I'll Update abt CNY next time with pictures. It hasn't been a pleasant CNY for me. But I did enjoyed myself. somehow...
I spent more time sleeping to cover up my sleeping hours debt for 1 month. At the same time..
I've been dreaming a lot for the past 3 days. Its not exactly a bad dream but its really heartbreaking to even think of it and yet i dream of it. I'm constantly thinking and thinking abt it whether was I really dreaming?? I don't dream that often at all. Its very unlikely of me. The dreams are bugging me now. Tearing me apart and bringing me down little by little. Theres almost nothing i could do with it as it doesn't change anything.
Thinking of it makes me angry and sad. Its almost impossible forgive and most importantly I'll never ever forget. Why does it always occur to me that this feeling of hate, revenge, anger, and things like that constantly comes back to me?
A lot of things related to it inevitably affects me emotionally.
I really need to revive myself.
Sometimes, I don't know what to believe anymore. I just have to go with the flow whether I believe it or not. The anger in me is still piling up. I just want to let it go from me and hopefully it will never ever return.
There are a lot of things i want to do but i don't allow myself to do so. Its because... somehow, i feel it doesn't do me any good in long term. I've done so many things with all my heart and effort. I spent so much time and effort on whatever I do. People forget so easily.
I wish I could say I don't care anymore. Its such a heavy burden to carry now.
I'll Update abt CNY next time with pictures. It hasn't been a pleasant CNY for me. But I did enjoyed myself. somehow...
I spent more time sleeping to cover up my sleeping hours debt for 1 month. At the same time..
I've been dreaming a lot for the past 3 days. Its not exactly a bad dream but its really heartbreaking to even think of it and yet i dream of it. I'm constantly thinking and thinking abt it whether was I really dreaming?? I don't dream that often at all. Its very unlikely of me. The dreams are bugging me now. Tearing me apart and bringing me down little by little. Theres almost nothing i could do with it as it doesn't change anything.
Thinking of it makes me angry and sad. Its almost impossible forgive and most importantly I'll never ever forget. Why does it always occur to me that this feeling of hate, revenge, anger, and things like that constantly comes back to me?
A lot of things related to it inevitably affects me emotionally.
I really need to revive myself.
Sometimes, I don't know what to believe anymore. I just have to go with the flow whether I believe it or not. The anger in me is still piling up. I just want to let it go from me and hopefully it will never ever return.
There are a lot of things i want to do but i don't allow myself to do so. Its because... somehow, i feel it doesn't do me any good in long term. I've done so many things with all my heart and effort. I spent so much time and effort on whatever I do. People forget so easily.
I wish I could say I don't care anymore. Its such a heavy burden to carry now.
I spent more time sleeping to cover up my sleeping hours debt for 1 month. At the same time..
I've been dreaming a lot for the past 3 days. Its not exactly a bad dream but its really heartbreaking to even think of it and yet i dream of it. I'm constantly thinking and thinking abt it whether was I really dreaming?? I don't dream that often at all. Its very unlikely of me. The dreams are bugging me now. Tearing me apart and bringing me down little by little. Theres almost nothing i could do with it as it doesn't change anything.
Thinking of it makes me angry and sad. Its almost impossible forgive and most importantly I'll never ever forget. Why does it always occur to me that this feeling of hate, revenge, anger, and things like that constantly comes back to me?
A lot of things related to it inevitably affects me emotionally.
I really need to revive myself.
Sometimes, I don't know what to believe anymore. I just have to go with the flow whether I believe it or not. The anger in me is still piling up. I just want to let it go from me and hopefully it will never ever return.
There are a lot of things i want to do but i don't allow myself to do so. Its because... somehow, i feel it doesn't do me any good in long term. I've done so many things with all my heart and effort. I spent so much time and effort on whatever I do. People forget so easily.
I wish I could say I don't care anymore. Its such a heavy burden to carry now.
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