Smile!!!! Part 2

Continuation from my previous post.

I'll just fast forward it alright. So, she ran away. End of story. She never came back. I was so dumb to even think of her. Probably you might think I'm such an inconsiderate person. Well, there are a few things that I am not happy about her. I truly understand that arguments are always bound to happen between us. It can be misunderstandings or mistakes. But, everything has its limits. Clearly, my maid crossed that line. There is a lot of drama happening just because of her and I would to explain everything, it will take a few more posts.. To those of you who have met her, I'm sure you're shocked to hear this from me.

She lied to people who I kept close to my heart. Its not the first, second and absolutely not the third. Don't worry, I bet she is in a place where she is happy right now. I trusted her that she is not like any other maids despite all of them have almost the same purpose here, working in Malaysia. Well, A few weeks ago I discovered something really shocking. Its so unlikely to happen but it did happened. We found out how she ran away.

My mum was chatting with my neighbour. I think we are lucky to have such wonderful neighbours. They have 3 kids and all of them are boys aged 1, 3 and 6. Their parents are professionals in the careers and also, they have a maid. Man, they are noisy especially when all 3 of the kids cries at one go. Surprisingly, all of them speaks English! lol. But, that is not the point.

One day, my mum was chatting to one of their sons who is 6 years old. He was playing with his toys alone while their maid was in the kitchen. You know, all those lame baby talk questions. So, my mum asked out of randomness,

"Hey *insert name*.. How are you today?"
"I'm fine, thank you."

blablabla....

"Do you still remember *my maid*??"
"Yes, I still remember her. She went to Ipoh"
" *wonders* Ipoh??? Why did you say shes in Ipoh?" My mum asked him with full of concern.
"Yes, she is in Ipoh. My dad fetch her there."
"Ohhh.... Are you sure? when?"
" Yes. He told me that he has to fetch *my maid* to Ipoh to work."


Okay... that was it. I do not know whether to believe this or not. But, something disturbed me. Why on earth would a 6-year-old said this?? I mean, how on earth could a 6-year-old make up such thing?? Isn't that just really odd??? I mean... eishh....

Seriously!!when I found out about this, I was asking so many question where there is no answers for my questions. Yeah, I do understand people lie. But, I'm not sure if a 6-year-old would do such a thing. Another thing is that, when we asked our neighbours about this, they were as shocked as us. They were asking how it happened, when and so on and so forth.

I know I can't simply point fingers but..... ughhh!!! I'm pointing fingers at anyone now. What do you think???

Well, lesson learned.

1. Never trust your maid ever even though they worked for you for 11 long years.
2. Never hire your maids more than 5 years(if they are excellent)/ 3 years (average). All of them end up to be professional liars, shallow minded and low mentality.

3. Beware with your neighbours.

- I would like to elaborate on this. How can you "amalkan rukun tetangga" if your own neighbour runs off your maid (this refers generally and not to anyone in specific). We always write in our essays that people who live in the city don't even know their neighbours or who lives next door and we just couldn't be bothered to get to know the people next door. I'm not applying this to everyone. Its just my opinion. Who know, our very own neighbour are the culprits of house invasion, robbery, kidnap, rape, murder and the like. You'll never know. They can just provide the criminals with information about us. ugh. I guess this can be a debate topic huh coz there are pros and cons about this. I wouldn't mind living with Klausner who would build the sound machine all day as long as he does not create havoc. I don't mind cutting as many roses for him, coz at least he would just be attracted with sounds and not helping maids to run away. I could just cut roses for him so that he could hear the roses shrieking all day and probably he would just go crazy for being too happy. At least he is not interested in running off other people's maids. ugh!

After all these years, I really appreciate everything that she has done for us. She has to leave her family behind just to look for money. Although she has a husband, but he's just a rotten piece of meat. No offence but its true. How can a husband depends on his wife 100% financially and not contributing anything. All he does was laze around, rot at home and spends every penny of his wives money when she brings it home after years of saving them. She stupidly gave in every single time, cheated by her husband time and again. Ughh!!!! I pity her sometimes. I always take this in consideration because I know she is going through all these things in her life and it's not easy for her. Throughout the years, she has done a wonderful job. She has an undeniably amazing cooking/culinary skills. She is very friendly and easily to talk to although she laugh uncontrollably sometimes which makes the atmosphere akward after some time.

Well, I do have more to say but I'll just stop here.

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You know what?? As I was sending some (about almost 200. hehe) pictures to Kok Siang yesterday, I came across waaay too many pictures that I never seen in such a looooong time. I could see how all of us grew in 5 years. wow. A lot of things happened. Today, I am glad that I took all those pictures. I think theres is more picture i did not sent to kok, since I failed to save some of the pictures back when we were in form 2. Yes, there are more, but I just couldn't find them.

