angry

Im not happy, angry, annoyed, frustrated and someone please help me insert more unhappy feelings to complete my sentence.

Have you ever felt so annoyed and angry that you just wanna scream your lungs out?!?!
This is exactly how I feel right now.

Take note on the time I post this. Its almost 1 a.m and my schedule tmr ain't making me feel better.

UGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Dumbasses who don't know how to cross the road.

Foreign workers/people seriously need a course on HOW TO CROSS A ROAD IN KL.

You cannot just come running on main roads like there's no cars around. This goes to bangla/nepal/similar countries who just cannot cross the road properly. This also goes to ladies who are lazy to carry their baby strollers up the pedestrian bridge to cross the road and come dashing in from nowhere that my jaw literally dropped and I had to hit the brakes real hard. Luckily I was alert enough that I didn't hit you ladies down. Its a bloody main road and there was a pedestrian bridge and cars are everywhere. You ladies still have the guts to cross with your baby in your arms??

Honestly I wouldn't simply cross the road because I value my life and I don't want to lose it to the fact that I did not use a pedestrian bridge or look left and right and making sure it is safe to cross.

Another incident while I was driving back home, I was driving quite fast. These group of bangla people come dashing out on jalan ampang. Again I had to hit my brakes real hard coz you people were practically taking a stroll on the main road like its a damn freaking park. I had to stop and wait like forever for you dumbasses to cross the road, while you jerks were taking your own sweet time. I just wished I could've knocked you guys down if it teaches the whole bunch of you people to cross the road with a civilised mind.

I think chickens can cross the road way better.

Things I can't stand (Updated : 12 March 2010)

Kinda lazy to elaborate but these are some of the things that either annoys me but not enough to piss me off or it annoys me and pisses me off or it just spoils my mood altogether. There are some blanks which I'll fill in from time to time.

1. Sucky Maxis/Hotlink and Digi line at my house.

2. People lying to me even after I found out the truth.

3. Feeling hungry while having classes.

4. PMS

5. Hot weather. You know when you can feel your skin burning??

6. Chalkboards.

7.Not getting a car so that I could drive home from college.

8. Studying nowadays feels like you're studying for SPM everyday. Its as if SPM is tomorrow.

9. My long fringe which are poking my eyes and nose.

10. Having trouble looking for a scrunchy or rubber band to tie my hair up. So, I had to used a pencil instead.

11. Cleaning my tremendously messy room with books and papers everywhere at the end of every week.

12. I can't stand it that I don't have a Blackberry. LOL

13.People who don't usually call me, AT ALL calling me just to ask someone else to reply to their messages or calls or whatever. If its important I don't mind but if its not, it definitely annoys me to the max. I'll be annoyed at both parties. What am I now, a postman?

14. I have to actually argue with my dad over the TV remote coz I don't get to watch my shows. He literally lives at the couch in my living room. Not that I watch TV that often. Sometimes I only watch TV once in 2 weeks. 

15. People on facebook demanding(facebook message) me to add them as friends. AND adds me back even after I ignored them.

16. 

Heated up. *edits*

I'm back! =D

Its been a hell of a month for me. My 3rd test, which is also the final exam for my first semester is all over. I've been worried sick for the past 1 month and I still am coz my results will be out next week.

I've never studied so much and so hard ever. As in seriously, its nothing compared to SPM. After my 2nd exam was over, there was no break for me. Time is of the essence. I've been having sleepless nights, swollen eyes, raging pimples popping off all over my face, studying every waking hour and such. Yeah, I am here to complain about my life that has been sucking the living soul out of me.

I remember saying this before I made up my mind about taking A Levels. I said that "I am so gonna lose my social life.", "Damn, I'll have to study like theres no tomorrow" etc. Hell yeah I am doing all these now. I don't know why in the world I even took up A levels. Fuck lah. Its tremendously, excruciatingly difficult.

I've fallen ill 4 times this year. I've never gotten sick so many times in less than a year. Most of it happened when exams are approaching. Its really depressing and I hate feeling all feverish and have my head spin round and round.

I've been deprived of sleep and it makes me feel all grumpy coz the slightest thing could just tick me off easily and I'll explode like a nuclear bomb.Its so bad to the extend that I even feel guilty of sleeping although its the most essential thing for me, a human. And when a human is deprived of sleep, wonders could happen.

