As promised, i would blog today. Unfortunately, I don't have any pictures with me now because theres something wrong with my camera's memory card.ugh.. Every time i press the on button, it will appear that I have to format it. *sighs*I got a few pictures from our debate discussion and a 30-second video of 2 debaters singing the Lollipop song by Mika. Yeah, they sang exactly like mika with THAT KIND of voice. Too bad I can't upload the pics to the computer.. Ahh... nevermind..

On Tuesday, I spent approximately15 hours away from home which is from 6a.m to 9.45pm. Its because of school and after school debate discussion which was all the way in Sepang. -.-" It took us 1 hour to actually reach Sepang though the road was not packed with cars or lorries.

All of use ate lots and lots of candy. but guess what?? have you ever tried eating flower petals candy??? As in, REAL flower petals. I did, with my fellow debate members. Well, all of us didn't know that it was a candy untill i took it out and ask "is this edible??? flower petals??" everyone was like... "whhhaaat??? flower petals???" Yeah, its edible. We ate it. To our surprise, it was delicious. The scent of the flower with nuts. yummy... there goes the picture I took in my camera... I wish there were more of those candy. Too bad theres only one.

This is not exactly the picture. Its just an illustration.

I slept in the car for awhile as I could not take it anymore. I'm desperately in need of sleep. We reached our destination which is The Empress Hotel where our discussion was held. All of us talk and talked and talk. Yeah, we talk a lot. Call us chatterboxes. I realise that im starting to talk a lot nowdays compared to last time. Quite a few things happen. it was a fun but very tiring discussion.

We went home quite late. we kept singing the lollipop song by mika. Reached home, bathe and slept.

This thing im doing now has made me sacrifice some classes like BM, English, EST, Sejarah, Moral and PJK. Well, its not really a huge problem for me. Its because of that, homeworks are piling up like crazy!

Anywa, to be continue... I just got home from tuition not long ago and im really tired.

=D

Debate discussions are getting more interesting though im just helping a bit. I enjoy the company of everyone who is in the debate. We had fun. =D We laugh non-stop, joke around at times, tease each other and we talk a lot! But, we also know when to be serious. anyway..... i should stop here as my homeworks are piling up even higher than ever before. @.@ I really can go nuts!
Staying in a confined room gives me headaches. ughh... Lack of oxygen.
I'll be back with my next post ASAP. most probably on Friday.

Hmmm... Sometimes things will not turn out the way you expect/want it to be.
It can be great or disappointing.
It can be fair or unfair.
Sometimes, I just don't understand.

Everything I do, I'll always put all my effort in it. Especially when it comes to studying. Its not the only thing I'm good at okay. But, i know what to do when it comes to studying. Other than studying, I love art. Art can be anything. Not just about drawing or painting. I'm like a 5 year old girl when it comes to drawing and painting. XD I love art as in wrapping a present in a stylish way, making my own cards, decorations, ribbons, flowers made from papers, and things similar to it as long as it needs a pair of scissors, glue, a pencil, paper, cellophane tape and ME! I'm not really serious abt doing this as my career but just as a favorite pastime. But, what happens if you've did you very best and did not get the results that you're supposed/ expected to get? Disappointment.

People may call me a nerd or a geek by my looks. Some people look down on these kind of people when it comes to things besides studying and their books. anyway, i feel like I'm talking crap now.

A lot of things i did with all my heart. But what happens in the end when you did not get what you deserve?
ugh...

Happy Chinese New Year!

Next post.. Chinese New Year. =D Well, i did had some fun though it was really pleasant. When I was younger, I was always looking forward for CNY as I always enjoyed playing with my cousins. But now all of them are teenagers like me and some of them were not there coz they're studying overseas. So, I end up playing the kids aged 3-7. They can be annoying as you know, you're playing with kids who are 10-14 years younger than you. -.-" One thing i love playing with them is that they always bring out the joy and happiness in you. As for my other cousin around my age, especially the twins who were boys. They were extremely shy i guess. Hmm, i dont really have a decent picture of them. They have the looks. *ahem*
I spent 1/4 of my time there doing my homework. Other than that, i did took some pics of me.

I was bored... Its just something that i do randomly.
and not to worry, i don't do this other than in this picture.

I realise that I love wearing white. hmmm....


Okay.. this one is something random when we're on our way back to johor.
i dont know what was that person doing and why is he on top.

I went visiting here and there. The nearest town was Batu Pahat. It took us abt 20-30 minutes to reach there since it was 22km from my grandmother's house. What can I expect. Its a kampung are with only one lane road. Its frustrating when these people take their own sweet time driving. Its also hard to overtake where theres incoming cars from the opposite direction

This is how kampung area looks like. Trees everywhere! You know, during the day, its super hot that you're constantly sweating whereas at night, you dont need a fan to sleep with. ITS freezing COLD! I bathe 5 times during the day. I couldn't stand the heat. ahhh, when it comes to bathing, you'll have to take a number and wait for your turn. Everyone is constantly using the bathroom. Can't blame anyone because we have quite a big family.

