Saturday 22 December 2007

I'm not alone

Sorry people. i've not been updating my blog for a week already.
wasn't in the mood to do so. yeah. every time i wanted to blog abt something i ended up clicking "x" on the top of the window.
Sometimes i feel Happy
sometimes i feel Sad. Angry. Hurt. Betrayed. Confused.
So, to summarise what am i feeling now. I feel Lost. emotionally.
Crying never make things better.
However, i do feel better after crying.
Almost every night, i was thinking very deeply. Abt lots of things
Why did it end up like that? What are you trying to tell me?
Will you hide anything from me? When will i finish school?
i cant wait to finish school and stuffs like that.

For the past few years, i never thought things would end up like how it is right now. For those people who knows me well enough, its very obvious I am a happy person. Maybe I'm not a happy-go-lucky type of person. Its just that its unlikely you'll find me being sad. How often do you see Denise being sad? haha. ask yourself. I used to be a gullible person. i trust people so easily and i never thought abt the consequences. I was an extremely shy person. I was not the person i used to be now. Over the years, i realised i changed by making that phone call. I discovered so many things. Trust, Friendship, Companion, Being there for each other (friends, family and your love ones), To be a better person(generally), and a lot more. It was too good to be true.

Everything comes with a price. haha. thats the painful part. Nothing last forever.

For the past few days, i've been reading a few interesting blogs. Such as Nicolekiss blog that i stumbled across from icantremember whose blog while i was bored.
hmmm... I guess I'm not the only one who is feeling like that.

PS: I'm not sure what is in you mind now, what are you thinking and what are you doing. But whatever it is, I hope you'll never ever hurt me anymore under any circumstances. It's too painful.

***

23 December 2007, Sunday

Finally, I met my baby cousin, Nicholas after 9+3 months. He's Sooooo cute!!! He's kinda big for a baby of his age. I don't know why they chose that name coz for me its TOO common. I know 5 nicholas so far. =.+ plus another one becomes 6. lol. anyway, ok-lah.... nice name also what... XD.

I woke up quite late coz i slept very late the night before. I went shopping with my aunties at Sg. Wang. Though its not really my fav. place or choice to go there. I just tag along with them as i don't wanna rot at home with nothing to do other than practicing my flute. i didn't buy a lot of things. But my mum and aunties did. They really do spend a lot. Especially on cosmetics and facial stuffs. Yeap.
I think they(my mum and 2 of my aunties) spend abt RM3000 altogether on a product called SK-II. Familiar right?
Abt few pairs of pants which cost i don't know how much.
5 pairs of shoes from Hush Puppies.
Some clothes at Metrojaya.
Sum it all up i think should be abt almost RM 5000+.
Tons of bags to carry.

Tomorrow.....
I'll be shopping again. KLCC and maybe back to sg.wang again. not sure. I'm not the one deciding.

Sorry people. no pictures.

anyway, I was thinking abt getting a new phone. and... I'm outdated when it comes to phones. =.=""" Any recomandation??


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I'm not alone

Sorry people. i've not been updating my blog for a week already.
wasn't in the mood to do so. yeah. every time i wanted to blog abt something i ended up clicking "x" on the top of the window.
Sometimes i feel Happy
sometimes i feel Sad. Angry. Hurt. Betrayed. Confused.
So, to summarise what am i feeling now. I feel Lost. emotionally.
Crying never make things better.
However, i do feel better after crying.
Almost every night, i was thinking very deeply. Abt lots of things
Why did it end up like that? What are you trying to tell me?
Will you hide anything from me? When will i finish school?
i cant wait to finish school and stuffs like that.

For the past few years, i never thought things would end up like how it is right now. For those people who knows me well enough, its very obvious I am a happy person. Maybe I'm not a happy-go-lucky type of person. Its just that its unlikely you'll find me being sad. How often do you see Denise being sad? haha. ask yourself. I used to be a gullible person. i trust people so easily and i never thought abt the consequences. I was an extremely shy person. I was not the person i used to be now. Over the years, i realised i changed by making that phone call. I discovered so many things. Trust, Friendship, Companion, Being there for each other (friends, family and your love ones), To be a better person(generally), and a lot more. It was too good to be true.

Everything comes with a price. haha. thats the painful part. Nothing last forever.

For the past few days, i've been reading a few interesting blogs. Such as Nicolekiss blog that i stumbled across from icantremember whose blog while i was bored.
hmmm... I guess I'm not the only one who is feeling like that.

PS: I'm not sure what is in you mind now, what are you thinking and what are you doing. But whatever it is, I hope you'll never ever hurt me anymore under any circumstances. It's too painful.

***

23 December 2007, Sunday

Finally, I met my baby cousin, Nicholas after 9+3 months. He's Sooooo cute!!! He's kinda big for a baby of his age. I don't know why they chose that name coz for me its TOO common. I know 5 nicholas so far. =.+ plus another one becomes 6. lol. anyway, ok-lah.... nice name also what... XD.

I woke up quite late coz i slept very late the night before. I went shopping with my aunties at Sg. Wang. Though its not really my fav. place or choice to go there. I just tag along with them as i don't wanna rot at home with nothing to do other than practicing my flute. i didn't buy a lot of things. But my mum and aunties did. They really do spend a lot. Especially on cosmetics and facial stuffs. Yeap.
I think they(my mum and 2 of my aunties) spend abt RM3000 altogether on a product called SK-II. Familiar right?
Abt few pairs of pants which cost i don't know how much.
5 pairs of shoes from Hush Puppies.
Some clothes at Metrojaya.
Sum it all up i think should be abt almost RM 5000+.
Tons of bags to carry.

Tomorrow.....
I'll be shopping again. KLCC and maybe back to sg.wang again. not sure. I'm not the one deciding.

Sorry people. no pictures.

anyway, I was thinking abt getting a new phone. and... I'm outdated when it comes to phones. =.=""" Any recomandation??