I cried quite a few times coz I couldn't handle the pressure and it really is difficult. Its just like what Kok Siang was saying the other day, "SPM is like CH3COOH and STPM/A Levels are like H2SO4" Don't get it? LOL nevermind. If you do, congratulations!

There are many times I felt like giving up. It felt so suicidal.

The first day of my exam, I sat for General Paper and Applied Maths. Its was alright. I just hate Permutation and Combination. Who cares is 6 people is chosen in a group, 3 of them are boys and another 3 are girls and 2 of the girls refuse to sit next to each other!?!

The second day was far more worse than I expected. I was literally cursing throughout my Chemistry paper. There were 40 objective questions and 6 structured question each with at least 6 questions and I only had 1 hour and 30 minutes to complete everything. How absurd is that? All of us were given 45 minutes to answer the objective question and the answer sheet were collected when the time is up. My eyes were already watery when the invigilator was waiting by my table to collect my answer sheet. I shaded my last 8 answers C's because I was out of time and I didn't even had the chance to read the questions. I bet the others felt the same way as I do. Oh, I have the balance 45 minutes to complete all the structured question which I did not. I think I partly blame it on time and also the fact that I don't know how to answer the question in such a short time.

Pure maths was alright. A few silly mistakes.

Biology paper was kinda okay. I'm quite satisfied with it.

I might lose my scholarship if I do fail any subject and if I do get an average score of under 60.

I feel damn sakit hati wei.. As terrible as it seems, I always do hope for a better result. Excuse my profanities in this post. I just can't tahan to keep it inside anymore. Now that the exams are over, I have one more thing to worry about, which is Parent-Lecturer Day. T.T

OK lahhhh, I know you people might think I'm over exagerrating over this issue coz I might be or may not be. It depends on how one sees it actually. *big smiles*

I'm either gonna continue watching True Blood or get my 12 hours of sleep.

I love the series. Its awesome. Damn, vanpires can be so brutal and yet seductive. LOL

This series is definitely something worth watching. =D


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Since this post is already filled with complains, I shall go on further coz I wanna do this once and for all. I don't really like flooding my blog page with all my complains and whinings so, allow me to do this okay?

Prior to what I've just said earlier, that I easily get ticked off by the tiniest thing? Indeed I was cross with one of my classmate due to something really small. It was a piled up feeling of annoyance and I just could not tolerate it anymore. I don't wanna blog the details of it here coz its not nice. I'm just expressing how annoyed I am. My classmate apologized but things are still unresolved due to our exams and since the incident, we didn't really communicate at all tll today. I don't wanna risk making things more complicated.

I just read Elle's post on how people asking for donations. As cruel as I can sound, I'm not giving anymore of my money to some random stranger who is collecting money for some disbled charity.. To be exact, I dont give a damn about it anymore. Come to me one more time and I'll say, "FUCK OFF" I have my reasons for saying this.

Imagine if your eating at a mamak with a bunch of friends coz mamak food is cheap around my area. Then a stranger will approach you at the side of your table saying "Hello, I am yada yada yada from dot dot dot and I am doing la la la for this and that charity. Here, is my license and such and pictures of disabled children bla bla bla. So..... " I'll end up feeling sorry for all these disabled kids but I felt even more sorry for the guy who came asking money from us.

First of all, I'm eating in a mamak restaurant. As a student, I am saving my money for myself and for my future. I went  to a mamak restaurant because the food is cheaper and it fills up my tummy coz I had a freaking long day in college, I'm tired, I still have to study when I get home and the cycle goes on almost everyday.. In college, I only spent RM1.90 and sometimes RM2.20 for my lunch and nothing else. I am not from a rich family, just an average one and I'm happy with whatever I have. And there you go, a stranger asking at least RM10 from us which could buy me a week of lunch in my college canteen. Its not that I can't afford giving RM10. I can, but thats not the point. If I sincerely want to donate, I could give any amount I want and not having to state RM10 is the minimum amount. I'm not being all kedekut or kiam siap. I just want to have a pleasant meal with my friends and you people out there to just shut up, go away and stop walking around asking money from us. Don't you feel tired asking money from every stranger you meet like we, civillians owe those disabled kids our money?

