Sleepy!

This week itself, I've felt Tired, Slightly Sleepy, Super Sleepy, Knock Out and Cranky. I have yet to experience the final stage of sleepiness.

Life Updates I

Excuse me for my lack of updates. I've been lazy to blog these days. So, if you're still reading my blog, I love youuu!! lol. =D Thanks for putting the effort to drop by.

As you can see my chatbox on the right column has been spammed by idiots and so, don't bother posting anything there coz I don't think I bother reading it anymore. I might even take out the chatbox, well.. later lah!

Life so far has been... well okay, I suppose? I have my ups and downs but life has to go on. A lot of things happened for the past couple of months and definitely there are a lot of changes as well. I'll be turning 20 this year (omg, I don't feel like my age) and I have more responsibilities, more things to worry and think about, more time spent on building up my career and much much more.

For the past 3 months I've been thinking and stressing out on so many things. Studies, career, relationships, money, time, my health, parents and definitely my future. Having all these spinning round and round in my mind like plates of sushi's from Sushi King passing by, almost never ending. I spent my whole day, almost everyday thinking about all these things and its frustrating that I can't have a solution for all of them.

Recently, I just got my A-Levels results. One thing I could say is that I'm not happy with it. I saw my hopes and dreams crash and burn with just a click of my computer mouse as I saw the grades popped up on my computer screen. I felt numb for awhile and for the first time in my life frankly, I felt totally lost. I felt like I didn't know what the hell was I doing and what am I supposed to do at that moment. For the next few days, I was not in the mood for anything and it went on like that for the rest of the week. I even came up with this crazy idea to stop studying, stay home, get married to a billionaire, become a housewife and produce babies. =/ Stupid me, i've spent so many years studying all my life with all those sleepless nights, fevers and stress just to end up to become  a fulltime housewife??! No. Crazy ahh?? Even if my future husband is filthy rich, I don't ever wanna end up being a stay-at-home mummy. Girls, we gotta' be independent and support yourself. =)

What about money? Well, its Chinese New Year.. So, I got alotta Angpau's? teeheehee. Okay, lets be more serious here. Money will always be an issue we all talk about no matter how rich or poor you are. Things are getting more expensive these days or maybe its just me, that I've been spending too much on expensive things despite loving cheap and if possible, free things. lol. Money ain't easy to earn. So people, if you're too rich and you don't know what to spend on, spend on me(or ppl like me). Pay for my education so that I can have more and better choices. Don't spend it on unnecessary things like building more skyscrapers or bridges or go to the moon or whatever that are useless.

Time is of the essence. Time is precious. time is definitely running out. From now, I'll be quite busy, busier than before. It has been giving me headaches thinking about time, in general. *exhales*

For thr past two or three months, I had fever twice already and its not a good sign. The most recent one would be during the first night of CNY when I was at my hometown, Batu Pahat. I was so unfortunate to fall ill where my whole family and relatives had the chance to actually meet up and enjoy each other's company. Instead of doing that, I spent my days sleeping with tissue papers everywhere. I don't know if it has a hay fever due to allergies to my cousins dogs or theres a possibility that its the weather or stress or I'm just unlucky or its just everything I've just mentioned. sighs. Now, I feel so much better except that i have flu, nose block, dry throat and a coarse voice from time to time. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

My parents, Aww, I love them to bits although I don't show it. They're getting older and I'm getting more afraid and worried for them. I don't wanna like mention it but they're getting old. You know what I'm talking about don't you?? =/ Hmmm. I just love having them around and I can't imagine how my days would be like without them. I wish that they will forever be blessed and showered with happiness, good health, prosperity, long life, luck, love and everything nice, especially my mum's cooking skills. =D

Relationships. I'm a bit sensitive and personal when it comes to this topic as it is a sensitive and personal matter.. I prefer keeping this to myself and I only share it with the people I can totally trust. For all I can say is that I never regret for what had happened between us and what we had. =) We may not be right for each other as more than just friends but we'll be okay. I will always remember and cherish the good times we had and I'll keep them close to my heart. Whatever bad memories we had was just a part of growing up, the experience and its just life. It has taught me to be wiser and careful in the future. I hate you and myself for all the bad memories we had. I still care for you and I will always remember you. Thank you for everything, for caring for me, for being there for me, for loving me and everything. A big thank you to your family too. =) Take care, Afiq. I wish you all the best in whatever you're doing, especially the things you have passion for. I would like to apologize for the mean things I said, the arguments I caused and all the things I did which hurt your feeling when we were together. For all that, I'm truly sorry. You know, it will take me some time to actually let this settle down before I move on. Moving on is never easy, it never was and it will never be easy. Moving on does not always mean we gave up. It heals. As much as i don't believe it when people told me, trust me, time will heal the broken heart when you move on. Just, don't give up trying again. Don't be afraid to love again. =)

Huaaaaa! I feel so emo now and its draining my energy. =(  I don't feel well. Besides, my throat and flu are killing me. Need to sleep.

I've got lots more going on but that's all I'm willing to share for now, until next time... =)

p/s : nunca te rindas! =D

It was my first time baking cookies. =)

This week, Wyekik turned 18.