There are a few things I will never forget. never. Take for example, The Drama Team and The Debate Team. To those who are involved in drama, don't you just miss all those stupid and crazy jokes we had. All the scenes that we had to do over and over and over again like 3 billion times until we got so frustrated?? All the food, drink and party?? haha. I bet you do. All those hard work really paid off since our school drama won the competition of 3 consecutive years.

Some random pictures about of the past..

Look at our faces. Back then we don't have pimples! Our forehead and cheeks are so smooth... and look what hormones did to our faces now. haha.

Ok, these guys definitely have pimples! haha! Well, except for Duncan in this picture.

Now... I'm not so sure. I haven't seen these clowns in ages.
Except Jian which was just last week.

There you go! I just woke up okay.
and...yeah.. he still has pimples! wakakaka!! =X

I can't remember what happened and how I took this picture. XD



Ji Mi's head got stuck.
This was taken in KLCC.
It was all over the news on tv and you know, theres was a lot of commotion at that moment.
Some say, we might have to chop off his head. wakakaka!!!
ok.. Just kidding. He did not appear on the news and there was no commotion whatsoever.

I have no clue what is he trying to do.

This was taken on the day we received our PMR results!
7 A's baby!!!!! =DD

Victory is ours!
This picture is priceless.

You can say any of these picture are sneak peaks on kok siang's upcoming class video. I wouldn't want to post all of it. Boy, I really miss all those times...

Smile!!!

Teeheehee. It has been a few days since I last blog about something. I've been going out almost everyday since the day I finished my SPM except yesterday. As I was lying down on the sofa watching Ellen Degeneres dancing with the audience, something struck my mind out of the blue. I was asking myself, "hey, I'm supposed to be studying". lol. My mum says its normal. I'll get used to it and soon, I'll be wondering "am I supposed to go to school today??". Odd isn't it? High school is over.

Ok, I don't think I've ever mention this on my blog. As some of you know, my maid of 11 years ran away in August this year. It has been 4 months since she disappeared and all of us are going just great with or without her. I never thought she would just walk away after working with my family for 11 years. I mean seriously, I treat her like my own family and she did this. She used to tell us that running away was an idiotic thing to do. Well, my advice is, if your maid ever said this a couple of times, SHES RUNNING AWAY!

My mum always reminded her that, if she wants to stop working with us, she is welcomed to tell us anytime. We always told her to never ever lie. We don't want to force her to stay as she has her own family back home and its her rights to decide whether to stay or head back home. But no. She made up her mind which I find it so unbelievable. Wanna know how she ran away? Keep on reading.

Monday. It was 3.30p.m and I just got home from school feeling so exhausted because I had all science subjects on one days and also add maths. It was only my maid and I at home. Ellise is still in school with extra curricular activities. I had my lunch in front of the television like I always do after school. It was just like every other day. Nothing suspicious or anything odd.

Then, she wanted to throw some rubbish and told me as usual. Nothing extraordinary about that. I did not pay much attention because the TV is more interesting than knowing that my maid is gonna throw rubbish. haha. If my memory servers me right, I was watching Ellen Degeneres Talk Show. I love to watch that programme because of the way she talks, what she does and she would invited one or two people from the audience to do some silly stuffs. Those silly stuffs would make me laugh all the time. Imagine that 2 people are stuck together with a string rubber rope thingy. They will have to face opposite each other. Their task is to get as much apples as they can with their mouth. Its not as easy as it looks. Both of them would be struggling to get the apples as they are stuck with an elastic rope. LOL. The first person to get the most apples, wins something. The prizes are like concert tickets, err...?

Then..... the tv was interrupted. A small yellow cube would appear on the top right of the tv. Don't you just hate it when this happens??? It was raining. Dang Astro.

Anyway, I wasn't that bothered coz the show was over and I took my bath. But, before I did that, I was wondering where in the world is my maid. What took her so long to throw rubbish?? LOL. Again, I thought she was chatting with her friends nearby. So, I resume what I was doing. When I finished, the rain was too heavy and theres no way to chit chat even though you have all the shade in the world coz its just too noisy to talk. So, I called her out loud, thinking that she might be downstairs. I called her over and over and over again. Eventually, I stopped and made a phone call.

*tuut. tuut.*

"hello?"
"hello mummy. guess what?"
"what's up?"
"I think kak ran away."
"Har? why you say that??"
"Coz I called her so many times and she did not answer me like she always do"
"Aiya.... maybe shes talking to her friends la"
"NO lah!!! How can she be talking to her friends.....?? Its raining so heavily right now!"
"Really ar??"
"yea la.... *laughs*"
"Just wait for awhile more..."
" I waited for one hour alreadyyyy..."
"Where did she go??"
"She said that she was throwing rubbish"
"Eik... that's weird"
"I know... what to do now??"
"I'll be back soon. We'll talk about this later."

