardenia bread with the chocolate cream inside.
I was in the computer lab and i left my bag outside because we're not allowed to bring our bags in.
after class, i went to bio lab and took out my books.
i realised my food was GONE!!!
ugh... why on earth do you want that bread anyway?
grrr.... i end up with nothing to eat except for the canteen food which was my last choice of food.
nevermind.

The Librarians had a meeting today.
Pn. Solah was going to announced the Majlis Tertinggi (MT) PSS 2007/2008.
I have no idea abt it. XD
anyway, straight to the point.
Im the Timbalan Ketua PSS 07/08. =)
whee.... Thank you!!
Pei Jian is retiring. Aww... =)
Dont worry. hehe.
Congrats to the others who are chosen for the MT.

sorry.. im lazy to post pictures. XD

My msn has virus now THANKS TO wai min..
grrrr....
now i cant use msn live. i must use the OLD msn.
they keep sending me stuffs like..
"look at my idiot pic" =) and a link to a website.
well not my idiot pic la.
i got that virus and now its spreading to my other contacts by itself whenever im using msn live.
so, if you do get it from me, ignore it.
coz i cant control it n it sends the virus by itself.
msn going crazy, all my contacts started popping out on and on,
and after a few seconds, everything was okay and it will keep repeating the same thing untill you get sick of it.
please dont give more more stress.
i need to use the comp for my add maths project.

Tuesday, 11 September 2007

Minesweeper.

my classmates and i were playing that in the computer lab.
its kinda cold in there.
imagine sitting down there for 4 periods. haih.
XD. actually i have no idea how to play that game.
Numbers all over and i JUST found out it meant something. =.=" silly me.
i've never win that game before.

Minesweeper.
reminds me of something else.
dont know why.
lazy to explain.

For the past few days, i felt so insecure.
REALLY insecure.
i get irritated quite often.
but im okay sometimes.
laughing makes me forget things. sometimes.
when i wake up in the morning, something will be ringing in my head.
its bothering me and yet i dont know what is it.
Sometimes, i hear a song played on a piano on and on every morning.
the same song every single morning.
could it be an alarm? maybe. or maybe im imagining things. XD
sometimes i hear my phone ringing and running all over to search for my phone coz i forgot where i put it.
and again, my mind is playing with me. the phone wasnt ringing at all. gawd.
every afternoon, i always wanted to have a nap but i cant coz i feel bad.
im going nuts.
ughhh...

I have some pictures and i'll upload it some other time.

Saturday, 8 September 2007

Whee..

garrhhhh.... stresss!!!!!
Add maths project....!!!!
need more time and help....
Stupid computer..!
Keep shutting down by itself!
whatever i typed is gone!!
well.. not everything la.. the ones i typed recently.
how am i supposed to save it while typing and suddenly it went blank n shuts down.
grrrr.... im sick of doing it already. for today.
Anyway... im currently reading...

Everything in Elizabeth Egan’s life has its place, from the espresso cups in her gleaming kitchen to the swatches and paint pots of her interior design business. Order and precision keep life under control—and keep Elizabeth’s heart from the pain and hurt she has suffered in the past. Being a reluctant mother to her six-year-old nephew while trying to keep her business on track is a full-time job for Elizabeth, and one that leaves little room for error—or fun.

Until, one day, Ivan unexpectedly comes into their lives. The mysterious Ivan is carefree, spontaneous and always looking for adventure—everything that Elizabeth is not. If You Could See Me Now is the extraordinary tale of Ivan and Elizabeth. Of how Ivan meets the love of his life before she even sees him, and how he teaches her that life is only worth living when it's blindingly colourful and the occasional mess. Yet just when Elizabeth is starting to trust him, it turns out that Ivan isn't at all who she thought he was.

Playful and at times intensely moving, this is a novel about how seeing isn't always believing. Full of Cecelia Ahern’s trademark warmth and poignancy, If You Could See Me Now is a story of enormous heart--and just a little bit of magic.


The next book i'll be reading...

This is the extraordinary love story of Clare and Henry who met when Clare was 6 and Henry was 36, and were married when Clare was 22 and Henry was 30. Impossible but true, because Henry suffers from a rare condition, "Chrono-Displacement" that causes him to involuntarily travel through time where his genetic clock periodically resets and he finds himself pulled suddenly into his past or future.

Henry cannot take anything with him into the future or the past. Even fillings in his teeth are left behind. He always "arrives" naked and must work hard while "away" to find clothing, shelter, and food without getting beaten up or arrested. He amasses a number of survival skills including pickpocketing, lock-picking, and expert fighting skills to allow him to get by without the bare necessities. He learns many of these skills from older versions of himself, either when the older self is time-traveling into his own past, or when his older and younger selves' time-traveling coincides.

