Friday, 31 October 2008

Lights, Camera, Pictures!

I have no idea why I am blogging right now. I should be studying. SPM is starting in 9 more days. 9 FREAKING MORE DAYS!!!! Hmm.. As I was reading about the formation of sperm and ovum, also known as spermatogenesis and oogenesis. I got bored.. It is not in the list of my favourite topics in Biology because there is too many things to remember. My favorite chapter would be Inheritance, Variation, Structure Plasma Membrane, Nutrition, Chemical Composition of cells and Cell Division.

Lol... enough of that.. I just wanted to post some pictures that I took with my camera. I got bored reading. So, I took my camera and start playing with it. To my surprise, I discovered something that I never knew I could do with my camera. After all these year.... I manage to explore what is install in my camera.

So, here are some pictures. Its just some random stuffs in my room and also somewhere else. This is more of a picture post. I like the detail of the picture.

School Tie.


A pair of Earrings


Lotion, Radio/CD player and some
Turkish Delight coated with coconut beside it.



Note holder.




I need something to keep me awake.


The wall


Flute.
I have not been practising these days.



Notes and also known as "taugeh"






I've been trying to figure out why my flower is so disfigured these days.
Not enough water, maybe?


Bottle of stars.






I did too much of add maths until I get sick of it.





iPod Shuffle


A Tribal drawing by Lex.
Thanks, Lex!!



Stairway to Heaven?


Serenity.


Yours truly,

Denise.

Thursday, 30 October 2008

The Moment of Truth

Hey readers... I know some you are waiting for my next post. So, as A promised last week that I would reveal something really special. So... here it goes... Watch the video alright??


video

So, I wont be typing out the whole process but I'll just explain it briefly alright?

Okay.. Just so you know, I made that video last minute. I never plan to do it at all until I read my cbox where Kok Siang somehow gave me an idea to do something before I take off my braces. I took some pictures before taking my braces off and also a video. Oh yea. I took about 15 videos before choosing the perfect one. I do not have any scripts written out and I did it impromptu. I just say whatever that is on to of my head.

I think I was freaking out the day before and on the day itself. I could not sleep at night and I woke up early because I was so excited. I could not study at all in the morning.
LOL. How on earth can I study, you tell me???
scary
Anyway, the whole procedure of taking off the braces was quite scary. Especially when they use some sort of apparatus that looks like a pair of pliers to pull out the pieces of square metals that are stuck on my teeth. I was terrified when the plucked it out just like that. *plak!*
OMG!!!! I thought the orthodontics pulled my tooth out!!

The other thing that was scary was the scaling process. It hurts a little and the sound of it is irritating. lol. Whatever it is, I'm glad it is all over. =D

So, here are some pictures. =D


Before....



Waiting for my turn.....

Smile for the last time!

My mum reading magazine.
Can you spot Suri Cruise??

Its calling my name...
Denise.... Denise.....

Now... The moment of truth..

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This is how I look without braces.

Right side.

Left side.



That is all for now. =D
Good night!

Friday, 24 October 2008

Painful But True

My head hurts. ugh. But that is not the main reason why I am updating my blog once again. haha.

I am for one who listens to the radio every night after getting a brain block (my brain completely malfunction. lol) and before I dive into my own slumber land. Almost every night, David Archuleta's Crush has been playing on the radio. From Fly FM to Hitz-dot-FM, Traxx FM, Red FM, Mix FM etc.. However, I usually hear it from Fly FM and Traxx FM.

Honestly, I love David A's new single, Crush. It is a song everyone could relate to, including myself. =) Although this song has been on my top favourite songs for 2 months already, I still love it. I kept telling some people to listen to this song but they were too lazy until they heard it themselves recently and they love it. sweat. Ah well...

Remember.... I posted about Who will win American Idol? and I said, I do not mind whether Archuleta or Cook wins?
I change my mind. Now, I'm 100% sure that Archuleta deserves the title of American Idol more than Cook. Its just my opinion alright. Painful but true.
Cook also released his new single, but there was no impact on me. His new song was played on the radio a few times and I find it plain, boring and too loud for my ears. Better luck next time.

So, prior to Archuleta's new single, I found out another song titled "A little Too Not Over You". Its just a preview. Not the whole song. But, here's what I think :
omg. He did it again! I really love the lyrics.
What else could I say? I really love it.Therefore, I shall not drag any further on how much I love it. I love it.

So, here is a sneak preview on the song.


It never crossed my mind at all
It's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you sometimes

I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around,
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you - Ooh

Memories are supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off, let it ....

.... Not over you
Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back - Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go, I'll never understand
I'll never understand


***

You see... The lyrics from this song and Crush. Almost everyone and anyone could relate to it. Once again, including myself. This song briefly explains how I feel sometimes. Just sometimes. Painful but true. Feeling and memories don't just fade away in such a short time. It takes time for one to get over it and move on. It doesn't have to be forgotten or erased. In fact, it should not at all. Its just a chapter/phase in your life. People move on, the world goes on, and I've moved on. This is a wonderful relieve for me. I am myself again, with a new perspective of life. I may not be exactly the same as before in terms of physically, mentally, socially and emotionally but, the bottom line is, I am still me.

At the same time, I want to lead and live my own life without being held back by anything for now. =) My time will come. If it is meant to be, then it is meant to be.

Well, I hope you, readers know what I am trying to say here instead of being long winded and I will end up saying it something that makes no sense at all. Or maybe I am talking crap once again. haha.

Talk about crap, here is something that I find really amusing but true. On the record, I used to play MapleStory 2 years ago. I played until level 28 as a Warrior until I got sick of playing it. *Thank goodness I did not get married in maplestory*
I'd rather play the classic Mario game. I'll never get sick of Mario till' today although I have not been playing it for 6 years already. So, the moral of the story for this article is, DO NOT COMMIT YOURSELF AND GET MARRIED ONLINE. Getting divorce in the virtual world can also do real damage in the real world. Gosh. I wonder how could those "chibi", petite, innocent-looking and cute little avatars could kill. lol. Looks can be deceiving. haha.

Ok, my post is getting messy and its getting more messy soon. My apologies.

I'll be on a 5-day-holiday from tomorrow onwards. Well, not exactly a holiday for me but, I do not have school. This made me wonder.... Should I just make it a 1 week holiday? or should I just go to school on Thursday and Friday? Does it makes any difference?
I've been doing a hell lot of add maths trials paper from different states. Well, same goes to other subjects. I am really happy that all those papers halped me a lot. I could blissfully answer the questions. Today, I was doing another set of trials add maths SPM 2008 paper(probably my 5th set). Surprisingly, I could do all of it quite well. This made me wonder,

Is this paper too easy or am I getting brighter??



