Maybe its the weather. One day its hot and the next day is cold. Its driving me crazy. I can't tahan with the sudden change of the weather. Well, its global warming. Hmm... I was watching Ellen Degeneres Talk Show today and I'm starting to love it. I do watch it almost everyday if I happen to come across that programme on channel 711. So yeah, today she was talking about animal extinction. For instance, Over 120 species of frogs are already extinct for the past 10 years. About 200 more species of frogs will extinct in 20 years in the future. Well, if my memory servers me right, that's what I remembered. Its really shocking to not know about this before.
I'm having mixed emotions now. Sometimes I'm happy. Sometimes I'm emo. Sometimes I'm just not interested. Sometimes I'm emotionless. Sometimes I'm just plain blur. what the... ok.. Sometimes, I'm odd. Don't worry.. I'm not crazy.Although there's a high chance for me to go cuckoo in a few more days or in a week.
I have extra class in school tomorrow. I'm so dead. Don't worry, I wont die. I'll survive. I'm really afraid to go to school tomorrow. SERIOUSLY! I'M NOT JOKING! I'm really afraid. I will have to face the music. I have the choice of not attending the extra class tomorrow. However, if I decided not to go, I'll be dead one way or another. I'll will be interrogated with a "bonus". So, if I attend, I'll be dead. If I don't attend, I'll be dead. So how? Well, If I don't attend, I will be slaughtered and dead. So, I better attend. Oh dear..... I'M REALLY AFRAID!!! help me..... I just hope I wont cry tomorrow. Well, after all I do deserve it. I mean... WE deserve it.
Okay, here's one more thing I want to talk about and I'm really serious about this. SPM is in 4 more weeks. I am doubting myself whether I am able to survive this challenge. I'm afraid of this more than anything else now. I don't know how to describe this feeling that is disturbing inside of me. I may not be the smartest person class or anywhere else, but I do have the determination to strive hard for what I want in life. I'm just really worried and nervous. I can't accept the fact that I'm sitting for SPM. I can't accept the fact that its my last year of my high school years. I can't accept the fact that I have only 4 more weeks to study with all my friends, go to tuition classes together, joke around with each other in class, complain together and enjoy each other's company. As much as I want to leave high school, I don't want to leave it yet. So many things happened and I'm not sure if I'm ready to set it free. I'm not sure if I'm ready for all these changes. ah.... Change. Its part and parcel of growing up. Everything has to change. There's so much to say. Well, sorry for being such an oxymoron.
I feel like an oxymoron now. I don't know why.
ps : I'm really afraid to go to school tomorrow.
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