Clare Abshire comes from a wealthy family, goes to Catholic school and then moves to Chicago to study art. She eventually becomes an artist, making paper and creating sculptures from paper and wire frames.

Henry time travels into Clare's childhood many times, starting in 1977 when she is six years old. He gives her a list of the visits he will make when he visits her for the first time (in her past), then she writes these dates into a diary so she can expect his visits. As an adult, when all of the visits are through, she gives the list to him to return to her in her past. He visits her numerous times during her childhood and adolescence, and inadvertently reveals that they will be married in the future. His last visit takes place on her eighteenth birthday in 1989, and then they are separated for two years until they finally meet in real time for both of them.

When 20-year-old Clare meets up with 28-year-old Henry in 1991, he has never seen her before, although she has known him most of her life. Clare's past is still in Henry's future. Henry begins to experience the events in Clare's childhood at the same time that he experiences life with the adult Clare in the present. In the novel, the future cannot be changed, and many tragic events are foreshadowed in the past.

Clare and Henry get married, but have trouble conceiving a child because of his genetic disorder. After six miscarriages, Henry gives up and has a vasectomy. Later, a past version of Henry travels to the future and makes love to Clare and she becomes pregnant and carries the child to term. They have a daughter named Alba, who is diagnosed with the same disorder. Before she is born, Henry travels to the future and meets Alba at ten years old. Alba reveals to Henry that he is to die when she is five years old.

Years later, Henry time-travels to Chicago on a very cold winter night, where he is unable to find shelter. He experiences hypothermia and develops frostbite. After returning to his 'present', his feet are amputated, while the story has stressed that his ability to run is his most important survival skill. It is not long before Henry time-travels into the middle of th Michigan during deer season and is fatally shot by Clare's brother. He returns to the present and dies in Clare’s arms.

Clare is devastated by Henry's passing, and feels unable to live her life without him. She finds a letter from Henry describing an experience he had with her in her future, when she is an old woman. Henry doesn't want Clare to wait for him, but he wants her to know that they will see each other again because love knows no boundaries and transcends time and death. Clare then lives to old age, and is visited by Henry for a final time.

Interesting book... cant wait to read it.. and i've already bought it.

Friday, 7 September 2007

?

School was boring.
i shouldn't have go to school.
Not even 1 teacher enter my class.
i spent 2 periods sleeping in class.
another 2 periods reading.
Hmm.. The form 5's are having their trials.
All the best!!
so, my class was moved to block D.
Well, i spent my form 1 and 2 there.
A lot of memories.
i miss all those times you used to come into my class just to see me.
and.....
i got a dark bruise on my feet. it hurts whenever i walk.

Thursday, 6 September 2007

Frustrated again.

Seriously i am.
its like.... having pmr exam. gawd. though its like ages ago.
well it felt like ages ago though it was 11 months ago.
haih....
i just wish i could erase a few things in my mind.
Now, i should make a list.
yeah... a list of advantages of something lah..
theres this anger in me that i wish i could let it out.
i need a punching bag.
So many people disappointed me. Let me down. and hurt me.
oh well.. what goes around, comes around and it goes all the way back around.
Now, all i have to do is study hard and at the same time enjoy life and most importantly enjoy myself.
Move on with life.
though i miss the old me.
I dont really like the new me now.
Some things made me change and i dont really like it.
i miss the old Denise.

silly

if you already took out the modem already..
why did u put it back?
Scared i'll find out?
come on, the modem is still hot even after 1 hour+ ??

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my day was alright.
though there was anger in me all day. even now.
nothing much.
went to tuition and suddenly something bugged me.
it was something i love and miss sooo much.
wish i could turn back time.

Wednesday, 5 September 2007

I will never forgive you.
I can't and i wont accept your apology.
I dont know who exactly are you anymore.
You let me down really badly..
You disappoint me.
You hurt me.
You are such a cruel person.
I really don't want to HATE you.
But i already do.
You gave me false hope.
You betrayed me.
You gave up everything.
You walked away when thats the time i needed you the most.
You only think about yourself.
All you care is abt yourself.
You always said you can't do anything about it.
I think you can.
You are not strong enough.
I felt like i was being used.
I helped you with your school projects.
I helped you to find you favourite song and i burned it.
I did everything i could when you were not well.
I spent all my free time with you.
I was always there for you when you needed me.
I made you smile and laugh and i brighten up your day.
I did lots of things for you.
I did everything i could just to help you and to be there for you.
I know, i do get angry and sad.
I am needy.
Its not that i don't understand.
It is because i cared.

