Call me a chocolate addict coz I adore chocolate. Chocolates are always here for me. Whether I'm happy, sad or angry. When I'm sad, the best chocolate remedy would be chocolate ice cream. When I'm angry, the best chocolate remedy is chocolate cake. When I'm happy... well.. when I'm happy I'll just eat any chocolates. I don't have a chocolate cure for being happy.
Sometimes, I would toast 2 pieces of bread and put Nutella chocolate spread on it if I stay up late at night. I always ask myself whether or not to cut off the bread skin. In the end, I ate all of it and I would make another one. *clears throat*
Enough of chocolates. Lets switch to another topic. For the past few days, I've been doing a little bit of thinking. I was thinking about how my SPM results would turn out to be, will I ever get a scholarship?, what are my options?, my future, people who've been in and out of my life, my parents and myself.
About my future and options. I would like and want to take up Dentistry and to become a Dentist as my career. That is as far as I could think of in terms of my career. I could further my studies in
1. Dental Public Health (study of epidemiology and social health policies)
2. Endodonthics (Root canal therapy study of disease of dental pulp)
3. Oral and Maxillofacial Pathology (study, diagnosis, and sometimes the treatment of oral and maxillofacial related diseases)
4. Oral and Maxillofacial Radiology study and radiological interpretation of oral and maxillofacial diseases)
5. Oral and Maxillofacial Surgery (extraction, implants and surgery)
6. Orthodontics (straightening of teeth a.k.a. braces)
7. Pediatric Dentistry (formerly known as pendodonthics that is dentistry for children)
8. Periodontics (study and treatment of diseases of the periodomtium(gum) and placements and maintenance of dental implants)
9. Prosthodontics ( dentures, bridges and the restoration of implants. Some prosthodontists further their training in "oral and maxillofacial prosthodontics"--a discipline concerned with the replacement of missing facial structures--such as ears, eyes, nose, etc)
These are the 9 specialists recognised in US, Canada and Australia. - (extracted from wikipedia)
Well, I'll leave this for later because I would have to study for another 4/5 years to pursue as a specialist. But, just so you know, I'm quite interested in number 1, 5, 6 and 9. Number 5 is a common general practice when you're just an ordinary dentist but Oral Maxillfacial Sergery is a more specific term for it.
So, now I'm torn between 2 option. Actually, I have more than 2 options but the other options are not guaranteed. My first option is to take Cambridge A-Levels either in HELP or Taylors or any other college of my choice. I would have to spend 2 years if I take A-Levels and continue my studies either locally or aboard. This would cost a lot of money, about 500 000 or more?
My second option is to enroll myself to International Medical University (IMU). I'm quite unsure about this as I'm waiting for further information through mail. But, this is what I know so far. The whole course would take up to 5 years or 5 1/2 years depending on what options you get. I don't have to take A-Levels for this as I would take my foundations of Dentistry for one year. Now, I have another 2 options. First, I could study locally for 5 years. Second, I could do a twinning program 2 1/2 or 3 years locally and 3 or 2 1/2 years in Australia. I would love to have the 2nd option and If I do get it, I could either study at University of Adelaine/ University of Queensland/ University of Sydney/ University of Western Australia/ University of Otago, New Zealand. Total fees if I study solely in Malaysia would cost up to RM 400 000 and if I get to study aboard it would cost about the same or slightly more.
Well, correct me if I'm wrong because I am still waiting for further information about my second option. However, I think I like the 2nd option better. I could save up to a year if I take the 2nd option.
My other options are Scholarships, Local University and International Dental College which is in Penang.
Scholarships are not easy to get but not impossible. I can't depend solely on this.
Yup, I did applied for Local University too. I submitted my name already. I don't really have high hopes on this because its local university. Its quite hard to get into local U as it is very competitive among non-bumiputera's. So, if I do get it I'll still have second thoughts about it. It depends la, if I don't get what I want then I'll just forget it.
Hmm.... International Dental College is something like my 2nd option. Its a twinning program too. Study a few years locally and a few years aboard. This time, its in India. But, I think I have to take A-levels for this.
Sometimes, I think I'm just too ambitious. I'm very concern with this because I have high expectations. I don't want it to lead to disappointments. The future is hard to predict. I want to excel in every aspect of my life but sometimes, life can be unfair. You might never have all of it and yet you can have all of it. My mum would jokingly tease me that I shouldn't study too hard or be too ambitious because no guys/men would want me to be their wife because I'm earning more than them. =.=""""""""" omg. For a moment I believed her but then I don't want to end up wasting my time studying so hard and end up sitting at home all day, being a full time housewife. That would be a waste. I don't want to depend everything on my future husband. I also want to be able to support myself so that my future husband or anyone would not look down on me. Hmmm... Am I being paranoid?? Because... these things happens.
You know, I can write this all night and it won't have a full stop to it. Talk about guys... People always ask me about what qualities do I look for in a guy. I got so many answer that I usually pick one randomly. Like I said, I have high expectations in every aspects of my life and I'm very concern with it. Some people told me not to be too picky or I'll not get married for the rest of my life. lol. I can give you so many reasons for this statement. Anyways, I don't have to explain thoroughly here. I've been in love/in a relationship and I know what its like.
aha! That is another topic that I've never mention in my blog and I think I would like to keep it that way. The reason is because there are so many stalkers here that don't have a life that use my words against me. I know that SOME of my readers here come and go, anonymously without leaving behind their footprints and in real life, they would just spread rumors about you and hence, you're popular! Sweat. Hey! I know most of my regular readers don't do it.
So, I'll just talk about this topic generally but in term of a boy-girl relationship. It can be about anyone.
As you know, some people commit themselves in a relationship just because of the status of "being in a relationship. Some people are just really in love and are committed to make the relationship successful. Some people just don't care. Which category are you in? From my point of view, committing yourself in a relationship is not a joke and it is never a joke to me. What about falling in love? I think this is easy for some and quite hard for some others. It depends okay. But, keeping a relationship is not easy. It takes up a lot of time, effort, energy and money. By that, you need commitment, communication, love, respect and trust. These are the 5 main things that are vital in a relationship. That is what I think and they are not arranged orderly. Its really really deep. Don't you think so?
A relationship can fail for so many reasons and any of those reasons fall into those 5 main categories. If there is lack of one component, the relationship fails. Am I not right? Hmm... I think my relationship with you failed because there's no commitment. I don't think any of us are ready for it, yet..
I think I shouldn't elaborate further as I tend to write more unnecessary details. Good night!
PS: I hope this entry is not boring because its kinda long.
Christmas is 4 days away. I can't wait to get my Christmas present. So far I only got one. Well, I should be thankful that I got one. Its better than having none. =)
Goodnight!
Its 3a.m here in this picture and eating chocolate ice cream at this hour while sitting at my room window is such a bliss.So, don't purposely come looking for me at this hour. It's consider stalking me. haha! I'm just kidding!
Good night again!=)
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