Odd

its 3 a.m now. What am I doing here anyway? Let's just say I had a bad dream and now I can't sleep. and I'm waking up in 3 hours to get ready for school anyways.

Yeah, I woke up, sweating and asked myself why did dream about it? You know.. dreams can be really really odd sometimes. I always dream abt something or anything when I'm under stress or maybe for no particular reason at all.
Mostly its abt falling down from something. and the next thing I know, I felt like I was falling off my bed.
In the first place, I can;t remember how I slept. @.@ I was reading Mitch Albom's and.. hmm... maybe I slept?

Another thing I remembered was boxes. two of them. round shaped. chicken pieces, sauce, mozzarella cheese with pineapple toppings, thin crusted. yummy. i ate a whole box of it.

for your information, rats eat jacob's biscuits. Instead of eating for garbage, its eating on healthy food now. XD I have no idea whether is it scientifically proven but I saw it 2 morning ago and last week. hmmm...
you know, pests are getting smarter nowadays.
Somehow reminds me of Darwin's Theory of Evolution.

I have quite frequent thoughts that still lingers in me now. Nothing I can do about it.
.....
I think I better get more books to read. Next would be Tuesday's with Morrie.
dang, I really love the way Mitch Albom writes.

Anyway, I better try going back to sleep. School is like approx. 3 hours away. hehehe.

I often tell myself, its okay.

Walking Zombie

@.@ Sleep Deprivation.
I feel like a walking zombie.

So, what is sleep deprivation?

Sleep is as important to the human body as food and water, but most of us don’t get enough sleep. Insufficient sleep or disruptions to the sleep-wake cycle (such as those that occur with shift work or travelling to a different time zone) cause the physiological state known as fatigue. A fatigued person is accident prone, judgement impaired and more likely to make mistakes and bad decisions. Staying awake for 24 hours leads to a reduced hand-to-eye coordination that is similar to having a blood alcohol content of 0.1. This is why sleep deprivation contributes to road accidents and work injuries. Lack of sleep can also affect a child’s school performance, and could be linked to increased risk of emotional problems such as depression.

extracted from here

I'm experiencing all the symptoms for adults and some from children. XD i love after noon/day naps. I hate it at the same time because I can't get up until the sun sets and usually, dinner will be over. So, there goes my dinner but theres still supper! hah!

I try to squeeze my sleep sessions when ever I can.
in the bus. before the school bell ring, while waiting for the teacher/ no teacher at all, while watching tv, in the car. ......

I'm really worried abt this right now. Sleeping 5 hours everyday will/would/might make me gain more weight. Especially if you have to go to school every freaking Saturday for 3 months!
wait!... make it 4 since I got a letter from my school on replacing Saturdays for Hari Raya and Deepavali Holidays. >.<

Exams are still going on and I can;t study no more for today. Brain block.
I sat for a chemistry quiz with 9 of my classmates.


Its harder than the usual SPM standard questions.
40 questions for 1 hour and 20 minutes.
another thing that causes brain block. >.<
but somehow, I manage to answer them quite okay.

ok.... i have 4 more papers to sit tmr. physics, bm, est and moral. ugh...

I'm planning to go for another cancer awareness event/campaign.
Its something like Relay For Life Cancer.
hmmm... ah well.. i'll put that on hold first.

wow. Something happened.

Although I'm quite unsure.
But.... hehe =)


I realised that there is something more to life. =)

French Berry Lemonade

When I was younger, I used to complain on what my mum/maid cooked. It made me laugh now. Its not that their cooking is terrible or horrible. It was mouth-watering and very appetizing most of the time. Especially after coming home from school with an empty stomach. The very thing I always complain was about rice.

"Mummy, why do we eat rice everyday??"
"can't we just eat something different for a change?"

yeap, I call my mum by mummy. XD
Well, I'm sure some of you experienced the same thing as I do. I was sick of rice.
rice rice rice.
But, as i grow older, all i need after a long day is rice. It satisfies my empty tummy all the time.
I can't rely on bread or junks when I'm hungry. It just doesn't work. There was one thing that made me realised.