Ok.. That was the conversation with my mum. At that moment, I was just fooling around with her. I thought it would be fun to joke with my mum once in a while. haha. So, I continue watching tv and slept on the sofa.

about almost 5, ellise got home from school. I woke up from slumber land. A few minutes later, she told me that,

"EI, kakak's clothes are all gone!"
"har!!?!?!"

Holy crap. This can't be for real. I called my mum again.

"Mummy!!!"
"Yea...??"
" Kakak really ran away lahhhhh!!! Her clothes are all gone and don't tell me she throw rubbish for 2 hours and talk to her friend so long wan..."
"WHAT??!?!? You serious ar??"
"Yeah.... omg.. I didn't know this is for real. Just now I called you because I was just fooling around with you. I didn't know it really happened"
"wait for me, I'm coming home right now"

Crap. I thought it was just a joke. IT never crossed my mind that she would run away. Well, then I recalled what happened. She was holding a plastic bag that has GIANT printed on it. It was filled with rubbish like yogurt drink, leftover food and a peanut butter jar that I just threw. I remember she was saying something else other than she wants to throw rubbish.

*thinks*

Aha! She also asked me if I want to come along. =.=" Swt. Who in the right mind would follow their maid around just to throw rubbish. Well, thats what I would think at that very moment. I remember saying no.

Well, that was it. I kept thinking and thinking about it. How could she run away?? She wouldn't dare to do this unless someone helped her. Seriously, she doesn't know how to read at all and she gets lost when you bring her to Ampang Point (which we always go there for groceries) and she gets lost very easily. As cliche as it sounds, I think she ran away with her boyfriend. lol. I don't know whether if she has a boyfriend here although she is already married and have a teenage daughter. Well, anything could happen right?

So, we asked around and everyone got a shock of their lives. Even the guards did not see her. How ca this be happening?

To be continued....
Stay tuned for the 2nd part.

Here are some random pictures. The Smiles of people.

Me

Jhun Ren

Vinaya aka Sakai King.

Khai Wen with my glasses. =D

Dinnish

Kok! Siang

Some puppy at SPCA

Ji Mi and Derrick with their smiley plate of rice specially for me!
Thank you guys! I'll never forget this. ever.

Jasveen, my cousin with a fake smile.

Chunphorn aka John. (thank god its not porn XD)
our tour guide in Bangkok, Thailand.
This was about 5 months ago at Suvarbhumi airport.
Look what is happening now. lol.

This.. was taken at a random stall at the streets of Bangkok too.
Cute isn't she?
=DD

Last, but not least,
The Cyclops aka my uncle.
He's a doctor working in the emergency department and also a
dermatologist (skin specialist) who graduates from NUS.
He was ordering a new pair of glasses.


Anyway, I hope the pictures do put a smile on your face. =)
That's all. Good Night!

Freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Part 2

I need a foot massage. Seriously. My legs hurts like having braces on for the first time. But, I'm very happy now. =D teeheehee.. Tomorrow will be another day.

You know what? So many people have been telling me about how excited and how awesome is the movie that almost everyone is CRAZY about. Haha. I bet you might be thinking about "Twilight"? Does is ring a bell? haha. To be honest, Im not as crazy as crazy to watch the movie although everyone is telling me to do so ASAP! No worries people, I'm excited to watch it! But, not crazy over it. Yet. Maybe. Unless the movie proves me otherwise. XD

Besides shopping for clothes only, I went to shop for novels. and No, I'm not sick of reading. Although some may say that I'm so sick of reading that I don't wan't to see anymore books again. I bought 3 novels. =) Thanks For The Memories and The Gift by Cecelia Ahern. Ah, I love her novels.. I hope both of them would have the same magical touch to it or maybe even better.
Another novel is "The Curious Incident of The Dog in The Night-time" by Mark Haddon. Just by reading the sneak peak at the back of the novel, it caught my attention. It is about a teenage boy who is gifted with a superbly logical brain and also autistic (commanly known as Autism) who found a neighbou'rs dog is killed and his carefully constructed universe is threatened. He sets out to solve the murder style of his favourite(logical) detective, Sherlock Holmes

I've been eyeing on that book for about a year but, i never bought it for unknown reason. There's no logical explanation whay I bought this book in the end. lough out loud.

ok, that's all for tonight. I'm currently on a movie marathon with popcorn on astro. Will be going to Palace of The Golden Horses for Lunch tmr! Can't wait! and then, maybe shopping at sg.wang..

Freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As you know, for most of us, ITS FREEDOM!!! Okay, Maybe I wasn't that excited when I finished my last paper at 3.15p.m. You know, all of us are so lucky to have such great invigilators!! I am serious!

