Who wins it all tonight?

David Cook?



David Archuleta?




David Cook




David Archuleta




David Cook




or David Archuleta



XD
Honestly, I love both of them very much.
Both of them have their own style and personality.

David Cook can sing a very wide range of songs or in other words.. Anythin!

David Archuleta has a perfect voice when it comes to ballad songs.

OMG....
After watching the Grand Finale,
I can't think of who is going to win this year's season.

I would like to highlight that the last song that David Cook sang, The World I know really touched my heart.
I was abt to cry listening to it.

On the other hand, I love David Archuleta's last song too. Imagine by John Lennon.
It was Perfect. Im speechless actually.

Anyway, whoever wins, I'll be happy abt it.
Both of them are equally amazingly perfectly good.
lol..

Freedom

I'm sick of exams.
Seriously sick abt it. >.<
Why is it 3 extremely long weeks??!?
Its like gluing your eyes onto school books almost everyday for this month.

Anyway, I'm declaring my own END OF EXAMS/FREEDOM which is tomorrow. =D
Muahahahaha!!
I shall not read my books for a few weeks from tomorrow onwards.
Although exams ends on Friday.
After school, Im gonna go to *somewhere* to pick up a pair of white skirt which i made a reservation last Sunday, get a haircut, go to tuition, dance class for approx. 2 hours, listen to songs and sleep.
There, I've just plan my day for tomorrow. Hopefully nothing goes wrong.

Then, I'll be starting my exercise regime most probably on Saturday.
I need to lose the extra baggage on my tummy.
Now i know where all my weight goes to = my tummy.
=.=" not exactly what i wanted but hey, at least i gained weight.
Some people say i don't seem to gain any weight/ i did not change a single bit at all.
Some say I'm getting chubby(omg...)
Some call me fat. (obviously i know its not true)
Some say I look better.
Some say you should eat more. (@.@. you have no idea how much i eat nowadays)

Whatever it is, Thank you for the compliments and opinions. =)

The movie : Prince Caspian
Me likeyyy... =D

lol.. dont mind my English. XD

In this entry, I would like to express my condolence to one of my schoolmate.
He passed away last week Monday due to Leukemia.
It is a cancer of the blood or bone marrow and is characterized by an abnormal proliferation (production by multiplication) of blood cells, usually white blood cells, leukocytes.
He was diagnosed with Leukemia after having fever on and off last year.
According to my friends who were in the same class as them, before he passed away,
he did a few out of the ordinary things.
He even wrote a letter before he passed away.
I guess he could not take the pain any longer.

Even though I do not know them (they're twins) well.
I realised that twins will always be well known especially in school. Everyone knows them and recognized them immediately. I have cousins who are twins, they're guys and the same age as I am. yeah, they're popular in sch. no doubt. I guess its the same for all twins around the world.

Anyway, thats not my point. My point is losing your other twin who you shared 17 years of your lives with. They grew up with each other having each other side by side. People always get confused which is which or who is who when they see twins because they look almost alike but not alike. Ah well, I have nothing much to say abt this.

A few of my friends cried in school early in the morning before our exams started.
Some of them even ditched exams just to see their dear friend.
So much so, they even got scolded by (i rather not mention) for being so dumb to ditch it and straight away left school just to see them.
But hey, if I was in their shoes, I would probably do the same thing. Its hard to say actually.

One of my classmates had Leukemia too but he's really strong trying to overcome with it.
I've seen him from the time he was a healthy person to a unwell person and he came back stronger than before.
Its heartbreaking to see it actually.
I've lost my grandmother due to this ultimately herculean deadly disease. not leukemia but due to lung cancer. She wasn't a smoker.
All my life, I've seen her leading a healthy lifestyle, eating healthy and balanced food and still strong enough to do house chores.
Chemotherapy is extremely excruciating from what i saw.
The side effects are not just losing your hair or having you gum bleed or losing weight.
ugh.

Life is short.
Sometimes, people don't know what they have and cherish them until they lose it.
This is just a general statement.

An OUting with The Guys.