Second of all, I've been cheated once and that would be the last time. Mei Yean and I were on our way to Midvalley to buy a pair of dress for prom. There are these bunch of guys ambushed us with their charity stuffs again and they asked us to write our names to just support them. Boy, they are a bunch of sweet talker I'll tell you that. WE THOUGHT that we wrote our names just to support them and we just left. But it turns out that we have to donate RM30 to them. I we were like, "FUCK WEI, we just got cheated!"

Oh, here's another one. I was with my high school friends at Pavilion's Food Republic. We were eating and suddenly a woman just sat at our table. Some of us were kinda stunned and I thought that maybe one of my friends knew her or something coz she didn't say a word. Then, the took out a small little piece of paper saying "Hello. I am from dunno what foundation. I am deaf and dumb. Would you be kind enough to ......??" It ws my first encounter with these style of asking donation so I just went all speechless for i dunno what reason. My friend shoooed her away. Eeeeee. Its so rude to grab a seat with a bunch people you dont know.  I never knew Pavilion would have such things.

I don't have any problem with these disabled people. I really do symphatise and I feel sorry for them. Its the people who come bugging me to "donate" money for the less fortunate that heats me up. Just so you know, I don't even have the guts to ask my parents for money coz I understand that they are saving for my education and the household stuffs. Its not that they can't afford to give me money. Infact they can but I don't have the thick face to ask them unless I desperately need it. I don't know how you people go round asking for donations as your job. What will you answer if you were to have a son/daughter who asked you, "Daddy/Mummy, what is your occupation?" "Oh, Daddy/Mummy go round town asking people for donations for the less fortunate people" In what category is that job in? Sales? or? I dunno, I can't find a name for that kind of job. Oh wait! If its for charity, maybe you people are sincerly doing it without a salary? Well, I don't know about that. Maybe there are. But as far as I'm concerned, nothing in the world is free.

Face it, I still depend on my parents in many many ways and in this case, I still depend on them financially. I don't have a steady job to support myself, I don't earn my own salary yet, and I am still studying to get a good education and also making my way up toward acheiving my goal in life so that I wont suffer in the future and my kids wont have to go through poverty. When I am already financially stable, I wouldn't mind giving donations through the appropriate channel that for sure.

I know most of us are not obligated to donate money but the amount of people coming to me nowadays is just absurd. I have a phobia with these kind of people. I know some of you readers may have a different view/opinion on this topic. I may or may not be wrong. This donation thing shouldn't be bothering me or any of us but its becoming a public annoyance and I already am despising it. Stop making us feel all sorry and donate money all the time. Apparently Symphaty has a price to pay right now.

haih, I'm tired now. Byeeee. =D

Denise did lotsa things this week. =)

I think, for the first time in my life, I experience that people have it on Monday's. The Monday Blues.

I was alright in the morning. =) I was all happy but a little worried about my Biology presentation that my group and I were supposed to do but we were not sure.. So, to be on the safe side, I brought my super heavy Bio textbook which is so condensed with all the info and borrowed Afiq's laptop. I took a cab to college since I start later on Mondays.

College was okay... My group manage to finish up the presentation on power point underhigh pressure.I had a few things bugging me in my mind when I was in college. Vi, Shi Jun and I took a cab back from college. I went to AP for a while to photostat some notes for my classmates. This is where I reached my breaking point.

D : Photostat 2 set. *hands the notes to him.
Photostat guy (PG) : ok.

5 minutes later.

PG : *handed the 2 sets of notes to me
D : Eh, cepatnya!

*checks the pages...

D : uik, kenapa photostat satu belah je??
PG : You tak cakap nak photostat dua dua belah..

I was a little pissed already.

D : Kena bagi tahu ke?? Its understood what.. Can you please photostat the missing pages??
PG : Ok Ok, boleh tunggu sekejap tak??
D : yeah... boleh.

And so I waited there for awhile thinking it wont take that long. AS I was waiting I saw them trying to photostat the missing pages. Apparently he is a noob at photostatting. I've never seen this guy before coz usually its a bangla guy who does it. This new guy photostatted wrongly like the last page that was missing landed on the 2nd page. So, he had to re-do it.

