pmr

whee.. i just finished 7 chapters of chemistry.
One more chapter to go. Salt.

All the best to those who are sitting for PMR this year!
i miss PMR. seriously.
ofcouse lah.. its much easier. but nothing comes easy.
I remembered i couldn't sleep the night before my last paper. Geography.
Hmm.. Its not that i'm nervous. i just couldn't sleep.
lol.. i end up so sleepy in the exam hall until i almost fell asleep and i can barely open my eyes.
Well thank god i answered all the question. i can say was quite easy compared to my trials. and there was something wrong with 1 or 2 questions. bah.. its over anyway.

do i have to go to school tomorrow?
im such a lazy pig.. coz i wanna sleep at home..

Anyway, i love blackraisins!

Party!!!

Sorry i have not been updating for 1 week. I was quite busy. Anyway, here it goes.

Saturday, 22 September 2007

Today was the best day in these 2 months! Seriously! I never had fun and laughed soo much.
Anyway, it was my birthday party. Its simple but all of us had so much fun!
And i can say once again my party was a success!!
I would like to thanks everyone who manage to be there.
I can say that all of you enjoyed yourself veryveryvery much!!
And to those of you people who did not make it, you missed out a lot of fun!!! and food!
My earliest guest who arrived was Derrick, Shazmiq and Khai Wen. lol.. i wasnt dressed properly yet.
Everyone arrived at abt 6.30pm.
We ate and ate and ate.
I love the fruit punch! with nata de coco in it! yummy.... Its home-made. XD
We played a crazy game which took us almost 3 hours. it was just 1 game with lots of fun, laughs and crazy jokes.
this year, i invited more people. much more than last year.
i cant ask too much coz my house is quite small.
remember, all of you people crammed into my room?
lemme guess.. abt like 20 ppl.. lol!
all of us ate a lot!

Hmm... i dont remember taking any food because Ji Mi and Derrick took a plate full of food in it and its a smiley face!!
i ate spagetthi, fruit punch, chocolates, cakes, some
icky food which contains fish,chicken, nutella chocolate, daim, tobasco, cake and lots of cheese. some of us ate it. for fun.
not bad actually. but the aftermath was horrible because of the cheese and tobasco.
i need a cup of drink. thank god derrick got some for me! *gulped* what a relieve.
But then something was burning my throat, tongue and lips. IT TASTE LIKE TOBASCO!!!
he put some tobasco in it. mygawd......
It reminds me when we had chillis at klcc after the mpyo concert.
The party ended at abt 12.

i'll upload the pics another day. please....... im so lazy to wait.

Sunday

Duncan is back from singapore! whee! but he will be busy. im busy with my add maths project which was driving me nuts. its due tomorrow!! i printed everything out. well almost. went to ampang point to bind my projeck and some extra blank a4 paper n graph papers incase i did anything wrong or need to add more things in my project. slept at 1am.

Monday

went to school and try to finish up what i have not do yet. was looking for the extra papers i binded but i forgot to bring it. swt! =.="
So, i called my mum to ask her to bring the papers to sch for me if shed still at home.
but she left for work already and so she called my dad to take it.
I smsed my dad how does the papers look like exactly. so he said he knows he knows.
So, when i got the papers from him, i was so happy.
i didnt bother to check it whether is it the right one or not.
when i got back to class, i found out that he brought the wrong papers!!! Instead of the empty a4 papers, he got me some used graph papers n a4 papers. and a funny thing is, he brought my music book. i was like... swttttt........... never mind.
I pass up my add maths project and my miseries are over.

Tuesday

Went to Ampang Point to have lunch with Duncan. Ate McDonalds after so many "years" XD
Im glad i get to see you again. Duncan got me something from Singapore for my birthday.
All i can say is i love them!! veryvery much!
I have no words to describe it. its so beautiful.
He got me 2 pairs of earrings from Blackraisins. The earrings were hand-made and im sure it much have cost a lot. Thank you very much, Duncan! =)

Wednesday

I was feeling so tired. seriously the whole day im doing something. i have school untill 1.50 but i missed the bus so i have to wait for the next round for the bus to arrive abt 2.30. it was raining dogs and cats!! Reached home at almost 3.00 and had my flute lesson. i was so exhausted and hungry during my lesson. I are my lunch after that and 5.15 i walked to tuition. luckily the rain stopped. I walked back home after tuiton. exhausted.

