Listen to my heart

I'm 19 this year. Another year older but I still feel 17. In a way I could say that I'm still young. Its hard to believe that 2009 flew by so swiftly.

Being 19, There are still so many things in the world, somewhere, waiting to be explored. When I was 16, I had a picture of me in a few years time. Thinking back about it right now, what I had in mind before was completely different. Things change with time.

What I'm trying to say is that I can't predict the future, no one can unless you have an amazing gift from up above.

Anyway, ignore what I've just written.


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About my previous post,I feel like I should elaborate on it. Usually, I keep my thoughts all to myself. I keep it safe and locked in my heart. Its not that I don't wanna share it with people. People always say sharing is caring. However, it is not applicable for all circumstances.

Based on my previous post, I just feel insecure. I was afraid of making the same mistake I did before. I was feeling lost coz I have so my questions in my head without assured answers. I worry way too much.

I understand almost everything you've told me. It was the same words that someone once told me, just that its in a different sentence. We're still young. Still very young. There are a lot of things the world has to offer and it would be a waste not to explore them. The temptations are seductive. The urge to try new things is hard to resist. Who are we to stop it?

I do get a lil bit jealous but its natural for one to feel this way. But, I don't wanna stop the people I love from doing the things they want. I don't want to be the reason or excuse for that. Except when the things involved, would put their lives in great danger, I'll do my best to stop it from happening. Its because I care... 

I hurt us. I hurt you. You hurt me. and I hurt myself. Somehow or another, I am terribly Sorry... =( As cliche as it sound.. From the bottom of my heart I am Sorry..

I just want whats best for us and the people I dearly care for.

I'm ready for the things that has yet to come. I may not take it well as I find it hard for myself to adapt to changes but one thing is for sure, I will move on.

But for now...

I wanna concentrate on what I have in life right here, right now. I can't change the past, I can't predict the future but I can do my very best right now, to appreciate what I have,  to love as much as I can, enjoy my teenage years as much as I desire and to be happy. =)



The greatest thing you'll ever learn in life is to love and to be loved in return - Moulin Rouge.