Tuesday, 21 October 2008

Denise is in Disturbia.

Attention :

For the past few weeks or maybe months, I not quite sure about this. A few of my friends saw me online but in actual fact, I am not online at all. This happens not once, not twice and definitely not the third time. I was informed countless of times but, I never bothered until yesterday.

Apparently, my account has been hacked. Nothing went missing and hopefully, it did not cause any misunderstandings or anything that happened. If you're wondering if I tick on the "sign in automatically" box, no, I never save my password on my own computer.

The most recent one was last night about 10.30p.m. I got a message from a friend asking if I was online. I was not online because I was already asleep. I was too exhausted to even reply him and the the rest who also messaged me.

So, from this moment, If you happen to see me online at odd hours, or I did not reply at all (except if I'm away or busy) or anything unusual, please do not hesitate to inform me. Thank you.

Yours truly,

Denise Tan.

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Ok, since I am already online I'll just do a quick update. Now, I owe TKS a cheeseburger for being the only one who got the answer to my previous question :

What food that transforms from a liquid state to a solid state when it is heated?

The answer is an egg.

Next week Tuesday would be a special day for me. Yes, very special. So, I don't want to spoil the surprise now, I will just take this opportunity to torture your mind. Muahahaha! I'm evil. I'm not hinting out any clues for you, readers. Well, or you don't have to think about it. All you have to do is just..... wait.

Or, you can just guess...

Why is next week Tuesday (28th of October 2008) is such a special day for Denise?

You can send in your answers on the COMMENT BOX ON THIS POST/MSN/E-MAIL.
I'll screen through the answers and therefore, no one will know what is the answer.
The real answer will be released on next week Wednesday (29th of October 2008)
WARNING : if you ever leave your answers on my cbox, you'll be disqualified.

If you're wondering if theres a prize, Yes... I do have a something special to give out since its a special day for me... =)

That's all for now. I have nothing else to blog about unless you, readers wanna know how frustrating, stressful, sad and tired I am.

Sometime, I don't even know what the hell am I doing.

Here is a a few lines that could sum up what am I feeling.

No more gas, in the rig
(Can't even get started)
Nothing heard, nothing said
(Can't even speak about it)
All my life on my head
(Don't wanna think about it)
Feels like I'm going insane, yeah

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort

Put on your brake lights
You're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna' play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Your minds in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scarin' you tonight
Your minds in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia


The ones in green is how I feel.

"DENISE!!!!! You better get you butt back here and read me and not wasting your time on the computer!!!"

*signs off and rushes to her room to study*

Saturday, 18 October 2008

What is gotong-royong in English??

See how fast 1 week is? You see how time flies?? This also mean I have 3 more weeks. Wait, I can't just SEE how time flies. ugh. forget that. I can't believe it. My high school years are almost over. I may not know how I feel now because the only feeling I have now has made me forget certain things and absorb more things which I will need to use them to determine my tomorrow.

So, Kok Siang has been carrying his camera along with him this week. Taking pictures and videos of our class. haha. You know how much I love the camera right?? *evil laughs* I was nicknamed as "the poser". I could detect a camera from far away with the receptors on my face. When that happens, my brain will be on auto-mode, that is getting ready for the camera. I can't help it okay!! Its like a reflex action/involuntary action. I don't know whether or not if I am a camwhore, who cares! I like taking pictures, whether I look ugly or weird in it. Its a lifetime memory.

I think I should bring my camera too. However, I would face another problem like what Kok Siang and Jian is facing right now. ugh.

After reading Kok Siang's post, it makes it so much harder to leave school. ....
As I was watching the video, I was like "omg. i hope he didn't put it in"
After watching the whole thing, I was so relieved. hehehe.
But, its ok la... I wont be angry or anything. Instead, I will be laughing my heart out.

I was just wondering. Who else is going for the Kasturi Tuition Centre SPM Seminar?? Cause, I'll be going on the weekends. XD. Who knows, I might bump into anyone I know.

Oh yeah, I met a long lost friend. How long if you might want to know? Okay. It was 10 years ago. I did not find her. She found me instead. She was one of the people I remember really well when I was studying in Cheras in Standard 1. We were in the same school but different class. (Back then, there are 13 standard 1 classes. I could not recall which class I was) We hung out together during recess and after school either of us will go to each other's houses and finish up our homework and talk all day. We were always talking. Although, I was not a social butterfly back then, I was a chatterbox around her. Talked in the car, recess, moral studies class, phone or anywhere. We were called the Double D's since our initials starts with a D.
All the memories with her are now starting to pour like hot soup. Warm. Refreshing. and wow. However, I could not remember saying Goodbye to her. I could not remember whether I told her that I moved to Ampang. I could not remember the last day I spent with her. Don't get me wrong alright? She was one of my good friends I had. We always get picked and teased in school for being weird. (I don't know what so weird about me/us back then)
I was quite surprised when she messaged me. I tried calling her when I moved to Ampang, but after some time, we drifted apart. I was truly overjoyed when I read her message and the fact that she still remembers me.
Well, I guess it was never a goodbye after all. =)
We grew up and became different people.

Wai min, I'm lazy to do the tag right now. I'll just do it another time, alright? =)
I can't think about answering any questions besides questions that are study-related.

*phone call*

"hello?"
"Denise, what is "gotong-royong" in English??"
"*blur, thinking* uhhhh....."
"I need it now! I don't have a dictionary"
" I can't think right now!!!"
" okok, why don't you call me back later and check it out for me okay? It's important!!"

What was I supposed to do??? LOL. I was so engross studying world history and writing an essay. All of the sudden, you called me and ask me what is gotong-royong in English??? LOL. crap. I might need this in my English essay and now, I already forgot what is gotong-royong in English. ps: I wonder what so important about the needing the word gotong-royong in English for.. ah, I wasn't bothered to ask any further.

That is all for now. Stay tuned till' next week(or maybe not) for more live and unexciting life of the goddess of wine(whine). haha.

Good night!

ps : I got no pictures now. My computer is squeaky clean now. NO pictures at all. I better start filling it up. well, soon.... (I wonder how soon is soon)

Sunday, 12 October 2008

Life is so funny.

Hello earthlings. It has been ages, I know. I was busy and I am still busy. Yes, Kok Siang was right about my computer. BUT, not about me, "downloading naughty things"- Its an internal joke. I'm a good girl with evil intentions! muahahaha..... Just kidding. Its not really a bad thing that my computer was spoiled. It actually helps a lot. =D Just that, now that I don't use it and I don't watch television. Instead, I channel my communication through sms's, phone calls and the radio.