Its time to burn my books. Not literally. I need to clean my room. There are books everywhere. This remind me of the day I finished my physics paper. I was holding my SUCCESS physics refernce book on one hand and my other hand was occupied with my stationeries, bottle, and papers. There was a puddle f water in front of me and my book was about to fall into the puddle. I was trying to grab hold of the book but it slipped from my fingers coz I was holding the edge of the book. However, I manage to save my book and 3 of my classmates told me

"Denise!, tak payah lah... Biar je!!"
"Physics dah habis, BAKAR JE BUKU TU!!"
*laughing*

Everyone started laughing. XD

I was too happy that I have no idea where to start tasting the freedom I have. After so many months, I was dreading for this day to come. So much so that I think my mum is sick of me telling her how many more days til SPM is over. haha. Ok, I went to Bukit Bintang yesterday with 2 jokers. I thought I could find something, but I didn't. So, we had dinner at my uncle's restaurant. I am one lucky girl to have the privilege to.. well... eat for..

Ok, I shall not elaborate on that. Let's just say The guys and I are well fed or maybe we ate too much =D Its my first time after 6 months sleeping more than 5 hours everyday. I slept for 13 hours and damn, I feel good!!!

Initially, I have plans for today. It did not work out as planned but still, I have plan for my own in a few hours. I woke up this morning watching a movie called "Blind Dating" and Heroes. Then, along came Jian. I did not expect that. I just woke up!!! LOL! Well, it was a pleasure seeing him again after so long. Ok, I gtg now. I'm heading to KLCC for shopping.

Tags!

This tag is by wai min a month ago.

At what age do you wish to get married?
19 =D. I don't know. 26/27? I don't know!!

What do you want the most now?
Being free.

Who are the people you trust the most?
My parents and myself.

Do you think you have enough confidence?
It depends.

If a dream could have come true for you, what would it be?
Straight A's for SPM.

Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after it rain?
Yes. It rains EVERYDAY!

What are you afraid to lose the most now?
I'm not saying a word.

Have you broken someones heart that he/she went to commit suicide?
I don't think so.

Do you believe in eternal love?
I don't know how to answer this.

Which feelings do you love the most?
Being loved and cared for.

What are the requirements from your other half?
I know what I want. So, there's no need to write a long list of it here. =)

What feelings do you hate the most?
Ignorance is a bliss. Yes? No? Maybe?

What describes you the best?
Blur? Well, not so much now.

Do you believe in GOD?
I believe in karma. Although life is unfair sometimes.

What do you think is the most important things in your life?
Being myself.

Who is the most important person in your life?
Hmmm... I wouldn't want you to kidnap them.. teehee...

Who do you hope to be always with you?
My parents and a few friends.

What kind of friends do you want?
I want? Well, I am particular about one thing, NEVER LIE!

Do you think love is stupid?
No!

Do you believe that it is better to have love than have nothing at all?
Yes

Choose 5 people to tag!
no one.

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This tag is by nick.

Starting time : 8.11pm
Name : Denise Tan
Sisters : 1
Brothers : None
Shoe size : 5/6/7 (I have a small feet)
Height : 5ft 4
Where do you live : Ampang.
Favorite drinks : All time favourite, cold water on a hot day.
Favorite breakfast : A cup of teh ais and... it depends.
Have you ever been on a plane : duhh!
Swam in the ocean : No. Phobia.
Fallen asleep in school : Yes.
Fell off your chair : Yup.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Not anymore.
Saved e-mails : Only if its worth saving.
What is your room like : cooling. =)
What's right beside you : My bracelet.
What is the last thing you ate : Home made oreo cheesecake. I like.

Ever had...
Chicken pox : yes.
Sore throat : duh, who doesn't.
Stitches : never.
Broken nose : nope
Do you believe in love at first sight : Probably or possibly.
Like picnics : I'm alright. As long there is food.
Who was the last person you danced with : My dance instructor and a few others.
Last made you smile : Uhhh.... I can't remember.
You last yelled at : I can't remember either.

Today did you...
Talk to someone you like : No...
Kiss anyone : No...
Get sick : Literally, no. Mentally and emotionally, yes.
Talked to an ex : No...
Miss someone : No...
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : Not anymore now.
What's under your bed : Books, books and more books, waiting to be burn!!!
Who do you really hate : I'm tired of hating anyone. Waste of time.
What time is it now : 8.22pm