"if you don't want to eat rice then I'll cook maggi mee for you."

Okaay... Back then I jumped for joy to hear my mum said I could eat maggi mee for dinner or lunch" However, now... no way!

Anyway, that was something random.

I'm up to something big now. I have it all planned in my head. Just need a few reconstruction and motivation. XD Its something that I've never done before.
So, i'm currently doing it and I wonder how will it turn out. Although I'm not sure what will the effects be. I'm giving up / sacrificing a few things and those few thing are not just anything. So, I hope it will be worth while and I know it will.


Currently, Im studying, doing some research for a project and at the same time having fun when ever I have the time.

yeah.. I'm studying on my favourite text book. can you see it?? its waaaaay behind the dictionary.

lol, i'm just joking. I read 17 once in a while.

hmmm...I've lost my interest or "I have no mood" on a few things.
Sometimes I even forgot to eat.

Though.... I must stop eating doughnuts. >.< its too tempting!! ahhhh!!!

Oh yea, I saw some cute little creatures yesterday. They're as tiny as a ping pong ball.
They're too cute to be true. goshh... I just feel like squishing them until they die! *evil look*

XD. im just joking. I wouldn't do that. It just felt like that.

Anyway, after almost a year. I finally understand why. the answer for my question has finally been answered. I truly understand all those words and what do they really meant without actually saying it directly. Funny isn't it. Well, its okay. I'm over it anyway.

holy crap.
Its July.
2 more months to SPM trials..
4 more months to SPM!
omg. I need to rearrange my daily schedule.
>.<

*edits*

Lesson of the week : Never over-indulge yourself.


I have a weird feeling lately.
had some Déjà vu too. quite odd.
I'm not sure whether is it bad or good.
Sometimes, i'm not sure about it anymore.
It felt like ages ago. or probably like it never happened before.
Seriously, its a stranger to me now.
Getting further and further away.
Maybe its for the better or the opposite.

*laughs* *flipping through a photo album*

ah well, it doesn't really matter at the moment.
I have better things to worry about.


thats your problem, not mine.

Relay For Life KL 2008

For quite some time ago, I went to an event called Relay For Life, Kuala Lumpur 2008.

What is Relay For Life?

Relay For Life is an overnight team event in a carnival-like atmosphere to raise funds for The National Cancer Society of Malaysia (NSCM). Participants have lots of fun as they challenge themselves

Relay For Life has become the world's largest fund raiser, with events held in 23 countries worldwide, including 4000 events in America where it all began in 1985.

Funds raised will be used to increase knowledge about cancer, - its causes, prevention and early detection as well as research for more effective treatment and supportive care for Malaysian impacted by cancer.

The event was held The National Stadium Bukit Jalil.
Well, not exactly In the stadium but somewhere near the national stadium.
It was held at The Majlis Sukan Negara(MSN) Stadium.
I went there with a couple of friends and met some other friends that I knew there.
Lol. I didn't they they're coming. XD
Ofcourse I met new people and made new friends there. XD




On the other hand, it was also The Anti-Tobacco Day.
Yet, I saw oneeee particular guy puffing away. =.="
How contradicting is that.

I hate people who smoke. Being near them already drives me away.
So, whenever I pass by/near people who some = run away. XD


What I did there?
Obviously, I went there for the walk-marathon.
Besides meeting people, eating, laughing, chit-chatting etc.
I started off with a fast-walk for 4 laps as my warm up.
slow jogged for 4 laps.
break.
a real jog for 5 laps.
break
enjoyed myself with all the performances and chi-chatting, laughing
continued for another 6 laps of fast-walk.
Raced with a few people. XD




Met more new people as time flies

Shirley, Kenneth, Jay, Sally, Denise(another denise), Gabriella, Calvin, Muthalib, Justin, Xue Yi, uhhhh..... I can't remember the rest of them. >.<>
As you continue reading, you might wonder why I took these pictures of paper bags with messages on it.