What was I doing the whole week?
Go to school, tuition, eat, sleep, bathe, study and study. That's about it. Nothing else. No television and no computer. Basically, this process repeats itself everyday. Its driving me nuts! Good for me.. I am already crazy. Go ask...

Anyway, I was walking to one of my friends one night. I don't know who started it but I think it was me because I was all emo and talking like a mad woman all of the sudden. None of us are sad but we were just talking and exchanging thought about being a guy and being a girl. Life is so funny. hehe. In fact, I found out something about guys. Its not shocking or anything. Just something that I never knew. Well, our conversation was left hanging since I was already asleep. It was 2am already.

I got my trials exam results and I am slightly disappointed with it. Some are excellent! but, the others are just... bad. One thing is for sure, I did not fail any of the subjects that I took. I got an A1 for Bahasa Melayu, English, Mathematics, and Moral. An A2 for EST and Biology. The others are lower than an A2. hehehe.

I had a haircut on Wednesday. I feel so much better now as my head is lighter than before. It's like a start of something new. I like it.

This week, I was being asked 3 questions. Not just ordinary questions.

First Question : What food that transforms from a liquid state to a solid state when it is heated?

This question was posted by my tuition Chemistry teacher. To my surprise, I could not answer it. Actually, the whole class could not answer it. haha. The answer made me feel so dumb. Anyway. Try answering this question and leave the answer on this post and not on my cbox.

Second Question : What century are we in now???

*slaps forehead* Well, a friend of mine asked me this question. I was surprised that he doesn't know what century are we in now. haha! We're in the 21st century!!!! LOL. I can't stop laughing!

Third Question : Sakai, What are you?? Mangsa Tsunami ar?? Like never eat for 10 days like that! If you're hungry at the correct times, its ok. But you are hungry all the time.. omg. What is wrong with you??

Okay, that was extracted from one of my sms's. hahaha. I've been constantly eating like there is no tomorrow. I can't help it okay. I just need to munch on something. haha. Wanna know what I replied?
"I can't help it. Maybe its my hormones or I'm pregnant. Hmmm... That explain my tummy."
I was joking alright. XD

A week ago, a few of my friends and I crashed at my place. We ate, laughed, joked and talked about random things. We did some crazy things as usual. Some of it made me laugh so hard that I could die. haha. Good times. I have the urge to blog about it but, I'll just pass.

Someone owes me a video and pictures (you people know who you are). I got a video and more pictures upload, but I'm lazy. So, I'll just post some pictures.

Vi, Kok and I at the carpark downstairs my house.
We look like sakai's(according to the dark dude in this picture)


Don't you just love tha rain??


These 2 clowns/sakai's- (that is what they call themselves) went camping and they did not sleep well at all.


Another clown. I did not have enough sleep.

Oh yeah....
Thank you so much for the beautiful rose!! =D
I love it so much!!!
Don't mind the backgrouns and the stuffs around it.
There's a story behind it. XD


Friday, 3 October 2008

Tagged by Wai Min

Name: Denise Tan
Sisters: 1
Brothers: None
Shoe Size: It varies. Sometimes 5/6/7
Height: 165cm. I;m 1 cm taller now. hehe.
Where do you live: Ampang.
Favourite drinks: Teh tarik, cold water
Favourite breakfast: Roti canai, toast bread or anything that is in the bread category.
Have you ever been on a plane?: yesss.

Swam in the ocean: yesss... and I'm slightly afraid that a fish might pull me and I'll drown to death. 
Fallen asleep at school: Definitely. =D
Broken someone's heart: Yes.
Fell off your chair: *embarrassed* yes...
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yes and I'm never doing that ever again.

What is your room like: Cooling, a bit messy, I have too many books. well, you'll know if you've been to my room before.
What's right beside you: my necklace.
What is the last thing you ate: Rendang. yummy.
Ever had chicken pox: Yes, when I was 7.
Sore throat: who doesn't? I just recovered from it 2 weeks ago.
Stitches: never. Although I'm not afraid of needles but... omg. never.
Broken nose: no.
Do you believe in love at first sight: Yes. =D
Like picnics?: Anything for food!
Who was the last person you danced with: My dance instructor.
Last person made you smile: Honestly, I can't remember.
You last yelled at: I can't remember. I hardly ever yell at anyone.
Today did you kissed anyone:Nope.
Get sick: Yes. but I'm feeling so much better now.

Miss someone: I don't know... maybe?
Eat: =.=" whats the point of asking me what is the last thing i ate?
Best feeling in the world: ahhh.... This one. Well, I'm sure you know the answer.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yes. The child in me will never die away.
What's under your bed: Dust? Well, nothing actually
Who do you really hate: Smokers, dishonesty, and.. I'll just keep the others to myself.
What is the time now? : 8.14pm

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
  • In school
  • Drawing on the wall.
  • I went to Pasar Malam every Thursday
  • Watching the news on Princess Diana's accident.
  • Played tricks on my previous maid (I did not really like her. So yeah, I was a naughty girl)
5 things on my to-do list today:
5 snacks I enjoy:
  • Pringles
  • Zip CADBURY
  • Cheezels.
  • Kinder Bueno
  • Kit Kat
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
  • Buy a mansion with 3 maids for my parents
  • fund my education fees
  • Conserve the evironment and animals against extinction
  • Auction my clothes and they money will be donated to help cencer patients (who knows, my clothes would worth something)
  • Support myself.
5 of my bad habits:
  • Talk too much.
  • I don't clean my study table until it looks like a jungle with mountains.
  • Messing up my own room.
  • Waste electricity. (When I'm at home, I keep my room ceiling fan on all day)
  • hmm... i dont know what else...
5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:

  • Ampang
  • Subang Jaya
  • Batu Pahat, Johor
  • Sitiawan, Perak
  • MSN Stadium

5 things I will do after complete what I'm busy with:
  • Sleep.
  • Read my novels/magazines
  • Watch tv.
  • Online
  • Do this tag.
I tag:
  • Kok Siang
  • May Lyn
  • Ji Mi
  • i malas to tag already. go tag yourself ok? =)

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I don't understand something.  First, I was being "questioned" (figuratively and literally) about the "choices" ( theres a list) I've made. I wanted to say I have my own reasons. However, I don't think I should put it that way. In actual fact, I have the rights to remain silent(haha) and I don't have to answer your "question". Second, you don't have to spoil my friendship with people. Its immature. Third, get the hell out of my social life and let me live my own life. To "XYZ"(whoever you are), What the f*** have I ever did to you?! I apologise for my language but you've just popped my bubble. I value certain things in my life. Yeah, talk about "people deserve a second chance?"  let's imagine this senario "ohh.... I did this mistake once and I deserve a second chance". Not everyone/everything deserves a second chance. I totally understand people do mistakes. But WHEN the "second chance" is abused? what will you do? My principle of forgiveness is simple, Forgive, put the past behind you but always remember them. As George Santayana once said "Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it".(The Life of Reason, Volume 1:1905). You can find this on your Form 4 and Form 5 History text books at the beginning of every chapter. It is located at the bottom of the page. 
Well, I have nothing against "XYZ" now or in the future. Unless I'm being provoked (To incite to anger or resentment). Its not worth it at all. To be honest, I don't feel happy doing it. I might enjoy watching you angry but what's the use? I have better things to do. So, just move on with your life and let me lead my own life.