Randoms :
Q : Is there a person who is on your mind right now : No, lol..this is so random.
Q : Do you have any siblings : yes
Q : Do you want children : Yes, but not now.
Q : Do you smile often : Not as much.
Q : Do you like your hand-writing : Its alright.
Q : Are your toenails painted : Soon..
Q : Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : no one..
Q : What colour shirt are you wearing : white
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday : I was about to break down, crying. I was conflicted, exhausted, worn out and tired. But then again, I somehow manage to force myself to it swallow physics alive!.
Q: I can't wait to : go shopping!
Q: When did you cry last : not that i can remember. But, its a reaaaaally long time ago.
Q: Are you a friendly person: I think so.
Q: Do you have any pets : Used to, but not anymore. Having pets is like having babies. Its a heavy responsibility.
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now : ??? I have no answer to this question.
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? : Yes, but not as much anymore.
Q: Do you sleep with the TV on? : Yes.
Q: What are you doing right now? :
Q: Have you ever crawled through a window? : Yes, and I fell. I wouldn't wanna do it again.
Q: Can you handle the truth? : Sometimes, no. But, i'd rather have the truth rather than people lying to me.
Q: Are you closer to your mother or father? : Mum.
Q: Who was the last person you cried in front of? : Uhhh.... Derrick? I can't remember!!!
Q: How many people can you say you've really loved? : Is this necessary?
Q: Do you eat healthy? : Yes, no, maybe. I eat as I desire.
Q: Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: Yeah...
Q: Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : Yes.
Q: How often do you go to church?: I've been to church once or twice. lol. Does that even count?
Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? Most likely...No one. Sometimes,...
Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: I used to be really quiet. Now, I'm not so sure anymore.
Q: Are you confident?: Most of the time.
Q: Favorite Quote: Its Karma! (I don't really have a fav quote. I may have, but I don't use them in my conversations)
Hmm.. But, I got this out of randomness while chatting with Dinnish.
"Be happy with what you have"
Because, some/most people are just not satisfied with what they have, until they lose it. Its how one appreciate them and cherish them as it is. I shall stop elaborating and save this for another time.


Q: Things I was doing 10 years ago..
Drawing on the wall?

Q: Things on my to-do list today.
1. Sleep
2. Study for EST?
3. Listen to music that should make me sane again.

Q: 5 snacks I enjoy..
- Oreo
- Kinder Bueno
- Kit Kat
- Snickers
- M&M's
- Toblerone
- Cadbury Milk Chocolate
- Hershey's Kisses with Chocolate Chip

Q: 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire..
1. Pay my college/university fees.
2. Buy more clothes.
3. Give some to my parents.
4. Buy food and donate to the needy.
5. Travel.


Q: 5 of my bad habits..
1. I waste too much electricity.
2. I tend to up my room once I clean it.
3. Sometimes, I worry too much
4. I can't think of anything anymore.

Q: 5 places I have lived in..
There's a difference between stayed and lived.
So, that would be home, ampang.

Q: 5 jobs I've had..
1. I would love to have a job, just for the experience.

Q: 5 people I tag..
no one.


I haven't been writing any personal post on my blog. Maybe I did, I just can't remember. Or maybe I saved it as drafts and never really want to post it up. Well, if something inspires me, I would. Soon..

Its so near.

Just a few more days.. A few more days..
I am dying to go out. This feeling is so seductive. Why!??
help...

Oh, holy crap. I will be receiving a letter about National Service soon.
CRAP!!! I really do hope they wont sent me to a land far far away...... =(

Denise loves...

Oreo Cheesecake

Okay, I know my hunger for food is so insatiable and so as my heart. I am addicted to Oreo Cookies at the moment. But, I just love the biscuit. The creme? not really. I usually throw them away or I'll just eat it sometimes. Anyone here love the creme?? Because, I just love the biscuit. =D

Well, I need it after all. Since, I had a rough day today. But, too bad I need to maintain a healthy diet for now.. =D I was quite surprised I lost 2kg easily since I got sick. Weird isn't it?

Anyway, I have some pictures in my camera but I'm lazy to upload them.
I'll just leave you people with a pictures then.

I feel like this now.
A prisoner with eyes that are gonna pop out with a "pop" sound.

In a week, I'll be free like a bird. That is where all my shopping begins.
I need new shoes. A pair 3 inch stilettos which I will pre-order it ASAP and probably a pair of black high-heeled boots.
New clothes, obviously.
Novels.
Driving, flute and dance lessons.
I owe some people a cheeseburger and chillis. (oh my...)
oh wait! Someone wants to belanja me too!
Well, That all I could think of. I have one problem, where am I going to get the money?
Probably I could make some money by tutoring primary school kids. XD Just so you know, I've been tutoring my neighbour recently. I should start charging. Why didn't I think of this earlier? XD

Anyway, That's all for now.

Blessing in Disguise

Aha! Finally I have the chance to actually sit down right in front of my computer peacefully and not having to worry about certain things. Well, not really peacefully but I could stay longer. =D
So, If you're wondering how are things with my SPM papers so far.... Its alright. I dare not comment any further.

"Blessing in Disguise" is actually a good thing but most of us never recognise it as a good thing. Has this ever occured to you? Well, it did, to me. I hardly experience that. Or at least I know that I rarely experience it. Maybe I did and I wasn't aware of it. But, when it happens and you get to know about it. The feeling is sooo goood....

Anyway.....