Then I saw him Photostatting it one-by-one manually. I waited like a dumb ass there thinking he would finish it up soon. So, when he was done, I felt really happy that its finally done. I happily queued up to pay for it. Then, I had a feeling that I should check whether he Photostatted the right one or not. As I was flipping through the pages, I realised that the pages we repeating itself.

As in, before this he only Photostatted page 1,3,5,7,9 and so on... NOW, when he Photostatted the 2nd time, he bloody Photostatted page 1,3,5,7,9,.... on both side of the tapper instead of the missing pages for 2 sets of notes!

"FUCK!" I said. I think a guy who was standing behind me heard it. I'm so darn tired and I haven't ate my lunch yet. It was already 5 something. I went back to the PG and scolded him

"Excuse me! You Photostatted my notes ALL WRONG!! *shows him the noes* YOU SEE! I FREAKING TOLD YOU TO PHOTOSTAT THE MISSING PAGES, NOT THE ONES THAT YOU'VE ALREADY PHOTOSTAT ED. I WAITED HERE SO LONG FOR LIKE 45 MINUTES JUST FOR YOU TO COMPLETE MY NOTES. COME ON LAH, THE NOTES ARE LIKE ONLY 50 PAGES EACH AND IT TOOK YOU SO DARN LONG TO FINISH IT. FIRST, YOUR MISTAKE WAS PHOTOSTATTING ONLY ONE SIDE OF EACH PAGE. THAT WAS OKAY, I WAS WILLING TO WAIT. NOW YOU MADE ANOTHER MISTAKE WHICH IS PHOTOSTATING THE SAME PAGES ON BOTH SIDES OF THE PAPER. I NEVER HAD ANY PROBLEM PHOTOSTATTING HERE BEFORE. WHAT KIND OF SERVICE ARE YOU PROVIDING??

He told me to wait for awhile more.

I said, "NO! I'M NOT GONNA WAIT ANYMORE. YOU CAN TAKE THIS RUBBISH COZ I'M SICK OF WAITING" I slammed the 2 sets of notes on the counter and left without paying. I was about to cry after I left the shop. I know I'm kinda rude. I wont be if they are were not acting all stuck up and talked to me like i dunno anything in the first place. I was exhausted, hungry and feeling sleepy all at once. Imagine the frustration.

Later that night, Afiq dropped by at my place so that I could return his laptop. From far, I saw him holding an orange box and a plastic bag. Then I realised it was J Co Doughnuts in his hands. HAHA. I was so distracted by the doughnuts that I noticed the doughnuts first. Sorryyyy! I was wondering why he has J Co's with him. Probably he bought it to eat later. Turns out, it was for ME! wheee~!

I was so darn happy! =DDDD eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I wanted to give him a big hug for that! and I did. XDD and then there was pasta too! LOL!!! @.@ My jaw dropped.

*drools*

That really cheered my up. Thank you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo very very much, Afiq!!

I felt better the next day coz I had 9 hours of sleep and my eyes were sparkling like diamonds when I woke up. XD

The other things I did this week was, on Wednesday, I went to eat Chillis at KLCC with Vi.


I lost to him in a bet one year ago. =.=

I ate until I was so full, can die (wth, kidding)

On Thursday, I had Biology practical on food testing. So, there was a lot of chemicals involved like Hydrochloric acid, Benedict's Solution, potato juice, amylase(saliva), sucrose, iodine, etc etc.

I was kinda rushing throughout the experiment that one time, I was asking one of my classmates in a rushing tone,

"Ei ei!! where's the Absolute Vodka ah?? where is it??

"Vodka???!"

"Alamak!! Nononono! I mean Alcohol! Absolute Alcohol!"

They laughed at me and asking me if I was okay. swtt.. I know, vodka is an alcohol but the solution name was Absolute Alcohol. It was one of the chemicals used to test the presence of fats. LOL. Maybe I do need a shot of vodka after all. @.@ wth.

