Freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Part 2

I need a foot massage. Seriously. My legs hurts like having braces on for the first time. But, I'm very happy now. =D teeheehee.. Tomorrow will be another day.

You know what? So many people have been telling me about how excited and how awesome is the movie that almost everyone is CRAZY about. Haha. I bet you might be thinking about "Twilight"? Does is ring a bell? haha. To be honest, Im not as crazy as crazy to watch the movie although everyone is telling me to do so ASAP! No worries people, I'm excited to watch it! But, not crazy over it. Yet. Maybe. Unless the movie proves me otherwise. XD

Besides shopping for clothes only, I went to shop for novels. and No, I'm not sick of reading. Although some may say that I'm so sick of reading that I don't wan't to see anymore books again. I bought 3 novels. =) Thanks For The Memories and The Gift by Cecelia Ahern. Ah, I love her novels.. I hope both of them would have the same magical touch to it or maybe even better.
Another novel is "The Curious Incident of The Dog in The Night-time" by Mark Haddon. Just by reading the sneak peak at the back of the novel, it caught my attention. It is about a teenage boy who is gifted with a superbly logical brain and also autistic (commanly known as Autism) who found a neighbou'rs dog is killed and his carefully constructed universe is threatened. He sets out to solve the murder style of his favourite(logical) detective, Sherlock Holmes

I've been eyeing on that book for about a year but, i never bought it for unknown reason. There's no logical explanation whay I bought this book in the end. lough out loud.

ok, that's all for tonight. I'm currently on a movie marathon with popcorn on astro. Will be going to Palace of The Golden Horses for Lunch tmr! Can't wait! and then, maybe shopping at sg.wang..

Freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As you know, for most of us, ITS FREEDOM!!! Okay, Maybe I wasn't that excited when I finished my last paper at 3.15p.m. You know, all of us are so lucky to have such great invigilators!! I am serious!

Its time to burn my books. Not literally. I need to clean my room. There are books everywhere. This remind me of the day I finished my physics paper. I was holding my SUCCESS physics refernce book on one hand and my other hand was occupied with my stationeries, bottle, and papers. There was a puddle f water in front of me and my book was about to fall into the puddle. I was trying to grab hold of the book but it slipped from my fingers coz I was holding the edge of the book. However, I manage to save my book and 3 of my classmates told me

"Denise!, tak payah lah... Biar je!!"
"Physics dah habis, BAKAR JE BUKU TU!!"
*laughing*

Everyone started laughing. XD

I was too happy that I have no idea where to start tasting the freedom I have. After so many months, I was dreading for this day to come. So much so that I think my mum is sick of me telling her how many more days til SPM is over. haha. Ok, I went to Bukit Bintang yesterday with 2 jokers. I thought I could find something, but I didn't. So, we had dinner at my uncle's restaurant. I am one lucky girl to have the privilege to.. well... eat for..

Ok, I shall not elaborate on that. Let's just say The guys and I are well fed or maybe we ate too much =D Its my first time after 6 months sleeping more than 5 hours everyday. I slept for 13 hours and damn, I feel good!!!

Initially, I have plans for today. It did not work out as planned but still, I have plan for my own in a few hours. I woke up this morning watching a movie called "Blind Dating" and Heroes. Then, along came Jian. I did not expect that. I just woke up!!! LOL! Well, it was a pleasure seeing him again after so long. Ok, I gtg now. I'm heading to KLCC for shopping.

Tags!

This tag is by wai min a month ago.

At what age do you wish to get married?
19 =D. I don't know. 26/27? I don't know!!

What do you want the most now?
Being free.

Who are the people you trust the most?
My parents and myself.

Do you think you have enough confidence?
It depends.

If a dream could have come true for you, what would it be?
Straight A's for SPM.

Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after it rain?
Yes. It rains EVERYDAY!

What are you afraid to lose the most now?
I'm not saying a word.

Have you broken someones heart that he/she went to commit suicide?
I don't think so.

Do you believe in eternal love?
I don't know how to answer this.

Which feelings do you love the most?
Being loved and cared for.

What are the requirements from your other half?
I know what I want. So, there's no need to write a long list of it here. =)

What feelings do you hate the most?
Ignorance is a bliss. Yes? No? Maybe?

What describes you the best?
Blur? Well, not so much now.