 I mean, we celebrated his birthday.

 He made his wish.

 Blew all 18 candles.

 and posed for the camera. =D

 We got him a set of Nike basketball jersey.. =D

Hope you liked it.

 Look at Jeremy, copying wyekik's signature pose.

Well, this looks really emo.

 If you're sad and need someone to talk to, you can always talk to us.

We're good listeners.

I dunno why you're a little emo that day. Even a few days before your birthday you were sad. Until the point where mei yean and I thought we forgotten your birthday and we mixed up the dates and we panicked like we've just lost a child or something like that. After that we found out you weren't sad because we forgotten your birthday coz it wasn't your birthday yet but you were actually feeling really tired. gosh...

You can be annoying at times and tease me with all the guava juice, elmo and filipino jokes. But deep down, I know you don't mean to hurt my feelings as its all for fun and jokes. Oh! I would like to take this opportunity to thank you for fetching me home from college.! Thank youuuuuuuuuuuu! =DDD

Anyway, Happy 18th Birthday.

On Wednesday, all 3 class represeatatives and their assisntants were being called up and all 6 of us got a letter from the head of department.

"What letter is this???"

"Our paycheque??"

I've never received a letter from college before and I had no idea what is it for. So, I opened it and found out it was a WARNING letter.

It was a STERN warning letter. -.- I didn't even know that there was a meeting. In fact, even other class reps. had no idea that there was such meeting until we got this letter. Its as if I've done something really really bad like stealing or a gang fight. This letter is so wordy. @.@I understand, its a serious offence and I wouldn't do it if I knew there was a meeting.

Now, I have to write a written explantion of my absence and I had to see Madam Looi for this. I really didn't know anything about this meeting. sighs... *slaps forehead*

After class, Chester and I watched the guys playing basketball. 

I love my college coz theres so many gigantic trees. Oh! What's better is that my college is kinda empty now coz the diploma students are having their holidays. There are more slots to park your cars so that you dont have to purposely come so early to get a parking slot. We don't have to queue so long for our food and best of all we have lotsa empty seats in the canteen.

And these guys don't have to wait for their turn to play a game of basketball coz its so darn empty and no one is there to use the court.

 Got this shot coz I hardly see Chester being all emo and tired.

Get well soon buddy!

 Kevin still can pose for the camera. =D

***

 My calculator (left) has been bunny-fied.

I've never put stickers on my calculators or phone before.

Its apparently our class friendship stickers. XD

Look at our phones.

 Well, none of them are mine. Its my classmate's phones.

Apa ni, all sony ericsson's.. =/

 Even Cheryl's iTouch

***

I spent most of my time studying and trying to finish up my work. Its all good but theres a lot more to study especially chemistry.

On Friday,

I went out with Mei Yean on Friday to get some stuffs and then we watched a movie at Pavilion! =D

Tsunami at Haeundae.

A touching love story where the movie's tag line says it all.

"If you have 10 minutes to save the one you love, who will you save?"

Its a movie worth watching, really.

The movie effects were beyond my expectations.

After the movie, it was time to go home as I was exhausted. I met up with Afiq and Julian after the movie. =D both of them were wearing formal wear and I was the only one with the odd colour. Its like both of them are escorting me and so call my "body guards" =P (i'm just joking okay....). Both of them fetched me back home. Thank youuu! I was so tired that I slept in the car.

Saturday (yesterday)

Mei Yean came up with the idea of baking cookies out of random. On Fridays, both of us will have 4 hours of break in between classes. Do you know how  boring and tiring it is sitting down doing tutorials in that period of time.

There was once we were so darn bored, we drew on our hands and palms and it took me a few days to wash it off coz I didnt know my ohp pen's ink was permanent. gosh..

Anyway, as I was saying.. Mei yean came up with the idea for a reason also. Will tell you in the upcoming post. =D so I agreed and I went to her house at Alam Damai.

How to make cornflake cookies. I know its easy but its our first time baking cookies so, bare with us. =P

Step 1

Add butter and fine sugar into a big bowl. Mix it thoroughlly. I forgot the name of the appliance used but you know what I mean right?

Step 2

Weigh 200 grams of corn flour.(you know, its like doing Chemistry practical in the lab XD) Pour the corn flour into another bowl.

Step 3

Add in vanilla flavour and salt into the bowl of corn flour.

Step 4

Add in a cornflakes and crush them into tiny bits with your hands. Be sure to wash them before you do so.

Step 5

Mix it thoroughlly again.

and now you have two bowls with you.

Step 6

Add in the contents from the black bowl 2/3 tablespoons at a time into the glass bowl of batter.

Mix then with a spoon in an "8" shape.

trust me, you'll be tired after awhile.

Look! We have to take turns while doing this until it is evenly mixed.

The batter mixture was getting harder and we had to change the utensils.

Damn hard okay...

 Done.

Step 7

Now, You can use your hands and shape your cornflake mixture into these tiny paper cups.

Add some cherries if you want coz its optional.

Step 8

Camwhore with your cookies. =P

Step 9

Put your unbaked cookies into the oven at 200 degrees celcius for 25-30 minutes. be sure to keep an eye on your cookies or they'll end up being all burnt.