As far as i can remember, I think I forgot to post an entry which is an outing with they guys. XD
Anyway, I feel soooo free now although my exams are still on.
AS from now, I have..
Modern Mathematics paper 1 & 2
Physics paper 3
Chemistry Paper 2
Biology Paper 1
and EST Paper 1 & 2

All of them should be alright except for Chemistry that I have to worry a little.
So, here it goes, An Outing with the guys.

It all begins on a Saturday Morning when we, the debaters were at school in the weee hours of the morning with out eyelids half open and a blur expression plastered on our faces.
Back then we were preparing for the semi-finals of Gombak District Debate against SMK Selayang Baru on the topic

"The Education System in Malaysian Schools are Churning Out Mechanical Dummies and Not Critical Thinking Individuals"

Well, this topic was the hardest topic we've ever done for the entire debate. Seriously.
I thought this topic would be easy as i glanced trough it.
We kept writing out our speeches over and over again.
Because we we're confused!!!
All these while, we were writing abt the Education System in our very own country.
But, 1 week before the actual debate, we realised that we've got it completely wrong.
Its the Education System thet is carried out IN Malaysian Schools. Not the system that was created by the ministry of education. LOL.
Anyway, during the real debate, we got Opposition.
The topic is long and we can define it in any way we desire but to keep it safe, we just made it clear and simple which we completely disagree with it.
We were hoping to get Government side as our speeches were more organised, crystal clear straight to the point.
Where as for Opposition, we were having difficulties on selecting our 3 major points.

Anyway, our discussion end at 1.30pm. Shaz nudged me, showing me a msg that Jhun sent.
i was like, what the heck, why not? XD After all, I think I deserve to have some fun after all the work. Same goes to Shaz.

But then, I have to go home first to get my stuffs.
As usual lah, I walked home like every other debate discussions we have after school hours.
And I think because of all these frequent walking-home routine, I manage to gain some stamina.
I don't get tired easily as before.
Gained weight.
Tone up my legs =D
Built some muscles XD


and to my surprise, I'm starting to love walking. For the past 2 months, I've been walking home from school almost everyday. Including walking to tuition. XD
OK... back to what I was saying.
So, I went home to change and took a quick shower.
These 2 guys were already complaining for me being slow which I wasn't slow at all. =.="
So, we left abt 3. Grab a cab. Reached there abt 3.30 due to the heavy traffic.

*something growling*

Hey, are you guys hungry???
Yeahh...
Kinda...
I feel like i can eat an elephant.
HAHA!! Lets go eat!!

Oh ya.. I forgot to mention where we went.
Venue : Pavilion

As we were hunting for a place to eat, we watched a school band performing at the centre court of the complex. They we really good! But then i remembered that we have to buy tickets first.
We watched Nim's Island. Quite nice movie.
Then, we went for our lunch at Food Republic.
I kinda like this place. XD
Its my 2nd time here.
The 1st was in Singapore.

I had some kind of rice in a mini Kuali. XD
With a big chick of crispy chicken and an egg.
It wasn't the best food that I've ever tasted but it was at that moment.
It was quite nice actually for RM8.90

After the movie, we went shopping for awhile coz Jhun was looking for a present from Roxy.
There was a few nice things at Roxy but Unfortunately, I didnt have enough to buy them as this outing was a last minute outing. Or else, I could have took more money with my if the guys didnt ask me to get ready faster.

You know one thing I hate abt going shopping??
When you make plans for one particular day where you're free from everything just to go shopping, you may/never/hardly ever get what you really want.
You'll just end up going for window shopping.
But when don't even think of buying anything/shopping, this is the time where the things that you wanted or sometimes things that you just found out by just making a quick glance will come to you. ughh... It may not be happening to you but it does happen to me. Most of the time.

So, I ended up but a pair of white long shirt. XD
Then, we went dinner.
Initially, I was suggesting to have dinner at my uncle's restaurant at Sg Wang but then tak jadi for some reason which i myself cant recall it. Instead, we went to the Chicken Rice Shop.
What else can we order besides Chicken rice? beef rice? nahh....
Shaz ordered 3 sets of Chicken Rice. @.@ Crazy fella. and he ate some of mine since i kinda lost my appetite for some reason.
Actually, I was busy with my phone.
After dinner, the 3 of us walked and walked and walked around Bintang Walk, Planet Hollywood, some weird place where they're promoting foot massage/reflexology throughout the shop lane.
We were talking non-stop all the way. the 2 guys wer Joking with some racist jokes. LOL. I, on the other hand was laughing all the way.