Well, I lost my beloved grandmother to breast/lung cancer 4 years ago.
Seeing her saying goodbye was really heart breaking.
Especially when I stood right beside her as she took her last breath.
I cried really bad before going to sleep.
I remember crying on the phone too.
It was hard for all of us.
She was very healthy.
That memory is still so fresh in my mind.
I'll always miss her. All of us do. Especially my mum.
The following year, I lost my uncle to lung cancer too.
Well, this is obviously because of his smoking habits.

anyway,

I find this somehow odd. Don't you?

Yeap, there have like millions of it.

and all of them are arranged around the side of the running track with candles in it.

>.<>

Sleepyheads

Well, this picture wasn't taken during th event but, I got that t-shirt from the event.

Voila! My running shoes. I think its more of a training shoes.
Extremely light
Very comfortable and flexible
Sometimes, I feel that I'm walking/running barefooted.
well, it cost me bomb too.

Nike Free 7.0

Wheee~! I'll be back next year!
Anyone wanna join me?

It was a great experience. I met not only new friends but also cancer-survivors. They're really nice people. =)
Well, this event did not get much attention from the media.
But whatever it is, the main purpose/objective of this event was successfully accomplished.

Therefore, don't smoke or be around people who smoke.
it will kill you. >.<>

Okaaaay... It seems like it will be a busy week for me. again.
as usual. I'm quite tired actually. >.<
Report card day is on Thursday and this Saturday, my school will be having a so-called carnival day. It seems that its not going really well from the rate of the number of coupons sold and the activities are not exciting.
I was quite reluctant to but the coupons too but I bought them since it was compulsory.
I wish I could do something about this.
Well, everyone is invited!
It will be held in our school from 8am-2pm.

I have to stop eating m&m's everyday. @.@
and I realised that I'm gaining weight.
Well, I guess its normal since I'm eating more than my usual diet.
I have to eat 2 lunch sometimes.

I better get back with my books now.
They're missing me. XD

Old times

Guess what? I found a really really old picture.
It was taken 3 years ago on a farewell get-together for Mrs. Kalai.


All of us look so........
young.

Here are some pictures from our Drama prctice back in 2006.
ahh.. i miss those times.

this was really awkward. and weird. shouldn't he be facing her instead of the door? o.O... hmm..

Drop the flute and this is what you'll get.
and you did dropped it. >.<
ji mi, we all enjoyed ourselves didn't we? =D

This picture looks reaaaaally wrong. >.< but for old time's sake, all of these are memories that can never be erased. hehe.
i have no idea what was vi thinking beck there. or why was his face like that.

=.="'''' two blur guys.

District Champions!

there's one more picture that I want to post but then..... its really weird. >.<
I swore that I will never ever do what I did in that picture ever again.
i was forced to!! >.< thanks to pei jian.

lol.. thats all for now.
Good night! =)

ouchies. I'm in pain. >.<

Here I am, sitting down comfortably. not moving my lower part of my body. finishing my mcd which is my dinner.
X-challenge was FANTASTIC!
Although I fell down on my back and it hurts real bad right now.
you don't wanna know why....
hehe

Feel really tired to blog abt it now.
I slept the whole afternoon and I apologies for not replying all the messages.
Too tired to msg. i prefer calling. its faster and time saving.
Unfortunately, its not cheap. it depends on what line you use.

>.< i have extra class in school tmr.
im too tired..... could we have a break this weekend????
i know the answer would still be a NO.

anyway, I'm watching the movie "Take The Lead"
I like some of the dance moves in this movie.
Tango, cha-cha, salsa, waltz and other similar dances. oh ya. some hip hop too.
bye!

Some things just don't work out the way I want.
Well, not that anything bad happened to me up to today la.
It just that there are a few things I'm trying to avoid for now.
I'm not blaming anyone for this. Well, if it happens then it happens.
and for whatever reasons, I don't regret it.

