I've been chosen to enter a Environment Quiz/ Kuiz Alam Sekitar!
yeap..i've been chosen along with my 3 other classmates, shazmiq, joon yoon and joanna.
its next week tuesday held somewhere in Banting.
according to teacher, its like 1 hour and 30 mins drive there. hmm..
it would be tiring.
1st round of the competition will be answering 50 objective questions in 30 minutes!!
participants with the highest score will be chosen for the 2nd/final round.
Looks like i have to open up my geography book again. XD
i miss form 3..
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life here is better.
its because im not thinking of you. trying so hard not to.
makes me sad.
but you called.. monday, tuesday, wednesday and thursday.
Im not sure why coz after sunday, i was so sure you are not calling me for a long time.
maybe i was wrong.
it brighten up my day. it really did.
i appreciate it very much.
just hope you'll be alright.
ur skinny now. eat more.

for once, i've not been thinking abt a lot of things. a lot!
i feel much better.much much better.
time really move so slow now. how unfortunate.
do you really want me to let everything go?

I dont feel like myself anymore.
I dont do things i usually do that much anymore.
I'm not practicing my flute enough.
I don't smile/laugh that much anymore like i always do.
ughhh...

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Sometimes, i dont feel appreciated at all.
people used me.
only talk to me when they need me.
left me when they dont think they need me.
left me when they want to be alone.
come back to me when they have nobody else.
I hate you people.
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Happy 50th Independence Day Malaysia!
though i dont have the mood to celebrate it.
its because i had a bad day today in the morning.

anyway
My aunty came to my house today.
it was very surprising coz i never expect that she would come just to see me.'
and guess what? she even bought McD for us.
Its veryvery nice of her.
Thanks you very much!
i appreciate it but Mcd reminds me of something.
there goes my day.
im not blaming her.
the last time i ate mcd was like 3 weeks ago.
im trying to avoid it actually.

i want to upload a few pictures but blogger is a bit slow....
i cant stand waiting coz i have a lot of things to do now.
but i wanna update my blog..
Currently, theres this anime on tv i kinda like, Jigoku Shouju. japanese version with english subtitles.
Hardly everr watched it. i only do when i see it on. XD

another frustrating day for me.
i finished reading where rainbows end and tonight im starting if you could see me now.
damn.. tomorrow have to stayback. and will have chemistry tuition after that.
another tiring day.

its almost 9 now and i haven't eat my dinner yet.....
foooooddd...............
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theres something bothering me now.
this question.
another question without an answer for it.
i was going to ask but i forgot.
just wondering.
hmmm..i hardly ever think of it now coz im distracted by lots of things.
maybe it will come back. i dont know.

Holidays are over.
School has just started.
There goes my sleep.
I feel so horrible the whole day.
It was a hothothot dayyyy.... its not like that usually..
I spilled my water without even noticing it after someone told me.
i didn't tighten the cap properly... (sighs)
The form 1's, 2's and 4's had to go to the dewan for somekind of ceramah.

1st, we're late to go to the dewan.
2nd, i was quite relieved coz i was sitting behind.
3rd, the ceramah was... something you hear every single day from you mum,dad,teachers,people areound u and blabla....
4th, i slept............... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.................
5th, it went on and on from 11 something untill 12.45.

I finish class at 1.50 which is earlier. i came down from my class building at 2pm and my bus left me with joyce and shazmiq.
So, we have to wait untill 2.30 for the bus to come again.
While waiting, i was sweating like nobody's business, im thirsty coz i spilled my water from my bottle, im hungry and im frustrated.
So, while waiting for the bus, i went down to kuala ampang to buy my lunch, fried rice.
walked all the way back to school under the sizzling hot sun. (sweats)
I reached home at 3.10p.m.
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26 August 2007, Sunday

I had so much fun yesterday and i enjoyed myself.
I was really sad, angry and confused too.
Anyway, mpyo concert was fantastic!! Wheeeee! Great performance!
I was enjoying myself there.
Shazmiq looked bored... maybe he's not.. XD
Ji Mi looked like he's doing add maths.
I look like.... hmm.. dunno.
I bought another novel by cecelia ahern, If you could see me now.