We kept walking until we reached a point where..

"where are we going???"

So, we decided to get ourselves a slurpee at 7-11/7E
We spent abt 20 minutes just getting a slurpee.. We did something.

We kept refilling and refilling our slurpee's.
Not refilling as in drinking it and then only refill it lah... Crazy arh...
I can't tahan taking too much of ice with colours in it.
All we did was, after filling our cups full with slurpee...
we..

*bang* *bang* bang!*


we were not actually banging but hitting our cup on the table so that the slurpee will sink down and then.. we fill it with more....
more...
moreee.....
and MOREEE...............

Although we were there, but he looks like he's sleeping.. o.O?

I don't know what was my right mind doing but I was enjoying it.
For heaven's sake, I know its only like RM1.80 for a freaking cup of ice with colouring in it (slurpee). we did it for fun actually.XD
Just incase you ppl are wondering which 7E.
It was the 7E outside a building on the way to Bkt Bintang and before Lot 10.
After we're satisfied, we sat outside of 7E which is at the pedestrian walk.
We look like baggers. But we were enjoying ourselves with continuous talking and laughing.


At one point, I had brain freeze and i was getting sick of the slurpee.
It was too much to handle. My tongue was as green as The Mask or The Incredible HULK.
So i threw it away.


After that, we went back to Pavilion and sat at the granite benches for hours.


Talking abt so many things.
Things that happened in our lives.
Stupid things we do and some we regretted it.
As we were talking, we didn't realised that it was already 1a.m.
All of us wanted to stay longer.

woahhhh.....whats that???? @.@
yummy..... =P

ohhh.... Unbelievable....

There was a naked person across the street at X hotel. XD

So, before we head home, we took some pictures, start saying hi to strangers(not me), running around like idiots(not me), dancing(now this is me) on the smooth pavement and... doing weird things.

Licking the star. weird fella.

Im not sure what he was trying to do that time.


i look odd. @.@




Honestly, I never had so much fun for a very long time.
I never want that night to ever end.
But every beginning, it has an ending.
We reached home at 1.30 a.m.

My parents were quite worried as I was away from home over the wheeee hours of the morning.
But I assured them that I'm in good hands.
Only of us went out and I was the only girl there. as usual.
Its not because that I dont have any girl friends to hang out with.
Its also not because I don't have any friends who are girls.
Its not because I don't like hanging out with girls.
Its not because they are boring.
Its because I dont have any girlfriends who i can really relate to/talk to/joke with like i did with these guys.
I love spending my time with these guys. Although they make fun of me with the little things i do like accidentally pronounce a word wrongly. I don't have to worry too much as I know them really well.

Anyway, I shall stop here for this entry as it is getting too long..
Before that.... Abt the naked person we saw,
it was not true. XD

here are some pictures after we got home..

It looks like its gonna topple.

These guys really gave me a hard time.
I toppled all the blocks anyway.
For 3/3 rounds.. -.-

Short updates

Exams are on noe. for 3 weeks.
Crazy. @.@ and I'm actually doing last minute studying and surprisingly its working out quite well.
Usually, my wall will be full of stickies. green stickies... XD As you can see one of them sticking on the wall. XD Al well, I just want the exams to be over.

BM papers are quite good. Wrote until my fingers and hands painful. Wrote abt 1000+ words.. @.@ or possibly more.
English papers. Fairly good but i wish i got more time to write coz I got so many things to write.
Moral. Easy Peasy. =.="
History. Okay i guess.
Physics Paper 1 & 2. not bad.
Chemistry Paper 1 and 3. Okayyy la..
Add Maths. paper 1 quite good. paper 2 = barely dead.
ah well, now what left is Biology, EST, Chemistry, Biology, Physics and Modern Mathematics.

next.... I was Invited to....

By May Lyn. =D wheee!!! But Im not so sure whether i can go or not. Thanks M.Lyn!


Nothing better to do.. hehehe...

I love this jacket/ whatever you call it. XD

Tagged By May Lyn and Joon Hong

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
Myself, family, friends, my pillow and pink dog.

2) Will you consider a sexual relationship before marriage?
No.