Thursday, 2 October 2008

I'm Afraid

I don't know whether is there something wrong with me or is it just the weather? I'm officially having fever. AGAIN. This is the 3rd time of the year! What is wrong with me? gosh. I had sore throat twice this year. I just recovered from one of them 2 weeks ago and now I'm not feeling well again. This time, I almost have flu. I was supposed to go to one of my teacher's house for raya but, I could not make it because I feel like crap and I don't feel like going out.

Maybe its the weather. One day its hot and the next day is cold. Its driving me crazy. I can't tahan with the sudden change of the weather. Well, its global warming.  Hmm... I was watching Ellen Degeneres Talk Show today and I'm starting to love it. I do watch it almost everyday if I happen to come across that programme on channel 711. So yeah, today she was talking about animal extinction. For instance, Over 120 species of frogs are already extinct for the past 10 years. About 200 more species of frogs will extinct in 20 years in the future. Well, if my memory servers me right, that's what I remembered. Its really shocking to not know about this before.

I'm having mixed emotions now. Sometimes I'm happy. Sometimes I'm emo. Sometimes I'm just not interested. Sometimes I'm emotionless. Sometimes I'm just plain blur. what the... ok.. Sometimes, I'm odd. Don't worry.. I'm not crazy.Although there's a high chance for me to go cuckoo in a few more days or in a week.

I have extra class in school tomorrow. I'm so dead. Don't worry, I wont die. I'll survive. I'm really afraid to go to school tomorrow. SERIOUSLY! I'M NOT JOKING! I'm really afraid. I will have to face the music. I have the choice of not attending the extra class tomorrow. However, if I decided not to go, I'll be dead one way or another. I'll will be interrogated with a "bonus". So, if I attend, I'll be dead. If I don't attend, I'll be dead. So how? Well, If I don't attend, I will be slaughtered and dead. So, I better attend. Oh dear..... I'M REALLY AFRAID!!! help me..... I just hope I wont cry tomorrow. Well, after all I do deserve it. I mean... WE deserve it.

Okay, here's one more thing I want to talk about and I'm really serious about this. SPM is in 4 more weeks. I am doubting myself whether I am able to survive this challenge. I'm afraid of this more than anything else now. I don't know how to describe this feeling that is disturbing inside of me. I may not be the smartest person class or anywhere else, but I do have the determination to strive hard for what I want in life. I'm just really worried and nervous. I can't accept the fact that I'm sitting for SPM. I can't accept the fact that its my last year of my high school years. I can't accept the fact that I have only 4 more weeks to study with all my friends, go to tuition classes together, joke around with each other in class, complain together and enjoy each other's company. As much as I want to leave high school, I don't want to leave it yet. So many things happened and I'm not sure if I'm ready to set it free. I'm not sure if I'm ready for all these changes. ah.... Change. Its part and parcel of growing up. Everything has to change. There's so much to say. Well, sorry for being such an oxymoron. 

I feel like an oxymoron now. I don't know why. 

ps : I'm really afraid to go to school tomorrow. 

Wednesday, 1 October 2008

Denise on a Tuesday.

Today was just another ordinary day. *phone rings* half awake. *phone kept ringing* I slammed my head back on my pillow. 5 minutes later... *phone rings* Me, being really pissed, I offed my phone. Damn annoying wei. I dunno who called. I kept pressing cancel, cancel, cancel. So, it didn't appear on my miss call list. What a way to start my day.

I was supposed to wake up at 8 for jogging. It failed. miserably. again. =.=" So, I slept until 12pm. Ate my breakfast or you can call it lunch or brunch. After I filled up my tummy, I cleaned my room and start reading Tuesday's with Morrie. I finished it! =D Another great masterpiece from Albom. Then, I start reading Da Vinci but I stopped at chapter 6. I couldn't digest anymore. Too much information that requires CTS(Critical Thinking Skills). Instead, I took a bath. I am very reluctant to use a hair dryer to dry my hair. Maybe its because I'm lazy to do it. 

After my bath, I tried to study. 1 hour later.... *listens to the radio* 
I was talking to myself. omg... what a boring day. I can't tahan sitting down in my room all day. So, I called my mum and told her I'm going to Ampang Point to entertain myself and get myself another novel to read. I spent about 2 hours at popular bookshop reading. I bought a pair of shoes from Bata. (why is this happening to me? When I'm shopping, I can't find anything. But, when I do not plan to shop, all the things I want kept appearing like mushrooms) ugh.

1 message. 
hey, wanna go out for a movie? 

A-ha! There..... something interesting. So, I tagged along to Galaxy and watched Eagle Eye. Damn. Its really good but very cliche. If you've watched I-robot or Stealth, this movie is no stranger. The storyline is about the same but a little different. I rate it 8/10. If you love cars, planes, lorries, trucks crashing each other. If you love technology. If you love explosions. If you love weapons and action. Watch it. =D 

I met Lynna, Lilian and their parents at Galaxy. When I saw them and when they saw us, they ran away. lol

Well, to sum it up, my day wasn't as bad as I expected. Tomorrow is a public holiday. So, I would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all Malaysians. =D Have a safe journey home, drink coffee, eat lots of ketupat, rendang, kuih raya and collect your duit raya

My school is closed for 1 week. What am I supposed to do at home? lol. Study? duhhh.... Relax? Definitely. 

Oh yeah. While I was bored, I was trying to make a ribbon like this.


But.... It turned out like this.



Looks ok huh??



I'm almost done.


Ok. I'm stuck. I can't do anymore. Its too hard.



LOL. It did not work. Its looks like a DURIAN NOW!
a purple durian.

Well, at least I gave it a try although it did not turn out perfectly. I know what I did there was wrong. Wrong technique. Someone teach me how to do this, please. =)

Before I say Goodnight, I'll leave you with another picture.