After college, I met up with an old friend.. =) We haven't seen each other for 2 years? Wait, I think its about one year. I can't really remember but it was a long time.. We went to The Apartment at KLCC for lunch. We talked abt our lives, how much both of us changed, random stuffs etc. you could say its like catching up with each other. Then, we watched Transformers. the movie was awesome. Except the part where an old bald guy was kicking my seat. Eish, no etiquette's at all. The movie finished at 10 something and I was already feeling dead beat. We bid farewell to each other at the train station. I had a great time. =)

On Friday, I went to KLCC AGAIN! LOL. This is the 3rd time of the week. Isetan was having a Mega Sale for members. Wye Kik has a membership card which gives us more discounts. LOL. Tell me who doesn't love discounts. I bought some clothes. Mei yean and I had a very cheeky plan but wye kik spoiled all the fun. Eishhh.... Anyway, besides that I had fun with both of you! =DD

Today, I went to Sg. Wang with Mei Yean to look for a dress for Appreciation Night aka Prom Night. I found a few nice ones but I didn't buy coz I still wanna consider it and probably I could find better ones. oh!I found out Mei yean and I were from the same primary school, SRK Tmn midah 2 back when I was still living in Cheras. Small world!!

This is one of it. Its dark purple but it looks like black here.

I'm so gonna study like a mad woman, I tell you.

Dah la I never watched tv for 3 weeks until this afternoon.... Damn kesian.

I hate it

When people can't take care of their pets.

I'm not an animal lover but I love their company from time to time. Maybe it's because my mum hates pets and I'm not allowed to keep any pets with fur. Another thing is that I am also allergic to animal fur. Anyway..... Every morning on my way to work, I realise that there will be 2 small cups with food and water. Well, I was quite bothered by the fact that cats will be wandering all over my place since there's cat food. True enough, there's this cat that keeps on moaning and meowing when I step out of my house for work and when I am back home from work. It keeps on scratching on my door, sneak into my balcony and front door. What's worse is when I found out that that cat belongs to my neighbour upstairs.

They adopted a cat from SPCA recently. I don't really know what happen but it seems that the uncle upstairs hates cats and his wife had to put it outside. So, I was really annoyed and went upstairs with the cat. The cat was unbelievably adorable and attached. I wasn't sure whether the story was true, so I asked her..

"Auntie, is this your cat??"

*cat runs into the house*

"yeah, yeah, yeah! it is... Its not supposed to stay inside because uncle don't want it."

"Ohh.."

she quickly ordered her son to grab the cat. As she was picking up the cat, I told her off.

"Aunty, why adopt a cat if you have to put it outside. Why don't you just return it back?! It has been coming in and out of my house through the front door and balcony. It also makes a lot of noise."

"yeah la, I'm going to return it tmr."

"Yeah. Return it back lah if you can't take care of it."

She quickly took the cat downstairs and put it some where.

I really pity the cat. Idiotic people. Want to put it outside then better don't adopt it lah!! Then why do you think that SPCA Organisation exist?!?! For stray/orphan animals la that have nowhere to go!! Secondly, why even bother adopting a pet if you don't have the approval of every family member???!!!

There are more than enough of stay cats/dog in Kuala Lumpur already. So, don't bother rubbing salt into the wound. Such heartless creatures, human beings can be.

If I ever see that poor little cat wandering around here ever again, I seriously gonna do something about this. Tomorrow is my off day, so I can go make a report for animal abuse and bring that cat along with me. I don't think that cat deserves any of this.

Don't take care of animals if you can't take full responsibility on it.
If you can't shower your pet with love and fulfil their every needs just like your own child, then don't even bother thinking of having any pets.

Sheeesh...

Why bother?

I wanna rip someone off into tiny pieces. Coward bastards. I feel so relieved that its over. It is actually the best decision I've ever made although I don't see it that way at the beginning.

Thinking about it makes me laugh where the fact that all of it is so stupid. I wasted my time. I learned my lesson the hard way. Since I was young, my parents always remind me not to hurt anyone. I always add on that is, "... unless the person hurts you" Seriously, I never thought they are such two-faced idiots. In front of me, they are such sweet talkers but behind me, they just HAVE (no choice) to hurt me.

It turns out they were not completely honest with me. I found out about it one way or another. They broke my trust big time. More like, smashed it into a minute pieces. It's impossible to fix it. I think its better to leave it that way. I don't wanna pick up the smashed pieces because its not worth it.

Oh wait, why do I even bother about it anyway? haha. I'm just trying to express my dissatisfaction. I feel like laughing. XD

Good Night.