3) Do you smoke?
Never....

4) What is the latest gadget that you own?
hmmm... lets see... a 4G thumbdrive. got it for free actually. XD
Does school shoes count?

5) Who did you mostly text yesterday?
i cant remember. you maybe? XD

6) How old are you & are you a virgin?
16 going on 17 and yes, i am.

7) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
A shower gel from The Body Shop, A blouse from Esprit, a pair of long running pants from Nike, a pair of Puma sock which i got for free actually, uhhh...thats all so far.

8) Where do you wish to get married?
I'm still thinking abt it.

9) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
It depends. But definitely not now.

10) How many kids do you want?
2 or 3. hehehehehe.....

11) Are you in love?
Yes.... and No....

12) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Er.... Chillis? or was it The Chicken Rice Shop? XD

13) Name the latest book that you bought?
hmmm... Add maths and maths revision book which i must buy. >.<

14) What is your full name?
Come ask me.

15) Do you believe in GOD?
Yes..

16) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
hmmm.... probably some good-looking guy. XDXD come show yourself!!

17) Christina or Britney?
Neither.

18) Do you do your own laundry?
No.

19) The most exciting place you want to go?
The list is endless. But for now, I just wanna be at home... safe and sound in my own room. =)

* No question number 20. Don’t ask me why. LOL.

21) Hugs or kisses?
I like both!

22) Single or attached?
Come ask me! =)

23) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.

May Lyn : cute!, belanja me baskin robbins for the first time, friendly, we love blue! and has a nice smilee...

Joon Hong : Ppl usually mistaken him as a Korean guy. XD, happy-go-lucky person, drives really good, calls me DD and he's my senior.

8 things i say too often :

omg
what??
really??
lol
heyyyy...
shit/cwap ( have pwoblems pwonouncing r sometimes)XDXD
nooo....
guess what??
hehe

8 things i’m passionate about :

Dancing
Music
Books
Shopping
Art (as in designing cards,presents, ribbons and the like)
My Goals and Dreams
Sleeping
Eating!

8 TV series watch recently : [

Smallville
Ghost Whisperer
Mythbusters
American Idol
My Wife and Kids

uhhh... i hardly watch tv now. The list that i've listed down, i only watch it a few time. I never actually follow it.

8 songs I could listen to over and over again:

Vincent(starry, starry Night) - Chloe Agnew or Don McLean
Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett
Nothing Last Forever - Maroon 5
Michael Buble's
Teardrops On My Guitar - Taylor Swift
You're Still You - Josh Groban
Chris Daughtry's

and... more

8 things i learned last year :

Never let anyone close enough to hurt you.
Always be strong and move on.
Never let anything/anyone stop you from what you're doing
Never trust anyone more than myself.
I can't wait to finish school and go to college/university.
Always love youself and the people who love you.
Always take care of yourself and don't take ice cream's from strangers XD
Be myself! and will always be... =)

8 people to tag :

Kenny Sia ( i dont think he will do such a thing XD)
Ji Mi
uhhh... i guess almost everyone got tagged already..

Exams just started yesterday. >.<
Wish me luck. =)
I've been having fever since thursday last week.
omg... and I'm glad its over.
I feel much much better than yesterday.
I was struggling through my BM karangan papers.
Today, My headaches and drowsiness are gone!
I could talk as much as I want.
Muahaha!
Anyway, I met up with Derrick on Sunday with a few other guys.
haha.. I kinda enjoyed it although i wasn't feeling well.
I realised that I have a round tummy lately.
@.@ reallyyy... omg... i really need to stop eating bread with peanut butter.
I gained 3 kg's and I'm quite happy abt it.
Just that.... I don't know where did the 3 kg's went.
Probably my tummy? XDXD
Anyway, I really should stop here. need to study....

You know, I finally realised something. Something that I should have done a few months back.
ish.

Finally, I'm back home safe and sound
We lost the debate competition in the Quarter Finals of The Selangor State Levels.
Although it was a disappointing result, all of us took in in a positive way.
We were screaming and laughing our hearts out when the results was announced.
It is as if we have won.
Even though we lost but deep in our hearts, we know that we won.
The audience knew that we won.

Heres a summary of our debate journey.