Do you believe in GOD?
I believe in karma. Although life is unfair sometimes.

What do you think is the most important things in your life?
Being myself.

Who is the most important person in your life?
Hmmm... I wouldn't want you to kidnap them.. teehee...

Who do you hope to be always with you?
My parents and a few friends.

What kind of friends do you want?
I want? Well, I am particular about one thing, NEVER LIE!

Do you think love is stupid?
No!

Do you believe that it is better to have love than have nothing at all?
Yes

Choose 5 people to tag!
no one.

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This tag is by nick.

Starting time : 8.11pm
Name : Denise Tan
Sisters : 1
Brothers : None
Shoe size : 5/6/7 (I have a small feet)
Height : 5ft 4
Where do you live : Ampang.
Favorite drinks : All time favourite, cold water on a hot day.
Favorite breakfast : A cup of teh ais and... it depends.
Have you ever been on a plane : duhh!
Swam in the ocean : No. Phobia.
Fallen asleep in school : Yes.
Fell off your chair : Yup.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Not anymore.
Saved e-mails : Only if its worth saving.
What is your room like : cooling. =)
What's right beside you : My bracelet.
What is the last thing you ate : Home made oreo cheesecake. I like.

Ever had...
Chicken pox : yes.
Sore throat : duh, who doesn't.
Stitches : never.
Broken nose : nope
Do you believe in love at first sight : Probably or possibly.
Like picnics : I'm alright. As long there is food.
Who was the last person you danced with : My dance instructor and a few others.
Last made you smile : Uhhh.... I can't remember.
You last yelled at : I can't remember either.

Today did you...
Talk to someone you like : No...
Kiss anyone : No...
Get sick : Literally, no. Mentally and emotionally, yes.
Talked to an ex : No...
Miss someone : No...
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : Not anymore now.
What's under your bed : Books, books and more books, waiting to be burn!!!
Who do you really hate : I'm tired of hating anyone. Waste of time.
What time is it now : 8.22pm

Randoms :
Q : Is there a person who is on your mind right now : No, lol..this is so random.
Q : Do you have any siblings : yes
Q : Do you want children : Yes, but not now.
Q : Do you smile often : Not as much.
Q : Do you like your hand-writing : Its alright.
Q : Are your toenails painted : Soon..
Q : Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : no one..
Q : What colour shirt are you wearing : white
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday : I was about to break down, crying. I was conflicted, exhausted, worn out and tired. But then again, I somehow manage to force myself to it swallow physics alive!.
Q: I can't wait to : go shopping!
Q: When did you cry last : not that i can remember. But, its a reaaaaally long time ago.
Q: Are you a friendly person: I think so.
Q: Do you have any pets : Used to, but not anymore. Having pets is like having babies. Its a heavy responsibility.
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now : ??? I have no answer to this question.
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? : Yes, but not as much anymore.
Q: Do you sleep with the TV on? : Yes.
Q: What are you doing right now? :
Q: Have you ever crawled through a window? : Yes, and I fell. I wouldn't wanna do it again.
Q: Can you handle the truth? : Sometimes, no. But, i'd rather have the truth rather than people lying to me.
Q: Are you closer to your mother or father? : Mum.
Q: Who was the last person you cried in front of? : Uhhh.... Derrick? I can't remember!!!
Q: How many people can you say you've really loved? : Is this necessary?
Q: Do you eat healthy? : Yes, no, maybe. I eat as I desire.
Q: Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: Yeah...
Q: Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : Yes.
Q: How often do you go to church?: I've been to church once or twice. lol. Does that even count?
Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? Most likely...No one. Sometimes,...
Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: I used to be really quiet. Now, I'm not so sure anymore.
Q: Are you confident?: Most of the time.
Q: Favorite Quote: Its Karma! (I don't really have a fav quote. I may have, but I don't use them in my conversations)
Hmm.. But, I got this out of randomness while chatting with Dinnish.
"Be happy with what you have"
Because, some/most people are just not satisfied with what they have, until they lose it. Its how one appreciate them and cherish them as it is. I shall stop elaborating and save this for another time.


Q: Things I was doing 10 years ago..
Drawing on the wall?

Q: Things on my to-do list today.
1. Sleep
2. Study for EST?
3. Listen to music that should make me sane again.