So..... ever wonder what do i get in return?
Yes.
You are such an ungrateful person.
I don't know whether you appreciate any of it.

Tuesday, 4 September 2007

Im so frustrated now.
You are so *tuuuut*
You think that you are so great. but you are not.
Do you know how many people "throw stones" on you??
well, you cant count it with your finger coz theres tons of them.
I dont gain anything by telling lies.
You said things that were not true just because you were facing it.
doenst mean that im the same as you.
Dont you realize that theres a HGE DIFFERENCE between us??
Its like chalk and cheese. XD
Im not like you. not a single bit like you.
you spread rumors about me, talk bad about me, only talk to me when you need me.
You are such a 2-faced person. One of the worst person i've ever met in my life.
You brag abt how good you were at "something" but you actually suck at it really badly.
You brag abt how bad i am in it but i proved you wrong and i squished you flat.
well, you will be punish again.
from the way i see it, i pity you and i feel sorry for you.
but on the other hand, you deserve it.
I dont know who made you like this.
So what if you dont care.
if you dont care, dont bother abt this post.
dont bother to write it to defend youself.
dont bother to tell me off too.
you dont seem to care about anything including yourself.
if you dont care abt yourself, then why care abt the relationship we had?
why do you cry over it and you said it hurts you??
you are so fake. all bullshit and crocodile tears.
you will never realize and learn from your mistakes.
you will never learn because... as YOU SAID, "i dont care"
Well, i just hope you will wake up from the "dead" and change.

Saturday, 1 September 2007

September.

theres one thing thats really bothering me now.
it makes me angry and i feel like giving you a punch on your face.
now you are using me to cover up your mistake??
what kind of a person are you??
if you do did something wrong, just take that responsibility that you're wrong.
you don't have to lie.
Especially using me to do it.
Thank god i did not listen to you.
coz i sense something is not right.

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What in the world is in your mind now???
ughh....
i dont know what i should do now. i feel so stuck.
should i start letting it go and give up??
or should i still hang on to it??
yes, i know you need time and im giving you time.
But you seem to run away everytime i have a conversation with you.
its like you are trying to avoid me talking abt us.
i maybe wrong but at the moment, that is how i felt.
dont worry, i wont bring it up unless you do it first.
i seriously dont know what are you doing.
and the pink dog. i think it left me too.
the beautiful flowers are dying.

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Here's a question i would like an answer for you reader who are reading.
and please respond.

Lets say you are a thief.
you found a wallet with money in it.
Will you take all of the money?? or will you take some of the money??

My answer will be : which idiotic thief will not take all of the money???


Friday, 31 August 2007

I've been chosen to enter a Environment Quiz/ Kuiz Alam Sekitar!
yeap..i've been chosen along with my 3 other classmates, shazmiq, joon yoon and joanna.
its next week tuesday held somewhere in Banting.
according to teacher, its like 1 hour and 30 mins drive there. hmm..
it would be tiring.
1st round of the competition will be answering 50 objective questions in 30 minutes!!
participants with the highest score will be chosen for the 2nd/final round.
Looks like i have to open up my geography book again. XD
i miss form 3..
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life here is better.
its because im not thinking of you. trying so hard not to.
makes me sad.
but you called.. monday, tuesday, wednesday and thursday.
Im not sure why coz after sunday, i was so sure you are not calling me for a long time.
maybe i was wrong.
it brighten up my day. it really did.
i appreciate it very much.
just hope you'll be alright.
ur skinny now. eat more.

for once, i've not been thinking abt a lot of things. a lot!
i feel much better.much much better.
time really move so slow now. how unfortunate.
do you really want me to let everything go?

I dont feel like myself anymore.
I dont do things i usually do that much anymore.
I'm not practicing my flute enough.
I don't smile/laugh that much anymore like i always do.
ughhh...

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Sometimes, i dont feel appreciated at all.
people used me.
only talk to me when they need me.
left me when they dont think they need me.
left me when they want to be alone.
come back to me when they have nobody else.
I hate you people.
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Happy 50th Independence Day Malaysia!
though i dont have the mood to celebrate it.
its because i had a bad day today in the morning.

anyway
My aunty came to my house today.
it was very surprising coz i never expect that she would come just to see me.'
and guess what? she even bought McD for us.
Its veryvery nice of her.
Thanks you very much!
i appreciate it but Mcd reminds me of something.
there goes my day.
im not blaming her.
the last time i ate mcd was like 3 weeks ago.
im trying to avoid it actually.