Friday (yesterday)

We had a librarian meeting after recess. to discuss abt things la. funny discussion.
well at that time, something else happened too. that is what i heard from someone.
i have no comments for it. i dont wanna think abt it for now.
After school, i went to corus hotel.
Im glad i get to see you again even though if its just 5 or 10 minutes.
i was wishing and hoping that the bus would breakdown or something. HEHE. so that you dont have to go.
Anyway, i'll see you soon.. =)

Thats all for now. i need to study my chemistry now. i'll post the pictures next time pleaseeeee.... be patient. XD

$^(#$^(*@$

It is so frustrating and i feel quite upset if you keep on disappointing me.
I dont know how many times you disappoint me but i feel that you did that many times already.
I dont know what has got into you.
its upsetting me and you know that.
Now i know its not my fault at all.
You screwed everything up.
i did my part and yet its disappointing.
All you did was just hurting me and disappointing me more.
You are such a monster.
ah..! dont wanna think abt it. sick of it.
im tired of arguing with you.
im busy.

a few things happened in school lately.
dont know what to say abt it.

Add maths project.
i did so much and yet its not enough.
its not the calculating the answers. thats nothing compared to listing every single detail like how did i get this n that.
and why i tabulated the data like this and that.
why my answer is so and so.
what made me choose this n that.
i wasted a lot of papers and ink because i need to add extra details and list down every single steps abt how i do it.
I spent 6 hours on the computer yesterday just to add more details.
Lol.. its not last minute work. i've been doing it since last month and yet its not complete.
some of my friends even stayed up until before they go to school just to finish it up and yet again its never enough.
some never even sleep at all.
i better stop now.

!#%^*&^#!)&()!!!!!!!
i have no words to explain it.
ugh!

Ouchies

My teeth hurts....
gahhhhh.........
i hate wearing those rubber bands.
my head hurts too.
omigawd........
i try not to take painkillers but i must. lol.
i cant play my flute properly now. *smacks forehead*
do i have to go though this every 5 weeks???
die. exams are coming too.

Hmm.. Does it?

I love flowers! and hate exams.

These are the pictures i've been wanting to post.
I really love this flower. very much. i can't remember what flower is this.
It took abt almost 3 weeks to take this pictures.









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Now.. exams are coming..real soon....
and it will take me almost 1 month to sit for it.
The ones highlighted in yellow are the exams im sitting for.
haih.. so long...

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to me....
Happy Birthday to me.......
Happy Birthday to Denise....
Happy Birthday to Me.....

Yeap.. its my birthday today...
I can say a lot of people wished me today.
Thank you everyone!!
Sorry i cant mention everyone's name. too many.
I appreciate it very much..

my day was good today.
Its the happiest day in this 2 months.
I was quite touched when Preshna, Aishvarya and Banu sang me a birthday song.
So sweet of you la... =)

I seriously want to post some pictures but blogger is quite slow now..
Im lazy anyway..

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i enjoyed myself today! =)

food stealer.

as usual.. i'll bring my own food to eat in school. well most of the time i do that.
i KNOW that im going to be hungry.
So, i asked my mu to buy gardenia bread with the chocolate cream inside.
I was in the computer lab and i left my bag outside because we're not allowed to bring our bags in.
after class, i went to bio lab and took out my books.
i realised my food was GONE!!!
ugh... why on earth do you want that bread anyway?
grrr.... i end up with nothing to eat except for the canteen food which was my last choice of food.
nevermind.

The Librarians had a meeting today.
Pn. Solah was going to announced the Majlis Tertinggi (MT) PSS 2007/2008.
I have no idea abt it. XD
anyway, straight to the point.
Im the Timbalan Ketua PSS 07/08. =)
whee.... Thank you!!
Pei Jian is retiring. Aww... =)
Dont worry. hehe.
Congrats to the others who are chosen for the MT.

sorry.. im lazy to post pictures. XD

My msn has virus now THANKS TO wai min..
grrrr....
now i cant use msn live. i must use the OLD msn.
they keep sending me stuffs like..
"look at my idiot pic" =) and a link to a website.
well not my idiot pic la.
i got that virus and now its spreading to my other contacts by itself whenever im using msn live.
so, if you do get it from me, ignore it.
coz i cant control it n it sends the virus by itself.
msn going crazy, all my contacts started popping out on and on,
and after a few seconds, everything was okay and it will keep repeating the same thing untill you get sick of it.
please dont give more more stress.
i need to use the comp for my add maths project.

Minesweeper.

my classmates and i were playing that in the computer lab.
its kinda cold in there.
imagine sitting down there for 4 periods. haih.
XD. actually i have no idea how to play that game.
Numbers all over and i JUST found out it meant something. =.=" silly me.
i've never win that game before.

Minesweeper.
reminds me of something else.
dont know why.
lazy to explain.

For the past few days, i felt so insecure.
REALLY insecure.
i get irritated quite often.
but im okay sometimes.
laughing makes me forget things. sometimes.
when i wake up in the morning, something will be ringing in my head.
its bothering me and yet i dont know what is it.
Sometimes, i hear a song played on a piano on and on every morning.
the same song every single morning.
could it be an alarm? maybe. or maybe im imagining things. XD
sometimes i hear my phone ringing and running all over to search for my phone coz i forgot where i put it.
and again, my mind is playing with me. the phone wasnt ringing at all. gawd.
every afternoon, i always wanted to have a nap but i cant coz i feel bad.
im going nuts.
ughhh...