The first day was the bomb. I was nervous just like everyone else. I was sweating till I'm not sure whether is hot or is it me? (CHEH!!) Haha. Looks like its the whether all along. I am sitting on the first row, which is also next to the door. I had 3 papers to sit on Monday. BM paper 1 and 2 and History paper 1. After my BM paper 2, I was exhausted already. I used up 1 pen just for the BM papers. I was too tired when I got home. But, I have to study for history paper 2 the next day. Yesterday was alright too. I left 30 minutes earlier for English and studied for my history.

Today, I had Mathematics paper. Not bad. =). My next paper is next week. Boy, its Add maths and Moral on the same day and Chemistry. 4 down 6 more to go.

I think this SPm is another great way for me to lose weight. I hope so. Because, I think I am eating not so optimumly. I only eat when I need it and will only eat what I need. Maybe I was afraid that I am going to throw up again. I was having fever last Saturday. It was 30 minutes past midnight, my stomach wasn't feeling so good. My stomach wasn't feeling well the whole day actually. I thought it was normal and it would go away but it didn't. I had some buffet earlier that afternoon as I was attending a gathering at a hotel. I threw up whatever I ate for the whole day. Ugh. It was terrifying and disgusting. Exceptionally disgusting when I ate cheese that afternoon. Gawd.

I felt better, washed up and went to bed. 5 hours later, I woke up feeling really sick and vomitted again. Still, it was yestedays food. What the hell???? Its not even digested yet??? I took some medicenies my mum gave and struggle back to sleep. It is conformed that I had food poisoning. Time seems to move too slow when I was having fever. 12 hours later, I threw up again. This time, it was porridge. I could not study for 2 days. I slept all the time. My mum and I was worried.

Fortunately, I was feeling so much better on Monday. I was healthy again!



Maybe it was a blessing in disguise. Maybe I pushed myself too hard on studying that I desperately needed a break. Well, I guess I needed it after all and I was relieved that I was back on track. So, I had a study session with Jhun Ren in the afternoon. I wanted to join Vi and Nick but the timing was just not right. Therefore, never eat out and get sick for at least 2 weeks before your SPM!!!

Just so you know, my neighbour, who is a doctor told me that she treated at least 4 or 5 students who are also sitting for spm like me. Hmmm.... looks like I'm not alone huh....

Anyway.... I'll leave with another picture (not) me.

All the best for SPM twins! and...
Happy Belated Birthday jane!
I haven't seen my cousins in ages... lol.

*Edits on Nov 14*

I love this song... omg.

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless, I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels, in the moment, I'd never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

This song is just so good. Its so catchy! =DDD LOVE BUG AGAIN!!!

It's time for war.

Leaving school would be one of the hardest thing to let go. The good times and the bad times. It is what I call "The Spice of Life".
So, I'll just do a really quick update with some pictures I took recently..

Our last input by Mr.Lim.
Mrs Yong and Mr.Lim surprised us with a small party of pizza's, kfc's and soft drinks.
None of us were expecting that. =) Thank you, Mrs. Yong and Mr.Lim!
But most importantly,
Thank you to Miss Lau and all the Science teacher who did the same thing too
although I do not have any pictures of it.

Mrs. Yong, Nick, Vi and I.

Denise just got down the bus.
I would really miss walking down this road almost everyday of my life, with my school uniform.

I feel like this now.
If you're wondering what is that red string,
Its a red string attached to a spear.
Brutal, isn't it?
I got it from central market.

Even though I may endure crap, but having friends around you makes things better.
From left, Zhu Liang, Dinie, Me and Vishana.
This was taken yesterday.
It might be the last time I see these dudes.

Last but not least,

Stay positive as I am preparing for war.
I do not know how long I can smile like this but whatever happens,
just stay calm, focus, move on and make history!
=D

PS : I hate eye bags.
PSS : go visit Kok Siang's Blog for a few more pictures.
PSSS : I look odd in one of those pictures.

I scream.

Why????!

I feel like crying my heart out. I am so vulnerable now.

I need a chocolate ice cream. It melts my sadness away.

If I Could Fall into The Sky.

Check out this video. I really love it. One of my favourite songs. If a guy would to do this, I would probably die on the spot.

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I would spend at least 8 hours away from home every weekend (Saturday and Sunday) going to and fro from Ampang to Central Market/Petaling Street. The weather was so hot that I could probably fry an egg on the road and it would be burnt instantly. At the same, I was also attending a seminar at Kasturi tuition centre. My friends and I would go there by LRT. Over there, the for of us would freeze to death because it was FREAKING COLD!! We almost died down there on our first day there.

So, today was our last day of seminar.. I had the best Salmon Bento every at Central Market. Surprisingly, it was quite cheap and delicious! I would like to have another one next time.

I felt so sick today. Like I was going to have another fever again. I sleptat abt 2a.m because I could not stop sneezing. I did not take any medicine because if I did, I would never wake up the next morning(today). So, I woke up sneezing non-stop till my head hurts. At tuition, I felt so sick and cold. ugh. At least now I feel much better.