All of us spent 2 months just for this debate.
We missed a lot of classes for the past 2 months.
We got to know each other more and closer.
We've met so many new friends and people.
We gained precious and wonderful experience that not even a camera can capture all the memories.
Most of all, We had the best time of our lives!

We've beaten so many schools. Such as :

1st round : SMK Bukit Indah
2nd round : SMK Taman Keramat
3rd round : SMK Taman Melawati (Zone Finals)
4th round : SMK Selayang Baru
5th round : SMK Kepong (District Finals)
6th round : SMK Kota Kemuning (Klang District)

However, in the 7th round, we lost SMK Damansara Jaya.

We had a really tight schedule for this debate. Last Friday, it was our 6th round of the debate.
On Saturday, we were having our HELP debates against SMK Jit Sin, Penang and we won.
On Sunday, we went against SMK Damansara Jaya and unfortunately we lost and we accepted that we lost because all of us were dead beat.
From Monday to Wednesday, we wen to Kuala Selangor for State Levels Debate.

All of us had so much fun. A wonderful Journey Indeed.

I'll blog abt this in detail after my exams.

NEDC

*Muahahahaha*

@.@ swtt....



If you're Madame Speaker for the debate, You'll have a hard time saying it in a perfect manner. Without any pronunciation errors or awkward pauses in between. I know that coz I experienced it before.



It was introduced by our very own ex-student, Pei Jian/ Jian

don't ask me why I put this picture. Tho you might think theres something fishy abt this picture. >.<>.< href="http://www.help.edu.my/debate2008/matches.php">here




2 words... "Bite Me!" Quoted by Dinnish.

They are fabulous! Its the best debate I've ever seen and I really enjoyed it. It wasn't boring at all. Unlike other debates that I've watched.

All of us were so stunned and it gave us the boost/inspiration to do the something like them.

I was surprised that I actually manage to talk to one of the debaters. with the pink shirt of the opposition team. I can't remember his name. >.<


****

Fast forward to Wednesday, 23 April 2008.
It was one of the most memorable day of my life.
I was running, laughing and being silly in the rain.
It was raining cats and dogs.
Shaz, Vishana and I went down to the market to grab a bite to eat since we're staying back for some activities.
Then, It rained.
We're stuck.
No umbrellas.
I suggested that we walk back. In the rain.
halfway walking, we're wet.
Shaz took off his shirt.
He was naked.(lol..just joking)
We used it as an "umbrella"
3 of us, under an XL size white school shirt that is extremely small for shaz.
We're running back to school.
I was in the middle between both of them.
therefore, both of them have no sense of direction.
As for me, I have to guide them back to school.
The rain was heavy!!
We were running continuously.
Splashing the puddles of water till our shoes and uniform was wet!
We reached the bridge near our school which was under the highway.
The river water was pouring out like teh ice with too much ice in it until it spills.
Shaz's shirt was completely wet. Theres no use using it as an "umbrella" anymore.
So, Vishana and I decided to squeeze it dry.
No hope.
We ended up running back to school.
This time, without the shirt.
We were drenched.
All wet.
However, there was nothing we could do abt it.
Only wishing that we had a camera to capture every single moment running back to school.
We had fun.
Laughing. Teasing each other abt how we look in the rain.
Wishing that there was a video on this that we could laugh about it when we're old.
Sometimes, Good memories could not be captured by a camera.
But it remains in your mind and heart forever.

This is why I love school.

PS : i dont care whether I'm writing a broken english or what now. I got a debate competition to go tmr.
Its the District Finals Debate. =)

I know I've not been updating for a very long time. Therefore, I'll take this time to blog abt whatever I can. XD

I've been extremely busy nowadays. really really busy.
Anyway, a lot of things happened for the past 2/3 weeks.
First of all was my dance performance at Great Eastern Mall.
It was alright actually. We're performing just for a charity fair. SO, I don't really care whether I get paid or not coz I enjoy doing it. =) Here are some pictures. its onlt like 1/4 of it. lazy to update so many. >.< From right : Ruba, Putri, Vishana and I.

Vishana and I posing around. XD

I had nothing better to do.

