Wednesday 8 September 2010

Things

I want us back to the way we used to be. The ones where we used to talk to each other. We used to spend hours and hours of non-stop talking.

We always have lunch together, sometimes dinner and breakfast occasionally. I miss the times when we were enjoying ourselves in each others company. I remember us being so happy that it really shows through our faces.

Now, things are monotonous and stale. I really wanna turn this around and relive those moments we had.
Or maybe thing happening right now is normal in every relationship? I hope so.


Honestly, I have a lot of things i gotta do but have a lot of things bugging me in my head and this is just one of them. I keep complaining about how hard A-Levels is and how stressful is it for me. Its time consuming andI have to study most of my time. Even if I have some free time, I feel uneasy. The things I enjoy doing like watching tv, online, shopping, sleeping and camping at the bookshop seems like a waste of time.

Sometimes, I'm torn between spending time with my boyfriend and my studies.. I know I can always put either of it on hold for a moment but I just don't like having to choose. I'm willing to pick any of it but I don't want to feel guilty for what I choose to do with my time.

I hardly do any outdoor activities for the past 2 years. I put it on hold as well. I used to wake up early in the morning to jog, take a bath and have my breakfast. I remember the times I used to go for a swim. I used to dance and I stopped for awhile due to several reasons and time is one of it.

Judging by the things I just wrote, I spend so much time studying and I don't get a string of A's on my results. Are my methods of studying wrong? Hmm... I don't know. So far, I only have average grades.

My social life is partially gone because I'd rather spend my time at home catching up with some sleep. Its not that I don't hang out with friends anymore, I still do but I spend less time.

I'm fully aware that whatever I'm going through right now is just another phase in life. A Levels is like a pass to University. The purpose of A-Levels is to fully prepare one to face the challenges that one may face in university or similar or probably worse. (depends on what course you're taking. HEHE =P)

I somehow can't fully express my thoughts here and I would end it here.




ps : I love you very much, baby. We'll be okay. I mean, we'll be awesome! =)

1 comment:

Zi Heng said...

hey den, same in here. It is hard to find a way to balance LOVE n' STUDIES. We want so badly to spend more time to be with our beloved, but then when we are with them, we feel uneasy cuz' we know we have a much more important task to complete, n' yet we seem like wasting time here. N' the sad thing is, sometimes they are unable to comprehend the issues we are facing, they dun understand why we behave like this so.
Cheer up, everything is gonna be fine, have faith in both love and your studies.

Things

I want us back to the way we used to be. The ones where we used to talk to each other. We used to spend hours and hours of non-stop talking.

We always have lunch together, sometimes dinner and breakfast occasionally. I miss the times when we were enjoying ourselves in each others company. I remember us being so happy that it really shows through our faces.

Now, things are monotonous and stale. I really wanna turn this around and relive those moments we had.
Or maybe thing happening right now is normal in every relationship? I hope so.


Honestly, I have a lot of things i gotta do but have a lot of things bugging me in my head and this is just one of them. I keep complaining about how hard A-Levels is and how stressful is it for me. Its time consuming andI have to study most of my time. Even if I have some free time, I feel uneasy. The things I enjoy doing like watching tv, online, shopping, sleeping and camping at the bookshop seems like a waste of time.

Sometimes, I'm torn between spending time with my boyfriend and my studies.. I know I can always put either of it on hold for a moment but I just don't like having to choose. I'm willing to pick any of it but I don't want to feel guilty for what I choose to do with my time.

I hardly do any outdoor activities for the past 2 years. I put it on hold as well. I used to wake up early in the morning to jog, take a bath and have my breakfast. I remember the times I used to go for a swim. I used to dance and I stopped for awhile due to several reasons and time is one of it.

Judging by the things I just wrote, I spend so much time studying and I don't get a string of A's on my results. Are my methods of studying wrong? Hmm... I don't know. So far, I only have average grades.

My social life is partially gone because I'd rather spend my time at home catching up with some sleep. Its not that I don't hang out with friends anymore, I still do but I spend less time.

I'm fully aware that whatever I'm going through right now is just another phase in life. A Levels is like a pass to University. The purpose of A-Levels is to fully prepare one to face the challenges that one may face in university or similar or probably worse. (depends on what course you're taking. HEHE =P)

I somehow can't fully express my thoughts here and I would end it here.




ps : I love you very much, baby. We'll be okay. I mean, we'll be awesome! =)