Sometimes, all i want is to feel emotionless for a while.
To be numb and not feel anything for just a moment.
Some people just don't understand.
and I don't understand people sometimes.
I can't put a smile on my face and be happy all the time.
Its tiring.

I find it really hard to trust anyone now.
Trusts are meant to be broken?
Same thing goes to Rules are meant to be broken?

I completely understand it now.
So, I'm just being cool now.

No worries.
Relax and enjoy the ride.

X-Challange

I wonder, why X? It sounds nice?
haha!

Today, The Science and Mathematics society is organising an even called "The X-Challange".
Venue : Our very own school
Time : After school from 1.30pm onwards.

So, our class (all 20 of us) were in charge of it since its our last year of school. XD
We were divided into 5 groups each consisting of 4 members.
We completely miss all classes for today as we need time to prepare our things.
We got everything we need and it was all set.

As for my group, we are using 2 mini kiddies swimming pool.
The only problem we had was filling it with water.
It took us 1 hour to fill ONE pool. >.<
So, to speed up things, each of us took a bucket/pail and fill it with water.

its 1.20pm. The atmosphere was gloomy and dull.
oh dear. this doesn't look good.
It was drizzling. It rained.
Heavily.
Well, one thing for sure, the rain did helped us fill up the pool.

What what is the use if the whole event was postponed?!!!??
the rain did not stop. everything was cancelled and postponed to Friday morning.
omg........ after all the hard work.

Disappointed and having the feeling of "wth??!"
One of us decided to jump into the pool.

The boys, as usual. being crazy and hyper at the same time were trying to puch each other into the pool so that aaaallllll of us are WET.
The height of the pool is below your knees. well, hehehe...
Considering that it was still raining.
one of the boy tols us, the girls.

I see you girls are so dryyy!!!!! @.@

omg. The look on your faces. >.<
Looks like you guys found gold or smthg. XDXD

Well, one of us girls got thrown into the pool.XD

I, on the other hand was trying to avoid being caught and thrown into the pool.
Well, this remind me of what happened in Kuala Selangor where our debates were held there.
The only difference here is that they've failed to throw me in the pool.
muahaha! since i was hugging myself onto a pole. XD

Anyway, I still got wet. somehow. =.="

All of us had so much fun!
To Ji Mi, Derrick, Joon Hong and Pei Jian.. XDXD
You guys should be here. we had loads of fun!

you know, i love walking and playing in the rain (not heavy rain).
Despite having your hair wet and messy, feeling chilly, clothes all wet and constantly wiping my glasses, I like it.
This year, i start playing in the rain more often than before. Its because, I love the feeling of it at that very moment.
The only feeling I felt was being truly happy.

Hmmm.. don't think that i do this every time it rains. XD

I have something to say but I just can't put them into words. ugh. All I want now is just a 10-hour sleep, watch a good movie and have fun.
now as in nowwww.....

Hmm... I just got home from Physics Tuition an hour ago.
A teeney weeney thing happened today.
Physics teacher asked us what is the function of a galvanometer.
No one answered except for Vi and myself.
My answer was to detect a smaller change of the reading of current.

WRONG!!!

o.O??
okaaaay... I know I'm not that good in physics but I'm really sure that my answer was correct.
So, I asked him, what is the answer?
and he was explaining this and that and finally he repeated my answer. =.="
i was like.... nevermind... probably he didn't understand what was I saying.

Currently, I'm brushing up with my studies.
Concentrate more in class, finish up all my homework, stay away from problems and be a good girl. =D

I feel like getting myself an ice-cream now.
No idea why. But I want it with nuts and chocolate chips.
Weird things are happening to me. I mean weird as in unusual.

Hmmm, something just crossed my mind.
its about shoes.
Talk about shoes, it reminds me of Bangkok.
I mean, a shopping mall there called Siam Paragon.
It doesn't look that big to me but I think its alright.
What I like abt this shopping malls is that
they have varieties of food to choose from.

