Excuse me for my lack of updates. I've been lazy to blog these days. So, if you're still reading my blog, I love youuu!! lol. =D Thanks for putting the effort to drop by.
As you can see my chatbox on the right column has been spammed by idiots and so, don't bother posting anything there coz I don't think I bother reading it anymore. I might even take out the chatbox, well.. later lah!
Life so far has been... well okay, I suppose? I have my ups and downs but life has to go on. A lot of things happened for the past couple of months and definitely there are a lot of changes as well. I'll be turning 20 this year (omg, I don't feel like my age) and I have more responsibilities, more things to worry and think about, more time spent on building up my career and much much more.
For the past 3 months I've been thinking and stressing out on so many things. Studies, career, relationships, money, time, my health, parents and definitely my future. Having all these spinning round and round in my mind like plates of sushi's from Sushi King passing by, almost never ending. I spent my whole day, almost everyday thinking about all these things and its frustrating that I can't have a solution for all of them.
Recently, I just got my A-Levels results. One thing I could say is that I'm not happy with it. I saw my hopes and dreams crash and burn with just a click of my computer mouse as I saw the grades popped up on my computer screen. I felt numb for awhile and for the first time in my life frankly, I felt totally lost. I felt like I didn't know what the hell was I doing and what am I supposed to do at that moment. For the next few days, I was not in the mood for anything and it went on like that for the rest of the week. I even came up with this crazy idea to stop studying, stay home, get married to a billionaire, become a housewife and produce babies. =/ Stupid me, i've spent so many years studying all my life with all those sleepless nights, fevers and stress just to end up to become a fulltime housewife??! No. Crazy ahh?? Even if my future husband is filthy rich, I don't ever wanna end up being a stay-at-home mummy. Girls, we gotta' be independent and support yourself. =)
What about money? Well, its Chinese New Year.. So, I got alotta Angpau's? teeheehee. Okay, lets be more serious here. Money will always be an issue we all talk about no matter how rich or poor you are. Things are getting more expensive these days or maybe its just me, that I've been spending too much on expensive things despite loving cheap and if possible, free things. lol. Money ain't easy to earn. So people, if you're too rich and you don't know what to spend on, spend on me(or ppl like me). Pay for my education so that I can have more and better choices. Don't spend it on unnecessary things like building more skyscrapers or bridges or go to the moon or whatever that are useless.
Time is of the essence. Time is precious. time is definitely running out. From now, I'll be quite busy, busier than before. It has been giving me headaches thinking about time, in general. *exhales*
For thr past two or three months, I had fever twice already and its not a good sign. The most recent one would be during the first night of CNY when I was at my hometown, Batu Pahat. I was so unfortunate to fall ill where my whole family and relatives had the chance to actually meet up and enjoy each other's company. Instead of doing that, I spent my days sleeping with tissue papers everywhere. I don't know if it has a hay fever due to allergies to my cousins dogs or theres a possibility that its the weather or stress or I'm just unlucky or its just everything I've just mentioned. sighs. Now, I feel so much better except that i have flu, nose block, dry throat and a coarse voice from time to time. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
My parents, Aww, I love them to bits although I don't show it. They're getting older and I'm getting more afraid and worried for them. I don't wanna like mention it but they're getting old. You know what I'm talking about don't you?? =/ Hmmm. I just love having them around and I can't imagine how my days would be like without them. I wish that they will forever be blessed and showered with happiness, good health, prosperity, long life, luck, love and everything nice, especially my mum's cooking skills. =D
Relationships. I'm a bit sensitive and personal when it comes to this topic as it is a sensitive and personal matter.. I prefer keeping this to myself and I only share it with the people I can totally trust. For all I can say is that I never regret for what had happened between us and what we had. =) We may not be right for each other as more than just friends but we'll be okay. I will always remember and cherish the good times we had and I'll keep them close to my heart. Whatever bad memories we had was just a part of growing up, the experience and its just life. It has taught me to be wiser and careful in the future. I hate you and myself for all the bad memories we had. I still care for you and I will always remember you. Thank you for everything, for caring for me, for being there for me, for loving me and everything. A big thank you to your family too. =) Take care, Afiq. I wish you all the best in whatever you're doing, especially the things you have passion for. I would like to apologize for the mean things I said, the arguments I caused and all the things I did which hurt your feeling when we were together. For all that, I'm truly sorry. You know, it will take me some time to actually let this settle down before I move on. Moving on is never easy, it never was and it will never be easy. Moving on does not always mean we gave up. It heals. As much as i don't believe it when people told me, trust me, time will heal the broken heart when you move on. Just, don't give up trying again. Don't be afraid to love again. =)
Huaaaaa! I feel so emo now and its draining my energy. =( I don't feel well. Besides, my throat and flu are killing me. Need to sleep.