Wednesday, 29 August 2007

i want to upload a few pictures but blogger is a bit slow....
i cant stand waiting coz i have a lot of things to do now.
but i wanna update my blog..
Currently, theres this anime on tv i kinda like, Jigoku Shouju. japanese version with english subtitles.
Hardly everr watched it. i only do when i see it on. XD

another frustrating day for me.
i finished reading where rainbows end and tonight im starting if you could see me now.
damn.. tomorrow have to stayback. and will have chemistry tuition after that.
another tiring day.

its almost 9 now and i haven't eat my dinner yet.....
foooooddd...............
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theres something bothering me now.
this question.
another question without an answer for it.
i was going to ask but i forgot.
just wondering.
hmmm..i hardly ever think of it now coz im distracted by lots of things.
maybe it will come back. i dont know.

Monday, 27 August 2007

Holidays are over.
School has just started.
There goes my sleep.
I feel so horrible the whole day.
It was a hothothot dayyyy.... its not like that usually..
I spilled my water without even noticing it after someone told me.
i didn't tighten the cap properly... (sighs)
The form 1's, 2's and 4's had to go to the dewan for somekind of ceramah.

1st, we're late to go to the dewan.
2nd, i was quite relieved coz i was sitting behind.
3rd, the ceramah was... something you hear every single day from you mum,dad,teachers,people areound u and blabla....
4th, i slept............... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.................
5th, it went on and on from 11 something untill 12.45.

I finish class at 1.50 which is earlier. i came down from my class building at 2pm and my bus left me with joyce and shazmiq.
So, we have to wait untill 2.30 for the bus to come again.
While waiting, i was sweating like nobody's business, im thirsty coz i spilled my water from my bottle, im hungry and im frustrated.
So, while waiting for the bus, i went down to kuala ampang to buy my lunch, fried rice.
walked all the way back to school under the sizzling hot sun. (sweats)
I reached home at 3.10p.m.
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26 August 2007, Sunday

I had so much fun yesterday and i enjoyed myself.
I was really sad, angry and confused too.
Anyway, mpyo concert was fantastic!! Wheeeee! Great performance!
I was enjoying myself there.
Shazmiq looked bored... maybe he's not.. XD
Ji Mi looked like he's doing add maths.
I look like.... hmm.. dunno.
I bought another novel by cecelia ahern, If you could see me now.

After the concert, we ( Duncan, Derrick, Shazmiq, Ji Mi and I) went to chillis for lunch+dinner.
For me is luch and dinner because i did not eat my lunch.
We ordered :

  1. 3 BBQ Ranch Burgers
  2. 2 swiss Mushroom Burgers
  3. 4 ice lemon tea
  4. 1 grapeade
  5. Bottomless chips ( i cant remember the name)
All of us ate too much!! I felt like i was going to burst into pieces. My dress felt like its going to rip off... Gawd.....
Seriously.....
We ate a lot!!!! we spent abt 2 hours there, eating, laughing, talking and eating...
we went crazy after our meals....
We did something weird too..
Something weird happened too.. But not to me... its to shazmiq... XDXD

After that, something happened. i went home with a broken heart.

Friday, 24 August 2007

I just finished a great book on Monday and im blogging it like.. today?? swt..


Short synopsis

Some people wait their whole lives to find their soul mates. But not Holly and Gerry.

Childhood sweethearts, they could finish each other's sentences and even when they fought, they laughed. No one could imagine Holly and Gerry without each other.

Until the unthinkable happens. Gerry's death devastates Holly. But as her 30th birthday looms, Gerry comes back to her. He's left her a bundle of notes, gently guiding Holly into her new life without him, each note signed "P.S. I Love You."

As the notes are gradually opened, and as the year unfolds, Holly is both cheered up and challenged. The man who knows her better than anyone sets out to teach her that life goes on. With some help from her friends, and her noisy and loving family, Holly finds herself laughing, crying, singing, dancing - and being braver than ever before.

Life is for living, she realises - but it always helps if there's an angel watching over you.

I cried when i read the last chapter.
Great book! I dont mind reading it again.
But, currently, the book is with Shazmiq.
You watch out if anything happens to the book! *evil eyes*
Currently, Im reading, Where Rainbows end by the same author.


Next book will be If you could see me now/A place called Here.


I love flowers! and hate exams.

These are the pictures i've been wanting to post.
I really love this flower. very much. i can't remember what flower is this.
It took abt almost 3 weeks to take this pictures.









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Now.. exams are coming..real soon....
and it will take me almost 1 month to sit for it.
The ones highlighted in yellow are the exams im sitting for.
haih.. so long...


Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to me....
Happy Birthday to me.......
Happy Birthday to Denise....
Happy Birthday to Me.....

Yeap.. its my birthday today...
I can say a lot of people wished me today.
Thank you everyone!!
Sorry i cant mention everyone's name. too many.
I appreciate it very much..

my day was good today.
Its the happiest day in this 2 months.
I was quite touched when Preshna, Aishvarya and Banu sang me a birthday song.
So sweet of you la... =)

I seriously want to post some pictures but blogger is quite slow now..
Im lazy anyway..

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i enjoyed myself today! =)

food stealer.

as usual.. i'll bring my own food to eat in school. well most of the time i do that.
i KNOW that im going to be hungry.
So, i asked my mu to buy gardenia bread with the chocolate cream inside.
I was in the computer lab and i left my bag outside because we're not allowed to bring our bags in.
after class, i went to bio lab and took out my books.
i realised my food was GONE!!!
ugh... why on earth do you want that bread anyway?
grrr.... i end up with nothing to eat except for the canteen food which was my last choice of food.
nevermind.

The Librarians had a meeting today.
Pn. Solah was going to announced the Majlis Tertinggi (MT) PSS 2007/2008.
I have no idea abt it. XD
anyway, straight to the point.
Im the Timbalan Ketua PSS 07/08. =)
whee.... Thank you!!
Pei Jian is retiring. Aww... =)
Dont worry. hehe.
Congrats to the others who are chosen for the MT.

sorry.. im lazy to post pictures. XD

My msn has virus now THANKS TO wai min..
grrrr....
now i cant use msn live. i must use the OLD msn.
they keep sending me stuffs like..
"look at my idiot pic" =) and a link to a website.
well not my idiot pic la.
i got that virus and now its spreading to my other contacts by itself whenever im using msn live.
so, if you do get it from me, ignore it.
coz i cant control it n it sends the virus by itself.
msn going crazy, all my contacts started popping out on and on,
and after a few seconds, everything was okay and it will keep repeating the same thing untill you get sick of it.
please dont give more more stress.
i need to use the comp for my add maths project.

Minesweeper.

my classmates and i were playing that in the computer lab.
its kinda cold in there.
imagine sitting down there for 4 periods. haih.
XD. actually i have no idea how to play that game.
Numbers all over and i JUST found out it meant something. =.=" silly me.
i've never win that game before.

Minesweeper.
reminds me of something else.
dont know why.
lazy to explain.

For the past few days, i felt so insecure.
REALLY insecure.
i get irritated quite often.
but im okay sometimes.
laughing makes me forget things. sometimes.
when i wake up in the morning, something will be ringing in my head.
its bothering me and yet i dont know what is it.
Sometimes, i hear a song played on a piano on and on every morning.
the same song every single morning.
could it be an alarm? maybe. or maybe im imagining things. XD
sometimes i hear my phone ringing and running all over to search for my phone coz i forgot where i put it.
and again, my mind is playing with me. the phone wasnt ringing at all. gawd.
every afternoon, i always wanted to have a nap but i cant coz i feel bad.
im going nuts.
ughhh...

I have some pictures and i'll upload it some other time.

Whee..

garrhhhh.... stresss!!!!!
Add maths project....!!!!
need more time and help....
Stupid computer..!
Keep shutting down by itself!
whatever i typed is gone!!
well.. not everything la.. the ones i typed recently.
how am i supposed to save it while typing and suddenly it went blank n shuts down.
grrrr.... im sick of doing it already. for today.
Anyway... im currently reading...

Everything in Elizabeth Egan’s life has its place, from the espresso cups in her gleaming kitchen to the swatches and paint pots of her interior design business. Order and precision keep life under control—and keep Elizabeth’s heart from the pain and hurt she has suffered in the past. Being a reluctant mother to her six-year-old nephew while trying to keep her business on track is a full-time job for Elizabeth, and one that leaves little room for error—or fun.

Until, one day, Ivan unexpectedly comes into their lives. The mysterious Ivan is carefree, spontaneous and always looking for adventure—everything that Elizabeth is not. If You Could See Me Now is the extraordinary tale of Ivan and Elizabeth. Of how Ivan meets the love of his life before she even sees him, and how he teaches her that life is only worth living when it's blindingly colourful and the occasional mess. Yet just when Elizabeth is starting to trust him, it turns out that Ivan isn't at all who she thought he was.

Playful and at times intensely moving, this is a novel about how seeing isn't always believing. Full of Cecelia Ahern’s trademark warmth and poignancy, If You Could See Me Now is a story of enormous heart--and just a little bit of magic.