Q: 5 snacks I enjoy..
- Oreo
- Kinder Bueno
- Kit Kat
- Snickers
- M&M's
- Toblerone
- Cadbury Milk Chocolate
- Hershey's Kisses with Chocolate Chip

Q: 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire..
1. Pay my college/university fees.
2. Buy more clothes.
3. Give some to my parents.
4. Buy food and donate to the needy.
5. Travel.


Q: 5 of my bad habits..
1. I waste too much electricity.
2. I tend to up my room once I clean it.
3. Sometimes, I worry too much
4. I can't think of anything anymore.

Q: 5 places I have lived in..
There's a difference between stayed and lived.
So, that would be home, ampang.

Q: 5 jobs I've had..
1. I would love to have a job, just for the experience.

Q: 5 people I tag..
no one.


I haven't been writing any personal post on my blog. Maybe I did, I just can't remember. Or maybe I saved it as drafts and never really want to post it up. Well, if something inspires me, I would. Soon..

Its so near.

Just a few more days.. A few more days..
I am dying to go out. This feeling is so seductive. Why!??
help...

Oh, holy crap. I will be receiving a letter about National Service soon.
CRAP!!! I really do hope they wont sent me to a land far far away...... =(

Denise loves...

Oreo Cheesecake

Okay, I know my hunger for food is so insatiable and so as my heart. I am addicted to Oreo Cookies at the moment. But, I just love the biscuit. The creme? not really. I usually throw them away or I'll just eat it sometimes. Anyone here love the creme?? Because, I just love the biscuit. =D

Well, I need it after all. Since, I had a rough day today. But, too bad I need to maintain a healthy diet for now.. =D I was quite surprised I lost 2kg easily since I got sick. Weird isn't it?

Anyway, I have some pictures in my camera but I'm lazy to upload them.
I'll just leave you people with a pictures then.

I feel like this now.
A prisoner with eyes that are gonna pop out with a "pop" sound.

In a week, I'll be free like a bird. That is where all my shopping begins.
I need new shoes. A pair 3 inch stilettos which I will pre-order it ASAP and probably a pair of black high-heeled boots.
New clothes, obviously.
Novels.
Driving, flute and dance lessons.
I owe some people a cheeseburger and chillis. (oh my...)
oh wait! Someone wants to belanja me too!
Well, That all I could think of. I have one problem, where am I going to get the money?
Probably I could make some money by tutoring primary school kids. XD Just so you know, I've been tutoring my neighbour recently. I should start charging. Why didn't I think of this earlier? XD

Anyway, That's all for now.

Blessing in Disguise

Aha! Finally I have the chance to actually sit down right in front of my computer peacefully and not having to worry about certain things. Well, not really peacefully but I could stay longer. =D
So, If you're wondering how are things with my SPM papers so far.... Its alright. I dare not comment any further.

"Blessing in Disguise" is actually a good thing but most of us never recognise it as a good thing. Has this ever occured to you? Well, it did, to me. I hardly experience that. Or at least I know that I rarely experience it. Maybe I did and I wasn't aware of it. But, when it happens and you get to know about it. The feeling is sooo goood....

Anyway.....

The first day was the bomb. I was nervous just like everyone else. I was sweating till I'm not sure whether is hot or is it me? (CHEH!!) Haha. Looks like its the whether all along. I am sitting on the first row, which is also next to the door. I had 3 papers to sit on Monday. BM paper 1 and 2 and History paper 1. After my BM paper 2, I was exhausted already. I used up 1 pen just for the BM papers. I was too tired when I got home. But, I have to study for history paper 2 the next day. Yesterday was alright too. I left 30 minutes earlier for English and studied for my history.

Today, I had Mathematics paper. Not bad. =). My next paper is next week. Boy, its Add maths and Moral on the same day and Chemistry. 4 down 6 more to go.

I think this SPm is another great way for me to lose weight. I hope so. Because, I think I am eating not so optimumly. I only eat when I need it and will only eat what I need. Maybe I was afraid that I am going to throw up again. I was having fever last Saturday. It was 30 minutes past midnight, my stomach wasn't feeling so good. My stomach wasn't feeling well the whole day actually. I thought it was normal and it would go away but it didn't. I had some buffet earlier that afternoon as I was attending a gathering at a hotel. I threw up whatever I ate for the whole day. Ugh. It was terrifying and disgusting. Exceptionally disgusting when I ate cheese that afternoon. Gawd.