I've got lots more going on but that's all I'm willing to share for now, until next time... =)
p/s : nunca te rindas! =D
As you can see my chatbox on the right column has been spammed by idiots and so, don't bother posting anything there coz I don't think I bother reading it anymore. I might even take out the chatbox, well.. later lah!
Life so far has been... well okay, I suppose? I have my ups and downs but life has to go on. A lot of things happened for the past couple of months and definitely there are a lot of changes as well. I'll be turning 20 this year (omg, I don't feel like my age) and I have more responsibilities, more things to worry and think about, more time spent on building up my career and much much more.
For the past 3 months I've been thinking and stressing out on so many things. Studies, career, relationships, money, time, my health, parents and definitely my future. Having all these spinning round and round in my mind like plates of sushi's from Sushi King passing by, almost never ending. I spent my whole day, almost everyday thinking about all these things and its frustrating that I can't have a solution for all of them.
Recently, I just got my A-Levels results. One thing I could say is that I'm not happy with it. I saw my hopes and dreams crash and burn with just a click of my computer mouse as I saw the grades popped up on my computer screen. I felt numb for awhile and for the first time in my life frankly, I felt totally lost. I felt like I didn't know what the hell was I doing and what am I supposed to do at that moment. For the next few days, I was not in the mood for anything and it went on like that for the rest of the week. I even came up with this crazy idea to stop studying, stay home, get married to a billionaire, become a housewife and produce babies. =/ Stupid me, i've spent so many years studying all my life with all those sleepless nights, fevers and stress just to end up to become a fulltime housewife??! No. Crazy ahh?? Even if my future husband is filthy rich, I don't ever wanna end up being a stay-at-home mummy. Girls, we gotta' be independent and support yourself. =)
What about money? Well, its Chinese New Year.. So, I got alotta Angpau's? teeheehee. Okay, lets be more serious here. Money will always be an issue we all talk about no matter how rich or poor you are. Things are getting more expensive these days or maybe its just me, that I've been spending too much on expensive things despite loving cheap and if possible, free things. lol. Money ain't easy to earn. So people, if you're too rich and you don't know what to spend on, spend on me(or ppl like me). Pay for my education so that I can have more and better choices. Don't spend it on unnecessary things like building more skyscrapers or bridges or go to the moon or whatever that are useless.
Time is of the essence. Time is precious. time is definitely running out. From now, I'll be quite busy, busier than before. It has been giving me headaches thinking about time, in general. *exhales*
For thr past two or three months, I had fever twice already and its not a good sign. The most recent one would be during the first night of CNY when I was at my hometown, Batu Pahat. I was so unfortunate to fall ill where my whole family and relatives had the chance to actually meet up and enjoy each other's company. Instead of doing that, I spent my days sleeping with tissue papers everywhere. I don't know if it has a hay fever due to allergies to my cousins dogs or theres a possibility that its the weather or stress or I'm just unlucky or its just everything I've just mentioned. sighs. Now, I feel so much better except that i have flu, nose block, dry throat and a coarse voice from time to time. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
My parents, Aww, I love them to bits although I don't show it. They're getting older and I'm getting more afraid and worried for them. I don't wanna like mention it but they're getting old. You know what I'm talking about don't you?? =/ Hmmm. I just love having them around and I can't imagine how my days would be like without them. I wish that they will forever be blessed and showered with happiness, good health, prosperity, long life, luck, love and everything nice, especially my mum's cooking skills. =D
Relationships. I'm a bit sensitive and personal when it comes to this topic as it is a sensitive and personal matter.. I prefer keeping this to myself and I only share it with the people I can totally trust. For all I can say is that I never regret for what had happened between us and what we had. =) We may not be right for each other as more than just friends but we'll be okay. I will always remember and cherish the good times we had and I'll keep them close to my heart. Whatever bad memories we had was just a part of growing up, the experience and its just life. It has taught me to be wiser and careful in the future. I hate you and myself for all the bad memories we had. I still care for you and I will always remember you. Thank you for everything, for caring for me, for being there for me, for loving me and everything. A big thank you to your family too. =) Take care, Afiq. I wish you all the best in whatever you're doing, especially the things you have passion for. I would like to apologize for the mean things I said, the arguments I caused and all the things I did which hurt your feeling when we were together. For all that, I'm truly sorry. You know, it will take me some time to actually let this settle down before I move on. Moving on is never easy, it never was and it will never be easy. Moving on does not always mean we gave up. It heals. As much as i don't believe it when people told me, trust me, time will heal the broken heart when you move on. Just, don't give up trying again. Don't be afraid to love again. =)
Huaaaaa! I feel so emo now and its draining my energy. =( I don't feel well. Besides, my throat and flu are killing me. Need to sleep.
I've got lots more going on but that's all I'm willing to share for now, until next time... =)
p/s : nunca te rindas! =D