I got so much to tell but I'm burned out.

SPM is starting in one week.
Sometimes, I wonder what the hell am I doing.
I do not know what to do and what to study.
At some point, all I could do is just stare aimlessly at my wall,
Looking at my SPM schedule.
My heart starts to beat faster and stronger.
Ahhhhh!!!!!!!!
Keep it strong,
Just move along.
Study! Study! Study!

ps : I can't talk properly with my retainers on! Its so frustrating you know.

Lights, Camera, Pictures!

I have no idea why I am blogging right now. I should be studying. SPM is starting in 9 more days. 9 FREAKING MORE DAYS!!!! Hmm.. As I was reading about the formation of sperm and ovum, also known as spermatogenesis and oogenesis. I got bored.. It is not in the list of my favourite topics in Biology because there is too many things to remember. My favorite chapter would be Inheritance, Variation, Structure Plasma Membrane, Nutrition, Chemical Composition of cells and Cell Division.

Lol... enough of that.. I just wanted to post some pictures that I took with my camera. I got bored reading. So, I took my camera and start playing with it. To my surprise, I discovered something that I never knew I could do with my camera. After all these year.... I manage to explore what is install in my camera.

So, here are some pictures. Its just some random stuffs in my room and also somewhere else. This is more of a picture post. I like the detail of the picture.

School Tie.

A pair of Earrings

Lotion, Radio/CD player and some
Turkish Delight coated with coconut beside it.

Note holder.

I need something to keep me awake.

The wall

Flute.
I have not been practising these days.

Notes and also known as "taugeh"

I've been trying to figure out why my flower is so disfigured these days.
Not enough water, maybe?

Bottle of stars.

I did too much of add maths until I get sick of it.

iPod Shuffle

A Tribal drawing by Lex.
Thanks, Lex!!

Stairway to Heaven?

Serenity.

Yours truly,

Denise.

The Moment of Truth

Hey readers... I know some you are waiting for my next post. So, as A promised last week that I would reveal something really special. So... here it goes... Watch the video alright??




So, I wont be typing out the whole process but I'll just explain it briefly alright?

Okay.. Just so you know, I made that video last minute. I never plan to do it at all until I read my cbox where Kok Siang somehow gave me an idea to do something before I take off my braces. I took some pictures before taking my braces off and also a video. Oh yea. I took about 15 videos before choosing the perfect one. I do not have any scripts written out and I did it impromptu. I just say whatever that is on to of my head.

I think I was freaking out the day before and on the day itself. I could not sleep at night and I woke up early because I was so excited. I could not study at all in the morning.
LOL. How on earth can I study, you tell me???
scary
Anyway, the whole procedure of taking off the braces was quite scary. Especially when they use some sort of apparatus that looks like a pair of pliers to pull out the pieces of square metals that are stuck on my teeth. I was terrified when the plucked it out just like that. *plak!*
OMG!!!! I thought the orthodontics pulled my tooth out!!

The other thing that was scary was the scaling process. It hurts a little and the sound of it is irritating. lol. Whatever it is, I'm glad it is all over. =D

So, here are some pictures. =D


Before....



Waiting for my turn.....

Smile for the last time!

My mum reading magazine.
Can you spot Suri Cruise??

Its calling my name...
Denise.... Denise.....

Now... The moment of truth..

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This is how I look without braces.

Right side.

Left side.

That is all for now. =D
Good night!

Painful But True

My head hurts. ugh. But that is not the main reason why I am updating my blog once again. haha.

I am for one who listens to the radio every night after getting a brain block (my brain completely malfunction. lol) and before I dive into my own slumber land. Almost every night, David Archuleta's Crush has been playing on the radio. From Fly FM to Hitz-dot-FM, Traxx FM, Red FM, Mix FM etc.. However, I usually hear it from Fly FM and Traxx FM.

Honestly, I love David A's new single, Crush. It is a song everyone could relate to, including myself. =) Although this song has been on my top favourite songs for 2 months already, I still love it. I kept telling some people to listen to this song but they were too lazy until they heard it themselves recently and they love it. sweat. Ah well...

Remember.... I posted about Who will win American Idol? and I said, I do not mind whether Archuleta or Cook wins?
I change my mind. Now, I'm 100% sure that Archuleta deserves the title of American Idol more than Cook. Its just my opinion alright. Painful but true.
Cook also released his new single, but there was no impact on me. His new song was played on the radio a few times and I find it plain, boring and too loud for my ears. Better luck next time.

So, prior to Archuleta's new single, I found out another song titled "A little Too Not Over You". Its just a preview. Not the whole song. But, here's what I think :
omg. He did it again! I really love the lyrics.
What else could I say? I really love it.Therefore, I shall not drag any further on how much I love it. I love it.

So, here is a sneak preview on the song.