So much so, it took me abt 30 minutes browsing through the whole food court and restaurants deciding what to get for myself.
and when I was purchasing something, I didn't know I have to have like a so called "credit card" to purchase my food.
Being so blur and innocent, I got myself a card which I still have it now with me.

Next floor, I went to a store.
Its something like Parkson/Isetan/ Metrojaya's concept but bigger.
Theres was 2 particular floors that caught my eyes.

The Lingerie Floor and
The Shoes Floor.

Not sections.
Its like the whole floor dedicated for lingerie/swim wear
and another whole floor dedicated for shoes.
@.@
The shoes are stunning!
But, I bought myself so many shoes recently. So, I don't really need one at all.
abt the lingerie. Hmm... I have to say I'm impressed.
"too much" to choose from. So many sizes, colours, designs, brands etc.

Okay.... I'm being weird right now.
I think its because I haven't have my dinner yet.

Next, I'm off to Bora Ombak.
Bye!

ps : staring at it blankly makes my really sad where theres nothing I could do about it. I don't know how am I supposed to tell you.

Forgive me, Im sorry.

I had a very busy weekend.
Well, more like a busy week.
Had classes everywhere.
Although I did not study much.
Obviously its because of the exam papers teachers are discussing.
The correct answers, the stupid answers and weird answers that we all do.

I remember, my english teacher pointed out that i did a really silly mistake.
That is spelling the word " principal" wrongly.
I guess you might know how i spelled it.
>.<>.<>.<>.<
It was Paul. our ex-schoolmate.
What a coincidence. XD
Well, all of us ate and talked abt so many things.

I went for my orthodontic appointment.
i was abt 10 minutes late.
Got everything changed and a new set of rubber bands which I nave to wear them for at least another month.
Went to Sg.wang after that.
Honestly, I wasn't in the mood at all. I was sad.
But, i was okay after that.

I feel really sad looking at it now. broken.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be.
or maybe I don't deserve it anymore.
I don't know.
aghh!!
now i don't know what to do or what to say abt the thing i broke.
Except,
Forgive me,
Im Sorry.

>.<

I feel like I have too much things in mind now.
Indeed, I have a lot of them.

Sometimes I just don't know what to do with them.
Cast them aside?
Nah, they'll be back one way or another.

Now, I'm a little afraid.
One owrd to describe it.
SPM.
The feeling is getting more real.
Not as vague as before.

I just got my add maths project assignment.
Something to do with Linear Law (oscillation of pendulum)
More like physics + add maths.
>.<
Looks like I have to start studying for real, which I've already did.
Start exercising to lose my tummy.
I got a lot of comments abt my tummy bulging out. >.<
Hmmm...


I need a 12 hour sleep.
but i can't so that untill saturday night. >.<
I can't believe I'm actually having extra classes on saturday.
Dang. I've already have plans for it.
nvm, i'll see how it goes tmr.

>.<
Headaches... please go away....
Panadol doesn't work.
These headaches wakes me up in the whee hours of the morning.

Because of this, I've not been talking or moving around much.
>.<

I got some of my exam papers and its quite bad.
well, quite bad within my expectations and capabilities.
Now, i feel really bad about and I seriously need to do something with it or else I'm dead.
SPM is so near. >.<
Need to be serious from now on.
and when I mention serious, its serious.
Well, to those who know me well enough, you'll know how serious I can be when I'm studying. XD

Hmmm...
Sometimes I just wanna clear my mind from everything.
I've been thinking too much lately.
>.< ugh... and whatever that I thought about are not good stuffs.
More like a probability.
I'm not sure whether to cry or not.
Well, I did not.
Sometimes, I want certain things to change.


I gtg now, I have homework to finish up.
well, at least today is the only day I'm free from extra activities from school and tuitions.
XD. Unlike the rest of the days, I have things to do.
Especially on wednesday, thursday and friday.
I'm quite busy on these days.
the busiest on thursday. >.<