Step 10

Take the cookies out from the oven and let it cool down. =D

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa! =D

Aren't they just oh-so tempting? =P

Here's another tiring and yet exciting week of mine. Next week, I'll be sitting for my driving test for the second time. This time, I'll defnitely pass. *fingers crossed* =)

Denise had a bad and stressful week.

Looks like I only have time to blog on the weekends. I had a bad week. A few good things happend and the rest of it is just not so good.

I've been feeling emo all week especially in college and in the morning. The title says it all.

It will take me forever to complain about things. So, I don't think I should rant too much here.

I feel really tired everyday when I got home from college. By the time I get home, it will be in the evening and soon, its time to sleep.

I hate that my class ends at 4 almost everyday. Sometimes I'll reach home by 5pm. Sometimes, I stayed back for like an hour coz I don't wanna go home alone and I'll reach home by 6pm. Sometimes, I have to stay back for some replacement classes. But, There was one day, it took me 3 bloody hours just to get home. Long story. I was cursing all the way home thanks to the rain.

I've been having weird dreams. So weird that I keep waking up in the middle of the night wondering if its real and forget about it the next day. Sometimes, I even get confused about things as I can't differentiate whether it was from my dream or was it for real. wth.

I miss the feeling of when you just got back from school in the afternoon. Say, 1 - 2 p.m.? Yes, the sun is blazing hot at this hour and you're sweating like you've never sweat before in your lifetime. You throw your school bag on the floor. Take off your socks and wash you hands and feet. Lunch is on the table/ you bought some lunch back. You make a glass of cold drink for yourself. Sit in front of the television and enjoy your awesome lunch with a glass of cold drink with lotsa ice in it.

Heaven....... I'll never get the chance to do that anymore now. =( Unless I finish class early - which rarely happens. Sometimes in collage, I can't have a proper lunch coz theres too many people and no place to sit.

Elle and I got a flu vaccine injection yesterday. It was painless.

My left arm is aching right now. @.@ i can't sleep on my left side. wth.

I only felt happy on certain occasions.

Like when I met Billy, Dinie and Dwayne at Pelita Mamak.
Talking to teddy although I realised complain a lot lately. Thank you for listening.. =)
Happy that I wasn't disappointed by mere words coz I realised I did not took it seriously and I'm glad I did that.

gahhhhh.... I need to relax.....

Sleep Deprived

I'm still alive!!!! HAHA. @_@

I barely have time to update. I got lotsa things to blog abt, i think..

But first! I need my beauty sleep. I only have 4 hours of sleep everyday this week. College is from 8am-4pm. I'll have to leave at 7am and reach home from college at 5/6pm everyday. It depends.

I slept many times during lecture classes this week. Especially in the morning. I'm no they type of person who sleeps in class. I was dead beat that barely talked to anyone on the first two days days of college this week. I can barely open my eyes sometimes.

I need my minimum of 8 hours of sleep......

"I'm so tired that I could fall asleep here.... =)" *hugs*

will blog abt other stuffs tmr!

ps : I'm so tired that I almost forgot this Sunday is Father's Day. @.@

Another quick update.

I have sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many many things to update about that I don't know where to start. Here it goes,

I am already in college!! TAR College to be exact. It wasn't my first choice but I am so grateful that I am studying there. I love the environment, facilities and the people here. My college is... huge? Not as huge as any universities but huge for a college. One thing that I have to complain about is getting from one place to another. Its so freaking far away from each other that I think I can easily lose weight in a month if I we to do this everyday.

They have a gym, Olympic size swimming pool, basketball court, volleyball court, tennis court, badminton court, squash, table tennis, football, futsal, etc gawd, the list is never-ending. I like the chemistry lab.

I met lotsa lotsa people from everywhere. Made lotsa friends. At least 2-5 new people everyday. Met old friends too. I still have trouble remembering names.

I was elected as Assistant Class Representative. My job is practically almost the same as "Ketua Tingkatan" back in high school. Except that I don't have to carry the teachers books around or command everyone to stand up to greet the teacher good morning/afternoon. As the Assistant Class Rep. , I still can't remember all my classmates names YET. This position keeps me busy. i guess its a good thing?

I got a lot of work to do. A lot of stress. A lot of studying to do.my gawd.

Ok, lets push college aside.

I sprained my ankle on 2nd day of college and it still hurts once in a while now.

Went for paintball and C2AGe @ HELP College last week. =)

Something unexpected happened!!! I'm taken! =D

I was having a high fever on Tuesday. 40 degrees Celsius. I was walking around college/hot sun with my sweater/jacket and I was still feeling cold. In the lecture hall, I was shivering and my teethchattered like crazy. Thank god I'm okay now.

I had a nose bleed on Wednesday in the Lecture Hall. No worries, I am on the road of recovery. =)

I had fun in college today with the activities.

I had ice cream at McD today. =DDDDD *coughs* and also...

I am so sleepy and tired now.

I'm gonna glue myself onto my study table tomorrow and start doing my homework. Dang! I need to take out all my SPM stuffs.