Phew.... Tired... I just did my housework/chores. Well, it kept me busy.
School was alright.
We had chocolates in Biology class thanks to my bio teacher. Thank you!! Though i wasn't in a mood for chocolates but i still ate it anyway.
Chemistry was quite boring but my classmates made it interesting with all the jokes. Our chemistry teacher is so cool. I enjoy his class very much though the topic we're studying were quite boring sometimes. He always show us some videos/pictures in his laptop though the lab LCD. haha. We always tease him.
My classmates will always have something to laugh abt everyday. Crazy stuffs everyday. Especially the boys. XD.
I was quite in a good mood these few days. I dunno why. Maybe i miss being happy.
Smiling, laughing and giggling.
Talk abt that, sometimes, i smile myself.
I don't know why...
I was trying to finish up my maths homework in school.
I smiled and smiled and smiled all day and deep down i was laughing.
Don't worry, im not crazy. I was just thinking and recalling a lot of things.
Memories. Sweet memories. BitterSweet memories.
I try not to think abt it coz it made me cry and sob but somehow it comes back to me. One by one.
I remember how much i enjoyed myself more than anything else. Really, i do.
It brighten up my day.
But at the same time, i feel sad and i wanted to cry.. I really miss all those times we had together. I wish and hope that i could still do that again.
But, i wasn't crying. I was lost for awhile. I dont know what am i feeling or should feel.
Its complicated. I guess i miss being happy.
Smiling, Laughing and Giggling. I love to smile. But please don't think im crazy. I dont smile all the time. =.="
I really really miss you. I still have not give up on you or let you go. I dont know whether i should. Should I?
But.... Theres something in me is still holding on to it and not letting it go. Im not sure what should i do now.
It broke my heart. should i give it another chance?
If i did, will i regret later?
If i did, will it still be the same?
will it be worse?
Will it be better?
Will it be stronger than before?
Im being emo again..
Anyway, i just got back from Add maths tuition. I really enjoyed this week's class. I was smiling, laughing and enjoying myself.
I dont why i have this feeling. Guilty. I tried to ignore it.
Now, my tuition friends named me "Brain" coz i always have the answers for most of the questions. =.="
Thanks to Eunice who started it all.. XDXD hehe.
It made me laugh. *bangga* (hehehe. I dont feel like this that often)
Come to think of that, it remind me of what people usually call me nowdays. For exmaple :
- Denise
- Den
- Didi
- "Brain"
Holidays are just around the corner. Cheh! just a few more days. I was planning of going shopping to buy some clothes since my hands and legs are itchy already. XD Im going to make my pasport.
i cant wait for you to get back to KL, Duncan!!
thats all for now.
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