I love my bracelet. It sparkles!


Denise.

Lights, Camera, Pictures!

I have no idea why I am blogging right now. I should be studying. SPM is starting in 9 more days. 9 FREAKING MORE DAYS!!!! Hmm.. As I was reading about the formation of sperm and ovum, also known as spermatogenesis and oogenesis. I got bored.. It is not in the list of my favourite topics in Biology because there is too many things to remember. My favorite chapter would be Inheritance, Variation, Structure Plasma Membrane, Nutrition, Chemical Composition of cells and Cell Division.

Lol... enough of that.. I just wanted to post some pictures that I took with my camera. I got bored reading. So, I took my camera and start playing with it. To my surprise, I discovered something that I never knew I could do with my camera. After all these year.... I manage to explore what is install in my camera.

So, here are some pictures. Its just some random stuffs in my room and also somewhere else. This is more of a picture post. I like the detail of the picture.

School Tie.


A pair of Earrings


Lotion, Radio/CD player and some
Turkish Delight coated with coconut beside it.



Note holder.




I need something to keep me awake.


The wall


Flute.
I have not been practising these days.



Notes and also known as "taugeh"






I've been trying to figure out why my flower is so disfigured these days.
Not enough water, maybe?


Bottle of stars.






I did too much of add maths until I get sick of it.





iPod Shuffle


A Tribal drawing by Lex.
Thanks, Lex!!



Stairway to Heaven?


Serenity.


Yours truly,

Denise.

The Moment of Truth

Hey readers... I know some you are waiting for my next post. So, as A promised last week that I would reveal something really special. So... here it goes... Watch the video alright??


video

So, I wont be typing out the whole process but I'll just explain it briefly alright?

Okay.. Just so you know, I made that video last minute. I never plan to do it at all until I read my cbox where Kok Siang somehow gave me an idea to do something before I take off my braces. I took some pictures before taking my braces off and also a video. Oh yea. I took about 15 videos before choosing the perfect one. I do not have any scripts written out and I did it impromptu. I just say whatever that is on to of my head.

I think I was freaking out the day before and on the day itself. I could not sleep at night and I woke up early because I was so excited. I could not study at all in the morning.
LOL. How on earth can I study, you tell me???
scary
Anyway, the whole procedure of taking off the braces was quite scary. Especially when they use some sort of apparatus that looks like a pair of pliers to pull out the pieces of square metals that are stuck on my teeth. I was terrified when the plucked it out just like that. *plak!*
OMG!!!! I thought the orthodontics pulled my tooth out!!

The other thing that was scary was the scaling process. It hurts a little and the sound of it is irritating. lol. Whatever it is, I'm glad it is all over. =D

So, here are some pictures. =D


Before....



Waiting for my turn.....

Smile for the last time!

My mum reading magazine.
Can you spot Suri Cruise??

Its calling my name...
Denise.... Denise.....

Now... The moment of truth..

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This is how I look without braces.

Right side.

Left side.



That is all for now. =D
Good night!

Painful But True

My head hurts. ugh. But that is not the main reason why I am updating my blog once again. haha.

I am for one who listens to the radio every night after getting a brain block (my brain completely malfunction. lol) and before I dive into my own slumber land. Almost every night, David Archuleta's Crush has been playing on the radio. From Fly FM to Hitz-dot-FM, Traxx FM, Red FM, Mix FM etc.. However, I usually hear it from Fly FM and Traxx FM.

Honestly, I love David A's new single, Crush. It is a song everyone could relate to, including myself. =) Although this song has been on my top favourite songs for 2 months already, I still love it. I kept telling some people to listen to this song but they were too lazy until they heard it themselves recently and they love it. sweat. Ah well...

Remember.... I posted about Who will win American Idol? and I said, I do not mind whether Archuleta or Cook wins?
I change my mind. Now, I'm 100% sure that Archuleta deserves the title of American Idol more than Cook. Its just my opinion alright. Painful but true.
Cook also released his new single, but there was no impact on me. His new song was played on the radio a few times and I find it plain, boring and too loud for my ears. Better luck next time.

So, prior to Archuleta's new single, I found out another song titled "A little Too Not Over You". Its just a preview. Not the whole song. But, here's what I think :
omg. He did it again! I really love the lyrics.
What else could I say? I really love it.Therefore, I shall not drag any further on how much I love it. I love it.

So, here is a sneak preview on the song.


It never crossed my mind at all
It's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you sometimes

I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around,
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you - Ooh

Memories are supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off, let it ....

.... Not over you
Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back - Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go, I'll never understand
I'll never understand


***

You see... The lyrics from this song and Crush. Almost everyone and anyone could relate to it. Once again, including myself. This song briefly explains how I feel sometimes. Just sometimes. Painful but true. Feeling and memories don't just fade away in such a short time. It takes time for one to get over it and move on. It doesn't have to be forgotten or erased. In fact, it should not at all. Its just a chapter/phase in your life. People move on, the world goes on, and I've moved on. This is a wonderful relieve for me. I am myself again, with a new perspective of life. I may not be exactly the same as before in terms of physically, mentally, socially and emotionally but, the bottom line is, I am still me.

At the same time, I want to lead and live my own life without being held back by anything for now. =) My time will come. If it is meant to be, then it is meant to be.

Well, I hope you, readers know what I am trying to say here instead of being long winded and I will end up saying it something that makes no sense at all. Or maybe I am talking crap once again. haha.

Talk about crap, here is something that I find really amusing but true. On the record, I used to play MapleStory 2 years ago. I played until level 28 as a Warrior until I got sick of playing it. *Thank goodness I did not get married in maplestory*
I'd rather play the classic Mario game. I'll never get sick of Mario till' today although I have not been playing it for 6 years already. So, the moral of the story for this article is, DO NOT COMMIT YOURSELF AND GET MARRIED ONLINE. Getting divorce in the virtual world can also do real damage in the real world. Gosh. I wonder how could those "chibi", petite, innocent-looking and cute little avatars could kill. lol. Looks can be deceiving. haha.

Ok, my post is getting messy and its getting more messy soon. My apologies.

I'll be on a 5-day-holiday from tomorrow onwards. Well, not exactly a holiday for me but, I do not have school. This made me wonder.... Should I just make it a 1 week holiday? or should I just go to school on Thursday and Friday? Does it makes any difference?
I've been doing a hell lot of add maths trials paper from different states. Well, same goes to other subjects. I am really happy that all those papers halped me a lot. I could blissfully answer the questions. Today, I was doing another set of trials add maths SPM 2008 paper(probably my 5th set). Surprisingly, I could do all of it quite well. This made me wonder,

Is this paper too easy or am I getting brighter??