My salsa shoes!
Its super comfortable. Unfortunately, I can't wear them for walking... =(
It has a layer of leather(1 mm thick) at the base of the shoes so that you wont slip/fall while making a turn/ turns.
It cost quite a lot too but its worth it.

One of my friend recorded the salsa dance video. I heard that its spreading around the school and outside school. LOL. XD

After the performance, I have a few more things that I really have to worry about.

My studies, homework and deadlines
Exams
Debate

Some of the teachers are starting to complain abt us, debaters not attending classes. Some said that they have not seen us for 2 months already. Indeed. Thats undeniably true. Talk about homework, I so far behind already. So, I'm forced to copy from my friends which I try not to do it at all. ahh.... >.<>.<>.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEico64ztC5qtlthsC2mWzaEZQDUuI1TusBRP67zkcjVyksvFv0uWvXVg1QMVUGnGI-iD70JVRTGqVs2-7DbcL3gpn7lEtgtcfc00l6bh1ZtV-Q4DcOmLzu7XrX-HOHKeOugFjQr3RMNAr8/s1600-h/P1010381.JPG">
!st letter is for getting the highest marks in P.moral for the whole Form 4. =.=" Of all the subjexts... why moral. but hey, at least its something. and... I think I got highest for Biology too. hmm... I'm not sure why it wasn't printed out on this letter. nevermind. Well, the balance 9 subjects. Hmm... all conquered by the class genius in academics. I don't know how he did it. i just wonder what he does at home and what food he eats. XD

The next award I'm getting is Anugerah Bakti Murni. Lol... After all these years.
Finally, is Anugerah Pelajar Berkepimpinan. o.O? XD

Ok, tmr, theres a debate training held in HELP University College. 64 school all over KL are taking part for it. LOL. My cousin and my ex-schoolmate is currently studying there. and.... for that, I realised that my shoes are ugly.

The colour faded. The straps are not as sticky as before, its ugly and most of all, its torn.

yup, its torn. It happened 3 weeks ago. I realised that one of the straps is torned into 2 pieces. Like the picture above. But it was initially on the right side of my shoe.
I didn't really bother abt it as I'm just going to school and no where else.
Feeling irritated because my foot keeps slipping off the shoe, I decided to put on my thinking cap.
What in the world should I do with this? Get a new pair of shoes? Plaster it?
So, I came out with an ingenious idea to solve my problem. I'm not sure whether is it a critical thinking skills or a mechanical dummy.

I stapler-ed it

XD. I know its kinda sick. I was too busy that I couldn't buy a new pair. and I was thinking whether to get a new one or not since its my last year of school. Its not that I'm a stingy person ok... =.="

2 weeks later, The other side of my shoe Velcro-strap was torn into 2 pieces. Therefore, I ended up going home with a loose shoe. and this is how it looks like.

it looks like crap.

I've been wearing this shoe since I was in Form 2 till today. 3 wonderful years.

Therefore, I don't wanna disgrace myself for tmr's debate training in HELP and I got scolded so many times for not getting a new pair of shoes, I decided to get a new pair.


Surprisingly, it didn't cost me that much. hmmm.... it was like RM25.
ah well, I'm just wearing it for half a year.
I just wonder why is it so cheap. Probably, I didn't bother to go to The Bata shop to buy any school shoes for 3 years. XD

I don't know why am I even blogging abt this. >.< style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">Attention!

Unfortunately/Fortunately, this is (probably) my last blog entry as I wanna take a break from blogging to concentrate on my studies. =)
Thank you.

Here are some weird pictures of me.



Something is wrong with my hair. I need a haircut. Since I'm not cutting it anytime soon, I decided to change my hairstyle. Yup, I did. just a little.

I can't handle this madness anymore.
I feel really sad and frustrated but yet I can't seem to cry it out.
A few things and a few people have been pissing me off lately.
Things that I've put all my effort in.
Everything. I don't have the heart to throw them all away.
Sometimes, we need a shoulder to cry onto.
Someone you could trust.

I miss being happy. Today, I feel really sad, angry, exhausted and disappointed. But yet, theres a moment where I laughed so hard till my tummy hurts.
A lot of things changed lately. My studies, myself, people's behavior/reaction, etc
Some things are better left unsaid.
Sometimes, It worsens a situation.
Or probably wakes a person up from dreamland. which its good sometimes.