The next book i'll be reading...

This is the extraordinary love story of Clare and Henry who met when Clare was 6 and Henry was 36, and were married when Clare was 22 and Henry was 30. Impossible but true, because Henry suffers from a rare condition, "Chrono-Displacement" that causes him to involuntarily travel through time where his genetic clock periodically resets and he finds himself pulled suddenly into his past or future.

Henry cannot take anything with him into the future or the past. Even fillings in his teeth are left behind. He always "arrives" naked and must work hard while "away" to find clothing, shelter, and food without getting beaten up or arrested. He amasses a number of survival skills including pickpocketing, lock-picking, and expert fighting skills to allow him to get by without the bare necessities. He learns many of these skills from older versions of himself, either when the older self is time-traveling into his own past, or when his older and younger selves' time-traveling coincides.

Clare Abshire comes from a wealthy family, goes to Catholic school and then moves to Chicago to study art. She eventually becomes an artist, making paper and creating sculptures from paper and wire frames.

Henry time travels into Clare's childhood many times, starting in 1977 when she is six years old. He gives her a list of the visits he will make when he visits her for the first time (in her past), then she writes these dates into a diary so she can expect his visits. As an adult, when all of the visits are through, she gives the list to him to return to her in her past. He visits her numerous times during her childhood and adolescence, and inadvertently reveals that they will be married in the future. His last visit takes place on her eighteenth birthday in 1989, and then they are separated for two years until they finally meet in real time for both of them.

When 20-year-old Clare meets up with 28-year-old Henry in 1991, he has never seen her before, although she has known him most of her life. Clare's past is still in Henry's future. Henry begins to experience the events in Clare's childhood at the same time that he experiences life with the adult Clare in the present. In the novel, the future cannot be changed, and many tragic events are foreshadowed in the past.

Clare and Henry get married, but have trouble conceiving a child because of his genetic disorder. After six miscarriages, Henry gives up and has a vasectomy. Later, a past version of Henry travels to the future and makes love to Clare and she becomes pregnant and carries the child to term. They have a daughter named Alba, who is diagnosed with the same disorder. Before she is born, Henry travels to the future and meets Alba at ten years old. Alba reveals to Henry that he is to die when she is five years old.

Years later, Henry time-travels to Chicago on a very cold winter night, where he is unable to find shelter. He experiences hypothermia and develops frostbite. After returning to his 'present', his feet are amputated, while the story has stressed that his ability to run is his most important survival skill. It is not long before Henry time-travels into the middle of th Michigan during deer season and is fatally shot by Clare's brother. He returns to the present and dies in Clare’s arms.

Clare is devastated by Henry's passing, and feels unable to live her life without him. She finds a letter from Henry describing an experience he had with her in her future, when she is an old woman. Henry doesn't want Clare to wait for him, but he wants her to know that they will see each other again because love knows no boundaries and transcends time and death. Clare then lives to old age, and is visited by Henry for a final time.

Interesting book... cant wait to read it.. and i've already bought it.

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School was boring.
i shouldn't have go to school.
Not even 1 teacher enter my class.
i spent 2 periods sleeping in class.
another 2 periods reading.
Hmm.. The form 5's are having their trials.
All the best!!
so, my class was moved to block D.
Well, i spent my form 1 and 2 there.
A lot of memories.
i miss all those times you used to come into my class just to see me.
and.....
i got a dark bruise on my feet. it hurts whenever i walk.

Frustrated again.

Seriously i am.
its like.... having pmr exam. gawd. though its like ages ago.
well it felt like ages ago though it was 11 months ago.
haih....
i just wish i could erase a few things in my mind.
Now, i should make a list.
yeah... a list of advantages of something lah..
theres this anger in me that i wish i could let it out.
i need a punching bag.
So many people disappointed me. Let me down. and hurt me.
oh well.. what goes around, comes around and it goes all the way back around.
Now, all i have to do is study hard and at the same time enjoy life and most importantly enjoy myself.
Move on with life.
though i miss the old me.
I dont really like the new me now.
Some things made me change and i dont really like it.
i miss the old Denise.

silly

if you already took out the modem already..
why did u put it back?
Scared i'll find out?
come on, the modem is still hot even after 1 hour+ ??