I felt better, washed up and went to bed. 5 hours later, I woke up feeling really sick and vomitted again. Still, it was yestedays food. What the hell???? Its not even digested yet??? I took some medicenies my mum gave and struggle back to sleep. It is conformed that I had food poisoning. Time seems to move too slow when I was having fever. 12 hours later, I threw up again. This time, it was porridge. I could not study for 2 days. I slept all the time. My mum and I was worried.

Fortunately, I was feeling so much better on Monday. I was healthy again!



Maybe it was a blessing in disguise. Maybe I pushed myself too hard on studying that I desperately needed a break. Well, I guess I needed it after all and I was relieved that I was back on track. So, I had a study session with Jhun Ren in the afternoon. I wanted to join Vi and Nick but the timing was just not right. Therefore, never eat out and get sick for at least 2 weeks before your SPM!!!

Just so you know, my neighbour, who is a doctor told me that she treated at least 4 or 5 students who are also sitting for spm like me. Hmmm.... looks like I'm not alone huh....

Anyway.... I'll leave with another picture (not) me.

All the best for SPM twins! and...
Happy Belated Birthday jane!
I haven't seen my cousins in ages... lol.

*Edits on Nov 14*

I love this song... omg.

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless, I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels, in the moment, I'd never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

This song is just so good. Its so catchy! =DDD LOVE BUG AGAIN!!!

It's time for war.

Leaving school would be one of the hardest thing to let go. The good times and the bad times. It is what I call "The Spice of Life".
So, I'll just do a really quick update with some pictures I took recently..

Our last input by Mr.Lim.
Mrs Yong and Mr.Lim surprised us with a small party of pizza's, kfc's and soft drinks.
None of us were expecting that. =) Thank you, Mrs. Yong and Mr.Lim!
But most importantly,
Thank you to Miss Lau and all the Science teacher who did the same thing too
although I do not have any pictures of it.

Mrs. Yong, Nick, Vi and I.

Denise just got down the bus.
I would really miss walking down this road almost everyday of my life, with my school uniform.

I feel like this now.
If you're wondering what is that red string,
Its a red string attached to a spear.
Brutal, isn't it?
I got it from central market.

Even though I may endure crap, but having friends around you makes things better.
From left, Zhu Liang, Dinie, Me and Vishana.
This was taken yesterday.
It might be the last time I see these dudes.

Last but not least,

Stay positive as I am preparing for war.
I do not know how long I can smile like this but whatever happens,
just stay calm, focus, move on and make history!
=D

PS : I hate eye bags.
PSS : go visit Kok Siang's Blog for a few more pictures.
PSSS : I look odd in one of those pictures.

I scream.

Why????!

I feel like crying my heart out. I am so vulnerable now.

I need a chocolate ice cream. It melts my sadness away.

If I Could Fall into The Sky.

Check out this video. I really love it. One of my favourite songs. If a guy would to do this, I would probably die on the spot.

*****

I would spend at least 8 hours away from home every weekend (Saturday and Sunday) going to and fro from Ampang to Central Market/Petaling Street. The weather was so hot that I could probably fry an egg on the road and it would be burnt instantly. At the same, I was also attending a seminar at Kasturi tuition centre. My friends and I would go there by LRT. Over there, the for of us would freeze to death because it was FREAKING COLD!! We almost died down there on our first day there.

So, today was our last day of seminar.. I had the best Salmon Bento every at Central Market. Surprisingly, it was quite cheap and delicious! I would like to have another one next time.

I felt so sick today. Like I was going to have another fever again. I sleptat abt 2a.m because I could not stop sneezing. I did not take any medicine because if I did, I would never wake up the next morning(today). So, I woke up sneezing non-stop till my head hurts. At tuition, I felt so sick and cold. ugh. At least now I feel much better.

I got so much to tell but I'm burned out.

SPM is starting in one week.
Sometimes, I wonder what the hell am I doing.
I do not know what to do and what to study.
At some point, all I could do is just stare aimlessly at my wall,
Looking at my SPM schedule.
My heart starts to beat faster and stronger.
Ahhhhh!!!!!!!!
Keep it strong,
Just move along.
Study! Study! Study!

ps : I can't talk properly with my retainers on! Its so frustrating you know.