Besides that, you'll also find a lot of insects or small creatures around you. Ants, frogs, grasshopper, spiders, butterflies, flies, cats, dogs, mosquitoes, lizards, and other similar creatures.

Watcha lookin at?!

Ants

More ants!!

Miss Spidey.

Grasshopper

Food??

Playing with kids are always fun. Hey! Im not that old you know.. They can be odd sometimes.

This is Leanne. The photogenic and playful one.

Hmm... Kids, you might suffocating ur uncle.

What are you doing? She loves disturbing me... XD

She would make a great actress when she grows up. XD

At my uncle's new restaurant. Elle and Jasveen.

Leanne,3 and her sister, Joanne,6

=) You brighten up my day.

CNY will never be complete without a party and fireworks. Every year, my uncles and aunties would organise a party. Its always fun. Food, drinks, people, karaoke, scotch whiskey, beer, wine etcetcetc.

Look at the pool of oil. >.<

OMG... O.O

WTF!!?!?! Im not eating that dish. and NO i did not eat it at all.

The great chefs of the night! Daddy and my uncle

Although it doesn't look delicious in this picture due to bad lighting. But, its Superb!
Lamb, butter fish, chicken, prawns, squid.
I don't eat prawns and squid.

Lovely. Its finger licking good. Wanna try some? Feel free to contact me anytime.
I'll make some for you. =)

A few of my relatives.

This is my coolest uncle. XD

Daddy and my uncle again. Karaoke.

I think he was drunk. but nvm, everone is having fun!

Thats me before my uncle dragged and pulled me in to dance. XD

Do you notice that Im wearing different shirts?
yeah, it was really warm that particular night.


Look at the red box.
and if you're wondering what are all those things stacking up side by side.
they're granite tiles. Theres a lot around the house compound.
i wonder how much did my another uncle spent on these tiles. damn. They're not cheap.

Behold..... 148... uhh... fireworks?
*drum rolls*

Walah!! It ends with a bang!
not just a bang but 148 of them!

Happy Chinese New Year!

SPCA

aha! Finally i have the time to post something year. So, lets rewind back to 27 January 2008.
My friends and I went to SPCA to do some volunteer work. It was okay.. Its not as bad i expected it to be. There are so many dogs compared to cats. Some of them were very cute and i just feel like taking them home.. and guess what? a newborn kitten is smaller than the size of a fully grown hamster.

Anyway, all of us went there at abt 10.30am right after our so called "Larian Hijau" at Taman TAR. There were other students helping out that day since the next day they are organising a Jumble Sale. While I was there, i have this feeling of fear that a dog would run towards me and bite me. I was quite afraid of them because I was bitten by a dog before, 2 years ago while visiting some relatives during chinese new year. That particular dog was mad!! I did not do anything to provoke it and it bit me! ugh... so my dad took me to the clinic for an injection. Thank god i was wearing jeans at the time or else it would be more severe. I couldn't wear mini skirts. Imagine having a big and thick oval bruise on your thigh with 4 visible dots on it due to the canine teeth. it took abt 3 weeks for the bruise to completely disappear. That dog was huge! and most probably its not a pure breed dog or else it wont be that aggressive. oook... im drifting away from the topic.
I learned to love dogs again. I guess one black sheep does not spoil the whole flock. XD or one bad apple does not spoil the whole basket.

Here are some pictures :

When theres animals, you can never escape from this.

I can't help it. i know. bad lighting.

look at them... "Take me home!"

A German Shepard. Beautiful dog.

It eats a lot!

Vi and ViVi.

Lunch time!

Lunch for the puppies.

mmm... yummy....

awww... You're so adorable... it winked at me too!

Kok Siang and I.

On our way to McDonalds Drivethru at Petronas. Damn, i was really hungry that i could eat an elephant. Ah well, its very near my house, thats why I'm walking home.

Satisfaction!

These are the only pictures i manage to take.

I had THE MOST TIRING day,. its 12.37 now so, its yesterday. I just woke up from sleep. I feel very lousy and blur. Sports day is over! finally! Although our house did not win but at least we're not the last position. I feel really satisfied because I had fun. =) will blog abt it later.

I just found out something really unexpected on saturday. it was shocking. theres nothing to do with me but when I think of it, i feel really angry. gaaaaahhhh!!!!!! i feel so angry now. How can a person do like that???!!!? Its cruel. no, itys 50 times worse than cruel.