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my day was alright.
though there was anger in me all day. even now.
nothing much.
went to tuition and suddenly something bugged me.
it was something i love and miss sooo much.
wish i could turn back time.
I will never forgive you.
I can't and i wont accept your apology.
I dont know who exactly are you anymore.
You let me down really badly..
You disappoint me.
You hurt me.
You are such a cruel person.
I really don't want to HATE you.
But i already do.
You gave me false hope.
You betrayed me.
You gave up everything.
You walked away when thats the time i needed you the most.
You only think about yourself.
All you care is abt yourself.
You always said you can't do anything about it.
I think you can.
You are not strong enough.
I felt like i was being used.
I helped you with your school projects.
I helped you to find you favourite song and i burned it.
I did everything i could when you were not well.
I spent all my free time with you.
I was always there for you when you needed me.
I made you smile and laugh and i brighten up your day.
I did lots of things for you.
I did everything i could just to help you and to be there for you.
I know, i do get angry and sad.
I am needy.
Its not that i don't understand.
It is because i cared.

So..... ever wonder what do i get in return?
Yes.
You are such an ungrateful person.
I don't know whether you appreciate any of it.
Im so frustrated now.
You are so *tuuuut*
You think that you are so great. but you are not.
Do you know how many people "throw stones" on you??
well, you cant count it with your finger coz theres tons of them.
I dont gain anything by telling lies.
You said things that were not true just because you were facing it.
doenst mean that im the same as you.
Dont you realize that theres a HGE DIFFERENCE between us??
Its like chalk and cheese. XD
Im not like you. not a single bit like you.
you spread rumors about me, talk bad about me, only talk to me when you need me.
You are such a 2-faced person. One of the worst person i've ever met in my life.
You brag abt how good you were at "something" but you actually suck at it really badly.
You brag abt how bad i am in it but i proved you wrong and i squished you flat.
well, you will be punish again.
from the way i see it, i pity you and i feel sorry for you.
but on the other hand, you deserve it.
I dont know who made you like this.
So what if you dont care.
if you dont care, dont bother abt this post.
dont bother to write it to defend youself.
dont bother to tell me off too.
you dont seem to care about anything including yourself.
if you dont care abt yourself, then why care abt the relationship we had?
why do you cry over it and you said it hurts you??
you are so fake. all bullshit and crocodile tears.
you will never realize and learn from your mistakes.
you will never learn because... as YOU SAID, "i dont care"
Well, i just hope you will wake up from the "dead" and change.

September.

theres one thing thats really bothering me now.
it makes me angry and i feel like giving you a punch on your face.
now you are using me to cover up your mistake??
what kind of a person are you??
if you do did something wrong, just take that responsibility that you're wrong.
you don't have to lie.
Especially using me to do it.
Thank god i did not listen to you.
coz i sense something is not right.

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What in the world is in your mind now???
ughh....
i dont know what i should do now. i feel so stuck.
should i start letting it go and give up??
or should i still hang on to it??
yes, i know you need time and im giving you time.
But you seem to run away everytime i have a conversation with you.
its like you are trying to avoid me talking abt us.
i maybe wrong but at the moment, that is how i felt.
dont worry, i wont bring it up unless you do it first.
i seriously dont know what are you doing.
and the pink dog. i think it left me too.
the beautiful flowers are dying.

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Here's a question i would like an answer for you reader who are reading.
and please respond.

Lets say you are a thief.
you found a wallet with money in it.
Will you take all of the money?? or will you take some of the money??

My answer will be : which idiotic thief will not take all of the money???


I've been chosen to enter a Environment Quiz/ Kuiz Alam Sekitar!
yeap..i've been chosen along with my 3 other classmates, shazmiq, joon yoon and joanna.
its next week tuesday held somewhere in Banting.
according to teacher, its like 1 hour and 30 mins drive there. hmm..
it would be tiring.
1st round of the competition will be answering 50 objective questions in 30 minutes!!
participants with the highest score will be chosen for the 2nd/final round.
Looks like i have to open up my geography book again. XD
i miss form 3..
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life here is better.
its because im not thinking of you. trying so hard not to.
makes me sad.
but you called.. monday, tuesday, wednesday and thursday.
Im not sure why coz after sunday, i was so sure you are not calling me for a long time.
maybe i was wrong.
it brighten up my day. it really did.
i appreciate it very much.
just hope you'll be alright.
ur skinny now. eat more.

for once, i've not been thinking abt a lot of things. a lot!
i feel much better.much much better.
time really move so slow now. how unfortunate.
do you really want me to let everything go?

I dont feel like myself anymore.
I dont do things i usually do that much anymore.
I'm not practicing my flute enough.
I don't smile/laugh that much anymore like i always do.
ughhh...

