I woke up with a really bad stomach ache at 4.30 a.m.
I was sweating and in pain.
As far as I can remember, I ate a lot the night before.
Ah well, I took some panadol to ease the pain as it was 4am!

Well, I couldn't sleep after that.
I was staring at my ceiling blankly.
With stars scattered on my ceiling.. They were glowing. bright green.

There was something in my head that was trying to tell me something.
After thinking for awhile,
I realised that I remembered something that I almost forgot.
It was the night when I was lying down
Looking up at the sky with stars all over.
It was a Starry Starry Night, back when i was in Form 2.
It was a camp organised by the school.

I was a little distracted by it and probably thats why I couldn't sleep.
It was NOT ONLY because of the stars.
It was abt something else too that reminded me how important it was to me till this very day.

Because of what I remembered, Everything that never pass through my mind for a very very long time appeared. Like I was watching a movie.
The incident where I was walking home without even realising that you're following right behind me.
pulled some hair until it falls off(i think)
Borrowing a chicken's brain
Mosquitoes outside the window
The telephone bills reached up to rm400 and was punished to pay for it.
Got a few strokes of rotan for not being in class and was punished for it.
More than the stars in the sky.
Bought and ate chicken rice after school.
Making a maggi mee machine so that I could have some even though its 1a.m in the morning.
got a pink colour instead because there wasn't any blue ones
Sang a song called "Are You Lonesome Tonight?" by Elvis Presley.
poured a large coke while i was extremely happy
and there was more..


I was surprised abt how could I ever almost forgotten all these.
But now I remember.
I remember every single one of them (i think) and i felt like i was crushed into a million pieces.
looks like the painkiller(panadol) doesn't work! XDXD
just kidding.

Well, all of them are events that happened in the past.
But, the feeling of it was so pure.
I don't know whether I could ever felt that again.
Thinking abt things back then and now.
There was a huge difference.
I know I can't expect everything to remain the same and never change.
Because, everything change. I realised that.
Things change for no reason at all.
Probably its because you can't give anything more because you can't.
or maybe its because you can't be the same person anymore.
or probably its for the better.

I know that theres nothing I could do abt it but only
move along~!!
Its because, the more I talk abt it, the more I'll damage it.
It was the best thing thats has ever happened to me.
It will always be a part of me no matter what happens.
Because... until today, whatever you told me, I'll always remember them.
I don't know how and why but its already in me.

curtains, stair case, elevators and strangers etcetc. (smthg random)

But, whatever happens, happens for a reason.
I accept it and will always be strong.
even though it makes me really angry and sad sometimes.

Well, I don't know what to say now.

but here's something I experienced today.

I went to Tun Hussein Onn Eye Specialist today.
Well, ofcourse the reason I went there was for an eye checkup.
But not mainly for me.
It was for my 5 and a half year-old cousin, Joanne.
It seems that she has a vision problem.
Although she went for a few checkups back in her hometown, Sitiawan, Perak,
the optometrist did not suspect anything wrong with her eyes.
Well, my uncle and aunty wasn't satisfied and went for a 2nd opinion here in KL.

As for me, why did I tag along???
I was a busybody! XDXD
no lah.. well, I had quite a traumatic history with my eyes back them and since I've not checked my eyesight for almost 3 years.
So, I took this opportunity to do so.

Well, another reason why I tag along its because it was the 1st time my little cousin had a proper checkup.
I know how it feels because I've been through it before.
I don't want her to feel intimidated or scared like I was.

Well, first,
Joanne, her dad(my uncle) and I went into the room for some vision test.
like this.
You know, its really frustrating if you can't read the words on the plane.
because, it makes you feel that something is wrong with your eyes(obviously) and you're wondering why you can't read it. and I felt really bad and scared for myself.
That I might go blind forever and I can't see my mum or dad anymore.
That was what I though back when I had my 2nd checkup when i was 6+.

After that, they make you wera a really huge and creepy looking glasses.

It will make you look like a mad scientist or hideous cyclops.
I don't like those things.

Well, the checkup turned out really good and it went really smoothly.
I was relieved that she was not diagnosed with a rare condition that usually occurs in early childhood.
Its called Amblyopia, otherwise known as lazy eye. although it only affects 1-5% of the world's population.
This rare condition can only be treated at the age before 7/8.
If you're older than that, its too late and theres nothing you could do abt it.

ah well, anyway,
I asked the doctor a few question and I found out something good.
It was a good news for me.
It made me feel normal again.
XD and I'm happy abt it now.

As for my cousin, she needs glasses now because of her high astigmatism.
I have astigmatism too.

Anyway, I'll be away for a few days!
Bye!!!
=D