Denise is in Disturbia.

Attention :

For the past few weeks or maybe months, I not quite sure about this. A few of my friends saw me online but in actual fact, I am not online at all. This happens not once, not twice and definitely not the third time. I was informed countless of times but, I never bothered until yesterday.

Apparently, my account has been hacked. Nothing went missing and hopefully, it did not cause any misunderstandings or anything that happened. If you're wondering if I tick on the "sign in automatically" box, no, I never save my password on my own computer.

The most recent one was last night about 10.30p.m. I got a message from a friend asking if I was online. I was not online because I was already asleep. I was too exhausted to even reply him and the the rest who also messaged me.

So, from this moment, If you happen to see me online at odd hours, or I did not reply at all (except if I'm away or busy) or anything unusual, please do not hesitate to inform me. Thank you.

Yours truly,

Denise Tan.

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Ok, since I am already online I'll just do a quick update. Now, I owe TKS a cheeseburger for being the only one who got the answer to my previous question :

What food that transforms from a liquid state to a solid state when it is heated?

The answer is an egg.

Next week Tuesday would be a special day for me. Yes, very special. So, I don't want to spoil the surprise now, I will just take this opportunity to torture your mind. Muahahaha! I'm evil. I'm not hinting out any clues for you, readers. Well, or you don't have to think about it. All you have to do is just..... wait.

Or, you can just guess...

Why is next week Tuesday (28th of October 2008) is such a special day for Denise?

You can send in your answers on the COMMENT BOX ON THIS POST/MSN/E-MAIL.
I'll screen through the answers and therefore, no one will know what is the answer.
The real answer will be released on next week Wednesday (29th of October 2008)
WARNING : if you ever leave your answers on my cbox, you'll be disqualified.

If you're wondering if theres a prize, Yes... I do have a something special to give out since its a special day for me... =)

That's all for now. I have nothing else to blog about unless you, readers wanna know how frustrating, stressful, sad and tired I am.

Sometime, I don't even know what the hell am I doing.

Here is a a few lines that could sum up what am I feeling.

No more gas, in the rig
(Can't even get started)
Nothing heard, nothing said
(Can't even speak about it)
All my life on my head
(Don't wanna think about it)
Feels like I'm going insane, yeah

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort

Put on your brake lights
You're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna' play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Your minds in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scarin' you tonight
Your minds in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia


The ones in green is how I feel.

"DENISE!!!!! You better get you butt back here and read me and not wasting your time on the computer!!!"

*signs off and rushes to her room to study*

What is gotong-royong in English??

See how fast 1 week is? You see how time flies?? This also mean I have 3 more weeks. Wait, I can't just SEE how time flies. ugh. forget that. I can't believe it. My high school years are almost over. I may not know how I feel now because the only feeling I have now has made me forget certain things and absorb more things which I will need to use them to determine my tomorrow.

So, Kok Siang has been carrying his camera along with him this week. Taking pictures and videos of our class. haha. You know how much I love the camera right?? *evil laughs* I was nicknamed as "the poser". I could detect a camera from far away with the receptors on my face. When that happens, my brain will be on auto-mode, that is getting ready for the camera. I can't help it okay!! Its like a reflex action/involuntary action. I don't know whether or not if I am a camwhore, who cares! I like taking pictures, whether I look ugly or weird in it. Its a lifetime memory.

I think I should bring my camera too. However, I would face another problem like what Kok Siang and Jian is facing right now. ugh.

After reading Kok Siang's post, it makes it so much harder to leave school. ....
As I was watching the video, I was like "omg. i hope he didn't put it in"
After watching the whole thing, I was so relieved. hehehe.
But, its ok la... I wont be angry or anything. Instead, I will be laughing my heart out.

I was just wondering. Who else is going for the Kasturi Tuition Centre SPM Seminar?? Cause, I'll be going on the weekends. XD. Who knows, I might bump into anyone I know.

Oh yeah, I met a long lost friend. How long if you might want to know? Okay. It was 10 years ago. I did not find her. She found me instead. She was one of the people I remember really well when I was studying in Cheras in Standard 1. We were in the same school but different class. (Back then, there are 13 standard 1 classes. I could not recall which class I was) We hung out together during recess and after school either of us will go to each other's houses and finish up our homework and talk all day. We were always talking. Although, I was not a social butterfly back then, I was a chatterbox around her. Talked in the car, recess, moral studies class, phone or anywhere. We were called the Double D's since our initials starts with a D.
All the memories with her are now starting to pour like hot soup. Warm. Refreshing. and wow. However, I could not remember saying Goodbye to her. I could not remember whether I told her that I moved to Ampang. I could not remember the last day I spent with her. Don't get me wrong alright? She was one of my good friends I had. We always get picked and teased in school for being weird. (I don't know what so weird about me/us back then)
I was quite surprised when she messaged me. I tried calling her when I moved to Ampang, but after some time, we drifted apart. I was truly overjoyed when I read her message and the fact that she still remembers me.
Well, I guess it was never a goodbye after all. =)
We grew up and became different people.

Wai min, I'm lazy to do the tag right now. I'll just do it another time, alright? =)
I can't think about answering any questions besides questions that are study-related.

*phone call*

"hello?"
"Denise, what is "gotong-royong" in English??"
"*blur, thinking* uhhhh....."
"I need it now! I don't have a dictionary"
" I can't think right now!!!"
" okok, why don't you call me back later and check it out for me okay? It's important!!"

What was I supposed to do??? LOL. I was so engross studying world history and writing an essay. All of the sudden, you called me and ask me what is gotong-royong in English??? LOL. crap. I might need this in my English essay and now, I already forgot what is gotong-royong in English. ps: I wonder what so important about the needing the word gotong-royong in English for.. ah, I wasn't bothered to ask any further.

That is all for now. Stay tuned till' next week(or maybe not) for more live and unexciting life of the goddess of wine(whine). haha.

Good night!

ps : I got no pictures now. My computer is squeaky clean now. NO pictures at all. I better start filling it up. well, soon.... (I wonder how soon is soon)

Life is so funny.

Hello earthlings. It has been ages, I know. I was busy and I am still busy. Yes, Kok Siang was right about my computer. BUT, not about me, "downloading naughty things"- Its an internal joke. I'm a good girl with evil intentions! muahahaha..... Just kidding. Its not really a bad thing that my computer was spoiled. It actually helps a lot. =D Just that, now that I don't use it and I don't watch television. Instead, I channel my communication through sms's, phone calls and the radio.