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Sometimes, i dont feel appreciated at all.
people used me.
only talk to me when they need me.
left me when they dont think they need me.
left me when they want to be alone.
come back to me when they have nobody else.
I hate you people.
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Happy 50th Independence Day Malaysia!
though i dont have the mood to celebrate it.
its because i had a bad day today in the morning.

anyway
My aunty came to my house today.
it was very surprising coz i never expect that she would come just to see me.'
and guess what? she even bought McD for us.
Its veryvery nice of her.
Thanks you very much!
i appreciate it but Mcd reminds me of something.
there goes my day.
im not blaming her.
the last time i ate mcd was like 3 weeks ago.
im trying to avoid it actually.
i want to upload a few pictures but blogger is a bit slow....
i cant stand waiting coz i have a lot of things to do now.
but i wanna update my blog..
Currently, theres this anime on tv i kinda like, Jigoku Shouju. japanese version with english subtitles.
Hardly everr watched it. i only do when i see it on. XD

another frustrating day for me.
i finished reading where rainbows end and tonight im starting if you could see me now.
damn.. tomorrow have to stayback. and will have chemistry tuition after that.
another tiring day.

its almost 9 now and i haven't eat my dinner yet.....
foooooddd...............
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theres something bothering me now.
this question.
another question without an answer for it.
i was going to ask but i forgot.
just wondering.
hmmm..i hardly ever think of it now coz im distracted by lots of things.
maybe it will come back. i dont know.
Holidays are over.
School has just started.
There goes my sleep.
I feel so horrible the whole day.
It was a hothothot dayyyy.... its not like that usually..
I spilled my water without even noticing it after someone told me.
i didn't tighten the cap properly... (sighs)
The form 1's, 2's and 4's had to go to the dewan for somekind of ceramah.

1st, we're late to go to the dewan.
2nd, i was quite relieved coz i was sitting behind.
3rd, the ceramah was... something you hear every single day from you mum,dad,teachers,people areound u and blabla....
4th, i slept............... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.................
5th, it went on and on from 11 something untill 12.45.

I finish class at 1.50 which is earlier. i came down from my class building at 2pm and my bus left me with joyce and shazmiq.
So, we have to wait untill 2.30 for the bus to come again.
While waiting, i was sweating like nobody's business, im thirsty coz i spilled my water from my bottle, im hungry and im frustrated.
So, while waiting for the bus, i went down to kuala ampang to buy my lunch, fried rice.
walked all the way back to school under the sizzling hot sun. (sweats)
I reached home at 3.10p.m.
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26 August 2007, Sunday

I had so much fun yesterday and i enjoyed myself.
I was really sad, angry and confused too.
Anyway, mpyo concert was fantastic!! Wheeeee! Great performance!
I was enjoying myself there.
Shazmiq looked bored... maybe he's not.. XD
Ji Mi looked like he's doing add maths.
I look like.... hmm.. dunno.
I bought another novel by cecelia ahern, If you could see me now.

After the concert, we ( Duncan, Derrick, Shazmiq, Ji Mi and I) went to chillis for lunch+dinner.
For me is luch and dinner because i did not eat my lunch.
We ordered :

  1. 3 BBQ Ranch Burgers
  2. 2 swiss Mushroom Burgers
  3. 4 ice lemon tea
  4. 1 grapeade
  5. Bottomless chips ( i cant remember the name)
All of us ate too much!! I felt like i was going to burst into pieces. My dress felt like its going to rip off... Gawd.....
Seriously.....
We ate a lot!!!! we spent abt 2 hours there, eating, laughing, talking and eating...
we went crazy after our meals....
We did something weird too..
Something weird happened too.. But not to me... its to shazmiq... XDXD

After that, something happened. i went home with a broken heart.
I just finished a great book on Monday and im blogging it like.. today?? swt..


Short synopsis

Some people wait their whole lives to find their soul mates. But not Holly and Gerry.

Childhood sweethearts, they could finish each other's sentences and even when they fought, they laughed. No one could imagine Holly and Gerry without each other.

Until the unthinkable happens. Gerry's death devastates Holly. But as her 30th birthday looms, Gerry comes back to her. He's left her a bundle of notes, gently guiding Holly into her new life without him, each note signed "P.S. I Love You."

As the notes are gradually opened, and as the year unfolds, Holly is both cheered up and challenged. The man who knows her better than anyone sets out to teach her that life goes on. With some help from her friends, and her noisy and loving family, Holly finds herself laughing, crying, singing, dancing - and being braver than ever before.

Life is for living, she realises - but it always helps if there's an angel watching over you.

I cried when i read the last chapter.
Great book! I dont mind reading it again.
But, currently, the book is with Shazmiq.
You watch out if anything happens to the book! *evil eyes*
Currently, Im reading, Where Rainbows end by the same author.


Next book will be If you could see me now/A place called Here.