I went to a party with Shaz and Khai Wen. haha. the food was great. other than that, its ok. Met a lot of people. =D

Im so addicted to song like Shadow of the day by Linkin Park, Chis Daughtry, Piece of Me by Britney(thats odd of me-.-), and Fall Out Boys. and some other songs that i can't think of it now.

You know.... I've been staying back in school untill 5.30 everyday for the whole week! omg... I really miss home. having tuitions after that? yeah, i could barely open my eyes and concentrate in class. No, I did not do any homework at all for the whole week. I need to catch up with more sleep and rest.

I wanna watch the movie PS, I Love you. =D
I wanna get a new phone.
I want more holidays!

omg....... im too busy to update unless im done with debate and add maths.
i got 2 topics to work on. 1st topic is health vs. wealth. Im in the opposition team = wealth. 2nd topic is Parents are the villains of the rise in child abduction, not the predators. Still, I'm in the opposition team = predators are the villains. =.="""""
Talk abt add maths and also maths. Im not sure whether i realise it or its normal that now, we're in chapter 4 for both subjects and its only february! o.O!!! For the 1st time i actually did not do my homework AT ALL and i manage to escape from getting scolded. =D
I just got back from a party and sports day is tmr! omg.. wish me luck! I'll be running and cheering!
byeee! =)

School is starting tomorrow. Suddenly I don't feel like going to school.
Yeah, I am stress now.
I've abandoned facebook for a while. A few reasons why.
The same thing for friendster.
I don't think I'll be blogging that much anymore.

I'll Update abt CNY next time with pictures. It hasn't been a pleasant CNY for me. But I did enjoyed myself. somehow...

I spent more time sleeping to cover up my sleeping hours debt for 1 month. At the same time..
I've been dreaming a lot for the past 3 days. Its not exactly a bad dream but its really heartbreaking to even think of it and yet i dream of it. I'm constantly thinking and thinking abt it whether was I really dreaming?? I don't dream that often at all. Its very unlikely of me. The dreams are bugging me now. Tearing me apart and bringing me down little by little. Theres almost nothing i could do with it as it doesn't change anything.
Thinking of it makes me angry and sad. Its almost impossible forgive and most importantly I'll never ever forget. Why does it always occur to me that this feeling of hate, revenge, anger, and things like that constantly comes back to me?
A lot of things related to it inevitably affects me emotionally.
I really need to revive myself.

Sometimes, I don't know what to believe anymore. I just have to go with the flow whether I believe it or not. The anger in me is still piling up. I just want to let it go from me and hopefully it will never ever return.

There are a lot of things i want to do but i don't allow myself to do so. Its because... somehow, i feel it doesn't do me any good in long term. I've done so many things with all my heart and effort. I spent so much time and effort on whatever I do. People forget so easily.

I wish I could say I don't care anymore. Its such a heavy burden to carry now.

I'm addicted to facebook! haha!
CNY is just a few days away. I have to say i can't wait but at the same time, I'll be having a lot of homework. -.-"
Day after day and week after week, i have homeowrk. Theres too much of homework that I need to finish half of it in school whenever i have free period or stay back after school while waiting for the activity to start or waiting for my mum to fetch us home.

Yeah, thats me almost every monday to wednesday of the week. This is after sports practice. Staying back untill 5 pm. Haih... I spent 2/3 of my day away from home that is to school and tuition. All I want is just to stay at home longer.

So, this is the first time of the month I slept more than 5 hours! Its because for the past 4 weeks, I've been having school on Saturday and my Sundays are disturbed by my parents for not waking up early to go somewhere they want to go. -.-" Or else They'll be nagging at me. There was also 1 Sunday, Vi woke me up at 8a.m. This must be really really important or else. Hmm.. I would never expect anyone to call me so early in the morning. He was also awakened by Kah Fai. So, he woke both of us up asking for a piece of yellow paper. -.-" That yellow paper was for the kerja amal at SPCA that has to be signed by them to proof that you really did it. So, his paper was with someone else who i can't remember who and i had an extra piece. Damn, I was so frustrated and pissed. No offense ok, but I NEED MY SLEEP! anyway, thats over already. Im not angry anymore.

Update for the week:

I have to train the juniors for some cheer thing
Debate. Terrifying. >.<
Signed up for how many and what subjects I'll be taking for SPM
I'll be taking only 10 subjects. Unlike some of my friends who took 13 subject(i think la)
I agree with K.Siang, Why take science where you have already took all 3 pure sciences. and drop EST? Actually, EST maybe quite unreasonable in a way where For example :
if you answer your question in malay such as karbohidrat instead of carbohydrate, its a correct answer because it is the same meaning in english and it does not have more than one meaning in BM. Next the marking scheme of the paper. It changes every year. Thats what I heard from a very reliable source. EST is testing more on your general knowledge but its hard to score an A1 or an A2 in SPM unless you have a superb scientific vocabulary and extra information.