I have some pictures and i'll upload it some other time.

Whee..

garrhhhh.... stresss!!!!!
Add maths project....!!!!
need more time and help....
Stupid computer..!
Keep shutting down by itself!
whatever i typed is gone!!
well.. not everything la.. the ones i typed recently.
how am i supposed to save it while typing and suddenly it went blank n shuts down.
grrrr.... im sick of doing it already. for today.
Anyway... im currently reading...

Everything in Elizabeth Egan’s life has its place, from the espresso cups in her gleaming kitchen to the swatches and paint pots of her interior design business. Order and precision keep life under control—and keep Elizabeth’s heart from the pain and hurt she has suffered in the past. Being a reluctant mother to her six-year-old nephew while trying to keep her business on track is a full-time job for Elizabeth, and one that leaves little room for error—or fun.

Until, one day, Ivan unexpectedly comes into their lives. The mysterious Ivan is carefree, spontaneous and always looking for adventure—everything that Elizabeth is not. If You Could See Me Now is the extraordinary tale of Ivan and Elizabeth. Of how Ivan meets the love of his life before she even sees him, and how he teaches her that life is only worth living when it's blindingly colourful and the occasional mess. Yet just when Elizabeth is starting to trust him, it turns out that Ivan isn't at all who she thought he was.

Playful and at times intensely moving, this is a novel about how seeing isn't always believing. Full of Cecelia Ahern’s trademark warmth and poignancy, If You Could See Me Now is a story of enormous heart--and just a little bit of magic.


The next book i'll be reading...

This is the extraordinary love story of Clare and Henry who met when Clare was 6 and Henry was 36, and were married when Clare was 22 and Henry was 30. Impossible but true, because Henry suffers from a rare condition, "Chrono-Displacement" that causes him to involuntarily travel through time where his genetic clock periodically resets and he finds himself pulled suddenly into his past or future.

Henry cannot take anything with him into the future or the past. Even fillings in his teeth are left behind. He always "arrives" naked and must work hard while "away" to find clothing, shelter, and food without getting beaten up or arrested. He amasses a number of survival skills including pickpocketing, lock-picking, and expert fighting skills to allow him to get by without the bare necessities. He learns many of these skills from older versions of himself, either when the older self is time-traveling into his own past, or when his older and younger selves' time-traveling coincides.

Clare Abshire comes from a wealthy family, goes to Catholic school and then moves to Chicago to study art. She eventually becomes an artist, making paper and creating sculptures from paper and wire frames.

Henry time travels into Clare's childhood many times, starting in 1977 when she is six years old. He gives her a list of the visits he will make when he visits her for the first time (in her past), then she writes these dates into a diary so she can expect his visits. As an adult, when all of the visits are through, she gives the list to him to return to her in her past. He visits her numerous times during her childhood and adolescence, and inadvertently reveals that they will be married in the future. His last visit takes place on her eighteenth birthday in 1989, and then they are separated for two years until they finally meet in real time for both of them.

When 20-year-old Clare meets up with 28-year-old Henry in 1991, he has never seen her before, although she has known him most of her life. Clare's past is still in Henry's future. Henry begins to experience the events in Clare's childhood at the same time that he experiences life with the adult Clare in the present. In the novel, the future cannot be changed, and many tragic events are foreshadowed in the past.

Clare and Henry get married, but have trouble conceiving a child because of his genetic disorder. After six miscarriages, Henry gives up and has a vasectomy. Later, a past version of Henry travels to the future and makes love to Clare and she becomes pregnant and carries the child to term. They have a daughter named Alba, who is diagnosed with the same disorder. Before she is born, Henry travels to the future and meets Alba at ten years old. Alba reveals to Henry that he is to die when she is five years old.

Years later, Henry time-travels to Chicago on a very cold winter night, where he is unable to find shelter. He experiences hypothermia and develops frostbite. After returning to his 'present', his feet are amputated, while the story has stressed that his ability to run is his most important survival skill. It is not long before Henry time-travels into the middle of th Michigan during deer season and is fatally shot by Clare's brother. He returns to the present and dies in Clare’s arms.

Clare is devastated by Henry's passing, and feels unable to live her life without him. She finds a letter from Henry describing an experience he had with her in her future, when she is an old woman. Henry doesn't want Clare to wait for him, but he wants her to know that they will see each other again because love knows no boundaries and transcends time and death. Clare then lives to old age, and is visited by Henry for a final time.

Interesting book... cant wait to read it.. and i've already bought it.