It never crossed my mind at all
It's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you sometimes

I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around,
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you - Ooh

Memories are supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off, let it ....

.... Not over you
Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back - Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go, I'll never understand
I'll never understand

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You see... The lyrics from this song and Crush. Almost everyone and anyone could relate to it. Once again, including myself. This song briefly explains how I feel sometimes. Just sometimes. Painful but true. Feeling and memories don't just fade away in such a short time. It takes time for one to get over it and move on. It doesn't have to be forgotten or erased. In fact, it should not at all. Its just a chapter/phase in your life. People move on, the world goes on, and I've moved on. This is a wonderful relieve for me. I am myself again, with a new perspective of life. I may not be exactly the same as before in terms of physically, mentally, socially and emotionally but, the bottom line is, I am still me.

At the same time, I want to lead and live my own life without being held back by anything for now. =) My time will come. If it is meant to be, then it is meant to be.

Well, I hope you, readers know what I am trying to say here instead of being long winded and I will end up saying it something that makes no sense at all. Or maybe I am talking crap once again. haha.

Talk about crap, here is something that I find really amusing but true. On the record, I used to play MapleStory 2 years ago. I played until level 28 as a Warrior until I got sick of playing it. *Thank goodness I did not get married in maplestory*
I'd rather play the classic Mario game. I'll never get sick of Mario till' today although I have not been playing it for 6 years already. So, the moral of the story for this article is, DO NOT COMMIT YOURSELF AND GET MARRIED ONLINE. Getting divorce in the virtual world can also do real damage in the real world. Gosh. I wonder how could those "chibi", petite, innocent-looking and cute little avatars could kill. lol. Looks can be deceiving. haha.

Ok, my post is getting messy and its getting more messy soon. My apologies.

I'll be on a 5-day-holiday from tomorrow onwards. Well, not exactly a holiday for me but, I do not have school. This made me wonder.... Should I just make it a 1 week holiday? or should I just go to school on Thursday and Friday? Does it makes any difference?
I've been doing a hell lot of add maths trials paper from different states. Well, same goes to other subjects. I am really happy that all those papers halped me a lot. I could blissfully answer the questions. Today, I was doing another set of trials add maths SPM 2008 paper(probably my 5th set). Surprisingly, I could do all of it quite well. This made me wonder,

Is this paper too easy or am I getting brighter??

Denise is in Disturbia.

Attention :

For the past few weeks or maybe months, I not quite sure about this. A few of my friends saw me online but in actual fact, I am not online at all. This happens not once, not twice and definitely not the third time. I was informed countless of times but, I never bothered until yesterday.

Apparently, my account has been hacked. Nothing went missing and hopefully, it did not cause any misunderstandings or anything that happened. If you're wondering if I tick on the "sign in automatically" box, no, I never save my password on my own computer.

The most recent one was last night about 10.30p.m. I got a message from a friend asking if I was online. I was not online because I was already asleep. I was too exhausted to even reply him and the the rest who also messaged me.

So, from this moment, If you happen to see me online at odd hours, or I did not reply at all (except if I'm away or busy) or anything unusual, please do not hesitate to inform me. Thank you.

Yours truly,

Denise Tan.

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Ok, since I am already online I'll just do a quick update. Now, I owe TKS a cheeseburger for being the only one who got the answer to my previous question :

What food that transforms from a liquid state to a solid state when it is heated?

The answer is an egg.

Next week Tuesday would be a special day for me. Yes, very special. So, I don't want to spoil the surprise now, I will just take this opportunity to torture your mind. Muahahaha! I'm evil. I'm not hinting out any clues for you, readers. Well, or you don't have to think about it. All you have to do is just..... wait.

Or, you can just guess...

Why is next week Tuesday (28th of October 2008) is such a special day for Denise?

You can send in your answers on the COMMENT BOX ON THIS POST/MSN/E-MAIL.
I'll screen through the answers and therefore, no one will know what is the answer.
The real answer will be released on next week Wednesday (29th of October 2008)
WARNING : if you ever leave your answers on my cbox, you'll be disqualified.

If you're wondering if theres a prize, Yes... I do have a something special to give out since its a special day for me... =)

That's all for now. I have nothing else to blog about unless you, readers wanna know how frustrating, stressful, sad and tired I am.

Sometime, I don't even know what the hell am I doing.

Here is a a few lines that could sum up what am I feeling.

No more gas, in the rig
(Can't even get started)
Nothing heard, nothing said
(Can't even speak about it)
All my life on my head 
(Don't wanna think about it)
Feels like I'm going insane, yeah

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you 
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort

Put on your brake lights
You're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna' play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Your minds in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scarin' you tonight
Your minds in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia

The ones in green is how I feel.

"DENISE!!!!! You better get you butt back here and read me and not wasting your time on the computer!!!"

*signs off and rushes to her room to study*