Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiii

This week would be my last week of college. I never thought that this will come knocking my door so soon. I'll be having study week from next week onwards. *exhales*

My final exam falls on the 18th of October 2010. It ends on the 18th of November. I'll be re-taking Biology for my AS Level. Hmm... I never thought I will redo this subject but I am. -.- 

I've already started studying full time. No more fooling around as much as before. =)

Im hungry now. -.- Imma get something to eat and continue with whatever I'm doing. =D 

Things

I want us back to the way we used to be. The ones where we used to talk to each other. We used to spend hours and hours of non-stop talking.

We always have lunch together, sometimes dinner and breakfast occasionally. I miss the times when we were enjoying ourselves in each others company. I remember us being so happy that it really shows through our faces.

Now, things are monotonous and stale. I really wanna turn this around and relive those moments we had.
Or maybe thing happening right now is normal in every relationship? I hope so.


Honestly, I have a lot of things i gotta do but have a lot of things bugging me in my head and this is just one of them. I keep complaining about how hard A-Levels is and how stressful is it for me. Its time consuming andI have to study most of my time. Even if I have some free time, I feel uneasy. The things I enjoy doing like watching tv, online, shopping, sleeping and camping at the bookshop seems like a waste of time.

Sometimes, I'm torn between spending time with my boyfriend and my studies.. I know I can always put either of it on hold for a moment but I just don't like having to choose. I'm willing to pick any of it but I don't want to feel guilty for what I choose to do with my time.

I hardly do any outdoor activities for the past 2 years. I put it on hold as well. I used to wake up early in the morning to jog, take a bath and have my breakfast. I remember the times I used to go for a swim. I used to dance and I stopped for awhile due to several reasons and time is one of it.

Judging by the things I just wrote, I spend so much time studying and I don't get a string of A's on my results. Are my methods of studying wrong? Hmm... I don't know. So far, I only have average grades.

My social life is partially gone because I'd rather spend my time at home catching up with some sleep. Its not that I don't hang out with friends anymore, I still do but I spend less time.

I'm fully aware that whatever I'm going through right now is just another phase in life. A Levels is like a pass to University. The purpose of A-Levels is to fully prepare one to face the challenges that one may face in university or similar or probably worse. (depends on what course you're taking. HEHE =P)

I somehow can't fully express my thoughts here and I would end it here.




ps : I love you very much, baby. We'll be okay. I mean, we'll be awesome! =)