I lost my mood to do everything. Studying, having a decent conversation with people, dancing, and almost everything.
aihh....

I feel like shaving my head bald.
anyone wanna join me?

Disappointed

I feel quite disturbed these 2 days. >.< Not because of my dance performance

The dance performance was quite nice. Though I was a little nervous. In the beginning, I thought this was even scarier than watching our own debating team debating against other schools. After awhile, I felt better.

For quite sometime now, I feel really free and happy whenever I'm on the dance floor. Its like nothing in the world could ever hurt/bother me. I feel like I'm free from everything. exams, studies, annoying people, things that made me sad/disappointed, etcetcetc. I never felt this feeling before.

How would you feel if someone who you trust somehow betrayed you in a way that you would never expect at all? X was so supportive and I thought X was on my side. I found this out not long ago. I was stunned. Tears were rolling down my cheeks as I was walking home after having my roti canai for breakfast. I was wrong abt X. Totally wrong. X may not be the reason for what had happened. Its just thay what X said was absurd. I was wrong abt X. Totally wrong.

Listen.

Sometimes, people come into your life and you'll know that they are meant to be there for some reason, to guide you, help you with life, to figure out who you are/what do you wanna be.
These people can be anyone (even if it is a complete stranger). However, when you look them in the eye, somehow you know that they will affect your life in some profound ways.

Everything happens for a reason. This phrase here is ringing in my head almost all the time. It may seem that some of the things happen in your life is horrible, unfair, heartbreaking and so on, but in reflection you find that without overcoming this obstacle, you'll never realise your potential, strength, willpower and heart.

Love, Lost moments of true greatness, illness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of an individual. Without all these, life would be a boring place, dull and utterly pointless..

hmmm...

The people I've met, all of them, changed me in certain ways. The success and downfall I've been through has made me what/who I am today. Whether good or bad, its a once in a lifetime experience that will never be erased within me.

When someone loves, love them back in whatever way you can.
Its teaching me to love and to open my heart and eyes to things again.
Whereas when someone hurts you, broke your heart, betrays you, forgive them. They helped you learn about trust, the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart and so on.

For sometime now, a few people said that i've changed.
I don't know what does that "change" means. But, i know within me, i changed.
I'm not sure whether is it good or is it not me at all.
But all I know, that "change" is more of a good thing.
I feel stronger than ever before.
I met new people.
Found a few close friends that I could trust.
Got to know people who used to be hi-bye friends much better.
Talked to people that I've never talked to before and listen to what they have to say.
A few things happened to me for the past 1 month.(
I'll never ever forget them for sure.
Its because, I never see/ realise these things. I wanna apologise if I did hurt anyone. (obviously i did) But not because I mean to do so. Its because I wanna be who I wanna be right now.
Well, again i say, everything happens for a reason.

Time will heal. Probably. It healed me partially.

wahahahah!!! I think I'm going nuts... >.<
I've been soooo busy nowadays. With debate.
By the way,

we won the 4th round againts smk...... wheeee!!!
I'm lazy to blog abt it.

Dance practice was great!
except for some people who sometimes arrive late or they don't even show up at all.
>.< grrrr.... frustrating... i need to practice more.
lol..i feel a little stiff sometimes. but other than that im okay.
I got my new salsa shoes already... XD
Its extremely comfortable.
But its only meant for dancing and not walking around with it. hehe.. will blog abt it later

I feel super duper sleepy in class.
I almost fell asleep during biology class today and all of the sudden, there was a short circuit on one of the plugs. It was located right infront of me.
@.@it happened twice.
lalala...

then after recess, i spent 3 periods sleeping in class. seriously sleeping.
haha.. thats a short update.
till next time..

I'm sorry

Dear readers,

I would like to apologise for not updating on the debate post and other things as I'm seriously busy. I have a really tight schedule now. No time for shopping or fooling around anymore. Must.....:

Finish up piled up homework in time
Practice my flute
Practice dance steps with a partner & 4-5 hours of dance practice/choreograph
Win the debate, participate in HELP debates
Never forget to go to tuion everyday except Tuesday
Have enough sleep
Sociolise
Never to drop an ice-cream ever again

So far, thats all... My legs are hurting... ouch.