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School was boring.
i shouldn't have go to school.
Not even 1 teacher enter my class.
i spent 2 periods sleeping in class.
another 2 periods reading.
Hmm.. The form 5's are having their trials.
All the best!!
so, my class was moved to block D.
Well, i spent my form 1 and 2 there.
A lot of memories.
i miss all those times you used to come into my class just to see me.
and.....
i got a dark bruise on my feet. it hurts whenever i walk.

Frustrated again.

Seriously i am.
its like.... having pmr exam. gawd. though its like ages ago.
well it felt like ages ago though it was 11 months ago.
haih....
i just wish i could erase a few things in my mind.
Now, i should make a list.
yeah... a list of advantages of something lah..
theres this anger in me that i wish i could let it out.
i need a punching bag.
So many people disappointed me. Let me down. and hurt me.
oh well.. what goes around, comes around and it goes all the way back around.
Now, all i have to do is study hard and at the same time enjoy life and most importantly enjoy myself.
Move on with life.
though i miss the old me.
I dont really like the new me now.
Some things made me change and i dont really like it.
i miss the old Denise.

silly

if you already took out the modem already..
why did u put it back?
Scared i'll find out?
come on, the modem is still hot even after 1 hour+ ??

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my day was alright.
though there was anger in me all day. even now.
nothing much.
went to tuition and suddenly something bugged me.
it was something i love and miss sooo much.
wish i could turn back time.

I will never forgive you.
I can't and i wont accept your apology.
I dont know who exactly are you anymore.
You let me down really badly..
You disappoint me.
You hurt me.
You are such a cruel person.
I really don't want to HATE you.
But i already do.
You gave me false hope.
You betrayed me.
You gave up everything.
You walked away when thats the time i needed you the most.
You only think about yourself.
All you care is abt yourself.
You always said you can't do anything about it.
I think you can.
You are not strong enough.
I felt like i was being used.
I helped you with your school projects.
I helped you to find you favourite song and i burned it.
I did everything i could when you were not well.
I spent all my free time with you.
I was always there for you when you needed me.
I made you smile and laugh and i brighten up your day.
I did lots of things for you.
I did everything i could just to help you and to be there for you.
I know, i do get angry and sad.
I am needy.
Its not that i don't understand.
It is because i cared.

So..... ever wonder what do i get in return?
Yes.
You are such an ungrateful person.
I don't know whether you appreciate any of it.

Im so frustrated now.
You are so *tuuuut*
You think that you are so great. but you are not.
Do you know how many people "throw stones" on you??
well, you cant count it with your finger coz theres tons of them.
I dont gain anything by telling lies.
You said things that were not true just because you were facing it.
doenst mean that im the same as you.
Dont you realize that theres a HGE DIFFERENCE between us??
Its like chalk and cheese. XD
Im not like you. not a single bit like you.
you spread rumors about me, talk bad about me, only talk to me when you need me.
You are such a 2-faced person. One of the worst person i've ever met in my life.
You brag abt how good you were at "something" but you actually suck at it really badly.
You brag abt how bad i am in it but i proved you wrong and i squished you flat.
well, you will be punish again.
from the way i see it, i pity you and i feel sorry for you.
but on the other hand, you deserve it.
I dont know who made you like this.
So what if you dont care.
if you dont care, dont bother abt this post.
dont bother to write it to defend youself.
dont bother to tell me off too.
you dont seem to care about anything including yourself.
if you dont care abt yourself, then why care abt the relationship we had?
why do you cry over it and you said it hurts you??
you are so fake. all bullshit and crocodile tears.
you will never realize and learn from your mistakes.
you will never learn because... as YOU SAID, "i dont care"
Well, i just hope you will wake up from the "dead" and change.

September.

theres one thing thats really bothering me now.
it makes me angry and i feel like giving you a punch on your face.
now you are using me to cover up your mistake??
what kind of a person are you??
if you do did something wrong, just take that responsibility that you're wrong.
you don't have to lie.
Especially using me to do it.
Thank god i did not listen to you.
coz i sense something is not right.

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What in the world is in your mind now???
ughh....
i dont know what i should do now. i feel so stuck.
should i start letting it go and give up??
or should i still hang on to it??
yes, i know you need time and im giving you time.
But you seem to run away everytime i have a conversation with you.
its like you are trying to avoid me talking abt us.
i maybe wrong but at the moment, that is how i felt.
dont worry, i wont bring it up unless you do it first.
i seriously dont know what are you doing.
and the pink dog. i think it left me too.
the beautiful flowers are dying.

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Here's a question i would like an answer for you reader who are reading.
and please respond.

Lets say you are a thief.
you found a wallet with money in it.
Will you take all of the money?? or will you take some of the money??

My answer will be : which idiotic thief will not take all of the money???