What was I doing the whole week?
Go to school, tuition, eat, sleep, bathe, study and study. That's about it. Nothing else. No television and no computer. Basically, this process repeats itself everyday. Its driving me nuts! Good for me.. I am already crazy. Go ask...

Anyway, I was walking to one of my friends one night. I don't know who started it but I think it was me because I was all emo and talking like a mad woman all of the sudden. None of us are sad but we were just talking and exchanging thought about being a guy and being a girl. Life is so funny. hehe. In fact, I found out something about guys. Its not shocking or anything. Just something that I never knew. Well, our conversation was left hanging since I was already asleep. It was 2am already.

I got my trials exam results and I am slightly disappointed with it. Some are excellent! but, the others are just... bad. One thing is for sure, I did not fail any of the subjects that I took. I got an A1 for Bahasa Melayu, English, Mathematics, and Moral. An A2 for EST and Biology. The others are lower than an A2. hehehe.

I had a haircut on Wednesday. I feel so much better now as my head is lighter than before. It's like a start of something new. I like it.

This week, I was being asked 3 questions. Not just ordinary questions.

First Question : What food that transforms from a liquid state to a solid state when it is heated?

This question was posted by my tuition Chemistry teacher. To my surprise, I could not answer it. Actually, the whole class could not answer it. haha. The answer made me feel so dumb. Anyway. Try answering this question and leave the answer on this post and not on my cbox.

Second Question : What century are we in now???

*slaps forehead* Well, a friend of mine asked me this question. I was surprised that he doesn't know what century are we in now. haha! We're in the 21st century!!!! LOL. I can't stop laughing!

Third Question : Sakai, What are you?? Mangsa Tsunami ar?? Like never eat for 10 days like that! If you're hungry at the correct times, its ok. But you are hungry all the time.. omg. What is wrong with you??

Okay, that was extracted from one of my sms's. hahaha. I've been constantly eating like there is no tomorrow. I can't help it okay. I just need to munch on something. haha. Wanna know what I replied?
"I can't help it. Maybe its my hormones or I'm pregnant. Hmmm... That explain my tummy."
I was joking alright. XD

A week ago, a few of my friends and I crashed at my place. We ate, laughed, joked and talked about random things. We did some crazy things as usual. Some of it made me laugh so hard that I could die. haha. Good times. I have the urge to blog about it but, I'll just pass.

Someone owes me a video and pictures (you people know who you are). I got a video and more pictures upload, but I'm lazy. So, I'll just post some pictures.

Vi, Kok and I at the carpark downstairs my house.
We look like sakai's(according to the dark dude in this picture)


Don't you just love tha rain??


These 2 clowns/sakai's- (that is what they call themselves) went camping and they did not sleep well at all.


Another clown. I did not have enough sleep.

Oh yeah....
Thank you so much for the beautiful rose!! =D
I love it so much!!!
Don't mind the backgrouns and the stuffs around it.
There's a story behind it. XD


Tagged by Wai Min

Name: Denise Tan
Sisters: 1
Brothers: None
Shoe Size: It varies. Sometimes 5/6/7
Height: 165cm. I;m 1 cm taller now. hehe.
Where do you live: Ampang.
Favourite drinks: Teh tarik, cold water
Favourite breakfast: Roti canai, toast bread or anything that is in the bread category.
Have you ever been on a plane?: yesss.

Swam in the ocean: yesss... and I'm slightly afraid that a fish might pull me and I'll drown to death. 
Fallen asleep at school: Definitely. =D
Broken someone's heart: Yes.
Fell off your chair: *embarrassed* yes...
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yes and I'm never doing that ever again.

What is your room like: Cooling, a bit messy, I have too many books. well, you'll know if you've been to my room before.
What's right beside you: my necklace.
What is the last thing you ate: Rendang. yummy.
Ever had chicken pox: Yes, when I was 7.
Sore throat: who doesn't? I just recovered from it 2 weeks ago.
Stitches: never. Although I'm not afraid of needles but... omg. never.
Broken nose: no.
Do you believe in love at first sight: Yes. =D
Like picnics?: Anything for food!
Who was the last person you danced with: My dance instructor.
Last person made you smile: Honestly, I can't remember.
You last yelled at: I can't remember. I hardly ever yell at anyone.
Today did you kissed anyone:Nope.
Get sick: Yes. but I'm feeling so much better now.

Miss someone: I don't know... maybe?
Eat: =.=" whats the point of asking me what is the last thing i ate?
Best feeling in the world: ahhh.... This one. Well, I'm sure you know the answer.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yes. The child in me will never die away.
What's under your bed: Dust? Well, nothing actually
Who do you really hate: Smokers, dishonesty, and.. I'll just keep the others to myself.
What is the time now? : 8.14pm

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
  • In school
  • Drawing on the wall.
  • I went to Pasar Malam every Thursday
  • Watching the news on Princess Diana's accident.
  • Played tricks on my previous maid (I did not really like her. So yeah, I was a naughty girl)
5 things on my to-do list today:
5 snacks I enjoy:
  • Pringles
  • Zip CADBURY
  • Cheezels.
  • Kinder Bueno
  • Kit Kat
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
  • Buy a mansion with 3 maids for my parents
  • fund my education fees
  • Conserve the evironment and animals against extinction
  • Auction my clothes and they money will be donated to help cencer patients (who knows, my clothes would worth something)
  • Support myself.
5 of my bad habits:
  • Talk too much.
  • I don't clean my study table until it looks like a jungle with mountains.
  • Messing up my own room.
  • Waste electricity. (When I'm at home, I keep my room ceiling fan on all day)
  • hmm... i dont know what else...
5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:

  • Ampang
  • Subang Jaya
  • Batu Pahat, Johor
  • Sitiawan, Perak
  • MSN Stadium

5 things I will do after complete what I'm busy with:
  • Sleep.
  • Read my novels/magazines
  • Watch tv.
  • Online
  • Do this tag.
I tag:
  • Kok Siang
  • May Lyn
  • Ji Mi
  • i malas to tag already. go tag yourself ok? =)

***

I don't understand something.  First, I was being "questioned" (figuratively and literally) about the "choices" ( theres a list) I've made. I wanted to say I have my own reasons. However, I don't think I should put it that way. In actual fact, I have the rights to remain silent(haha) and I don't have to answer your "question". Second, you don't have to spoil my friendship with people. Its immature. Third, get the hell out of my social life and let me live my own life. To "XYZ"(whoever you are), What the f*** have I ever did to you?! I apologise for my language but you've just popped my bubble. I value certain things in my life. Yeah, talk about "people deserve a second chance?"  let's imagine this senario "ohh.... I did this mistake once and I deserve a second chance". Not everyone/everything deserves a second chance. I totally understand people do mistakes. But WHEN the "second chance" is abused? what will you do? My principle of forgiveness is simple, Forgive, put the past behind you but always remember them. As George Santayana once said "Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it".(The Life of Reason, Volume 1:1905). You can find this on your Form 4 and Form 5 History text books at the beginning of every chapter. It is located at the bottom of the page. 
Well, I have nothing against "XYZ" now or in the future. Unless I'm being provoked (To incite to anger or resentment). Its not worth it at all. To be honest, I don't feel happy doing it. I might enjoy watching you angry but what's the use? I have better things to do. So, just move on with your life and let me lead my own life.

I'm Afraid

I don't know whether is there something wrong with me or is it just the weather? I'm officially having fever. AGAIN. This is the 3rd time of the year! What is wrong with me? gosh. I had sore throat twice this year. I just recovered from one of them 2 weeks ago and now I'm not feeling well again. This time, I almost have flu. I was supposed to go to one of my teacher's house for raya but, I could not make it because I feel like crap and I don't feel like going out.

Maybe its the weather. One day its hot and the next day is cold. Its driving me crazy. I can't tahan with the sudden change of the weather. Well, its global warming.  Hmm... I was watching Ellen Degeneres Talk Show today and I'm starting to love it. I do watch it almost everyday if I happen to come across that programme on channel 711. So yeah, today she was talking about animal extinction. For instance, Over 120 species of frogs are already extinct for the past 10 years. About 200 more species of frogs will extinct in 20 years in the future. Well, if my memory servers me right, that's what I remembered. Its really shocking to not know about this before.

I'm having mixed emotions now. Sometimes I'm happy. Sometimes I'm emo. Sometimes I'm just not interested. Sometimes I'm emotionless. Sometimes I'm just plain blur. what the... ok.. Sometimes, I'm odd. Don't worry.. I'm not crazy.Although there's a high chance for me to go cuckoo in a few more days or in a week.

I have extra class in school tomorrow. I'm so dead. Don't worry, I wont die. I'll survive. I'm really afraid to go to school tomorrow. SERIOUSLY! I'M NOT JOKING! I'm really afraid. I will have to face the music. I have the choice of not attending the extra class tomorrow. However, if I decided not to go, I'll be dead one way or another. I'll will be interrogated with a "bonus". So, if I attend, I'll be dead. If I don't attend, I'll be dead. So how? Well, If I don't attend, I will be slaughtered and dead. So, I better attend. Oh dear..... I'M REALLY AFRAID!!! help me..... I just hope I wont cry tomorrow. Well, after all I do deserve it. I mean... WE deserve it.

Okay, here's one more thing I want to talk about and I'm really serious about this. SPM is in 4 more weeks. I am doubting myself whether I am able to survive this challenge. I'm afraid of this more than anything else now. I don't know how to describe this feeling that is disturbing inside of me. I may not be the smartest person class or anywhere else, but I do have the determination to strive hard for what I want in life. I'm just really worried and nervous. I can't accept the fact that I'm sitting for SPM. I can't accept the fact that its my last year of my high school years. I can't accept the fact that I have only 4 more weeks to study with all my friends, go to tuition classes together, joke around with each other in class, complain together and enjoy each other's company. As much as I want to leave high school, I don't want to leave it yet. So many things happened and I'm not sure if I'm ready to set it free. I'm not sure if I'm ready for all these changes. ah.... Change. Its part and parcel of growing up. Everything has to change. There's so much to say. Well, sorry for being such an oxymoron. 

I feel like an oxymoron now. I don't know why. 

ps : I'm really afraid to go to school tomorrow. 

Denise on a Tuesday.

Today was just another ordinary day. *phone rings* half awake. *phone kept ringing* I slammed my head back on my pillow. 5 minutes later... *phone rings* Me, being really pissed, I offed my phone. Damn annoying wei. I dunno who called. I kept pressing cancel, cancel, cancel. So, it didn't appear on my miss call list. What a way to start my day.

I was supposed to wake up at 8 for jogging. It failed. miserably. again. =.=" So, I slept until 12pm. Ate my breakfast or you can call it lunch or brunch. After I filled up my tummy, I cleaned my room and start reading Tuesday's with Morrie. I finished it! =D Another great masterpiece from Albom. Then, I start reading Da Vinci but I stopped at chapter 6. I couldn't digest anymore. Too much information that requires CTS(Critical Thinking Skills). Instead, I took a bath. I am very reluctant to use a hair dryer to dry my hair. Maybe its because I'm lazy to do it. 

After my bath, I tried to study. 1 hour later.... *listens to the radio* 
I was talking to myself. omg... what a boring day. I can't tahan sitting down in my room all day. So, I called my mum and told her I'm going to Ampang Point to entertain myself and get myself another novel to read. I spent about 2 hours at popular bookshop reading. I bought a pair of shoes from Bata. (why is this happening to me? When I'm shopping, I can't find anything. But, when I do not plan to shop, all the things I want kept appearing like mushrooms) ugh.

1 message. 
hey, wanna go out for a movie? 

A-ha! There..... something interesting. So, I tagged along to Galaxy and watched Eagle Eye. Damn. Its really good but very cliche. If you've watched I-robot or Stealth, this movie is no stranger. The storyline is about the same but a little different. I rate it 8/10. If you love cars, planes, lorries, trucks crashing each other. If you love technology. If you love explosions. If you love weapons and action. Watch it. =D 

I met Lynna, Lilian and their parents at Galaxy. When I saw them and when they saw us, they ran away. lol

Well, to sum it up, my day wasn't as bad as I expected. Tomorrow is a public holiday. So, I would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all Malaysians. =D Have a safe journey home, drink coffee, eat lots of ketupat, rendang, kuih raya and collect your duit raya

My school is closed for 1 week. What am I supposed to do at home? lol. Study? duhhh.... Relax? Definitely. 

Oh yeah. While I was bored, I was trying to make a ribbon like this.


But.... It turned out like this.



Looks ok huh??



I'm almost done.


Ok. I'm stuck. I can't do anymore. Its too hard.



LOL. It did not work. Its looks like a DURIAN NOW!
a purple durian.

Well, at least I gave it a try although it did not turn out perfectly. I know what I did there was wrong. Wrong technique. Someone teach me how to do this, please. =)

Before I say Goodnight, I'll leave you with another picture.

I love my bracelet. It sparkles!


Denise.