After the concert, we ( Duncan, Derrick, Shazmiq, Ji Mi and I) went to chillis for lunch+dinner.
For me is luch and dinner because i did not eat my lunch.
We ordered :

1. 3 BBQ Ranch Burgers
2. 2 swiss Mushroom Burgers
3. 4 ice lemon tea
4. 1 grapeade
5. Bottomless chips ( i cant remember the name)

All of us ate too much!! I felt like i was going to burst into pieces. My dress felt like its going to rip off... Gawd.....
Seriously.....
We ate a lot!!!! we spent abt 2 hours there, eating, laughing, talking and eating...
we went crazy after our meals....
We did something weird too..
Something weird happened too.. But not to me... its to shazmiq... XDXD

After that, something happened. i went home with a broken heart.

I just finished a great book on Monday and im blogging it like.. today?? swt..

Short synopsis

Some people wait their whole lives to find their soul mates. But not Holly and Gerry.

Childhood sweethearts, they could finish each other's sentences and even when they fought, they laughed. No one could imagine Holly and Gerry without each other.

Until the unthinkable happens. Gerry's death devastates Holly. But as her 30th birthday looms, Gerry comes back to her. He's left her a bundle of notes, gently guiding Holly into her new life without him, each note signed "P.S. I Love You."

As the notes are gradually opened, and as the year unfolds, Holly is both cheered up and challenged. The man who knows her better than anyone sets out to teach her that life goes on. With some help from her friends, and her noisy and loving family, Holly finds herself laughing, crying, singing, dancing - and being braver than ever before.

Life is for living, she realises - but it always helps if there's an angel watching over you.

I cried when i read the last chapter.
Great book! I dont mind reading it again.
But, currently, the book is with Shazmiq.
You watch out if anything happens to the book! *evil eyes*
Currently, Im reading, Where Rainbows end by the same author.


Next book will be If you could see me now/A place called Here.

Pictures.

The Drama Team 05,06 & 07

Dramarians having fun!

Eye of Malaysia. The view is nice..

Vinaya on my mum's kembara trunk. XD We were on our way to galaxy after the eye of m'sia.

The boys... Right-left : Joon Hong, Harith, Shazmiq and Derrick. After our movie, Rush hour 3.

My new shoes! love it!

I'll always love you.

it feels so good to irritate you.
Ahhhh...... You deserve it.
Seeing your face makes me wanna slap you.
Not to worry, im not mean like you.
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Currently : Dont feel anything. I dont know why.
Have i moved on? I dont know.
I miss you so much.
I miss loving you.
I don't know what should i do.
I think of it every night before i go to sleep and every morning when i wake up.
i stared at the stars. wonder.
is it still more than that?

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Pictures...
Will upload later..
I'll be going to The Eye On Malaysia tonight.
HEHE.
Later.

Weird.

Im sorry abt my previous post..
I was angry.
I had a really long day today. I never thought of going shopping. I wasn't in a mood to do so.
I bought a pair of shoes.
Still, im angry coz the salesman gave me the wrong size. I asked for size 6 and he gave me size 7.
I didnt notice it untill i got home. grrrrr....
i'll exchange it for a smaller size tomorrow. maybe..
After that, went to petaling street.
Met a lot of weirdo's.

Scene 1

Lenglui..... come.come. buy some t-shirts, handbags, watches.
Very cheap wan...
You can buy it for you girlfriend, ex-girlfriend or boyfriends or ex-boyfriend.
*i just walked away*

SWT!! of all the names why does it have to "ex"

Scene 2

This salesman was speaking in mandrin. and again i ignored. i ignored almost everyone.
Leng lui ar..... Waaaaa......
So long i didn't see you already.....
Come and buy something lar...
i give you discount.
So long you didnt come here already...

Hmmm.... This is my first time here. Nvm... Quite funny actually...

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I miss you so much. I really do.
im so sleepy now.
I wish i could call you anytime i want like i used to.
Send you messages like we used to.
Go out to eat McD once in a while.
I miss all those times.
I wish i could have them back.
I wish i could just hug you and all the pain is gone.
Hmm.. Im wishing and hoping too much.
*slaps myself*
I shouldn't do it that much anymore.
I dont want to be disappointed.
Easier said than done.
My door is always open for you.

I really gtg now..
I need some rest and finish up my piled up homeworks.
Help....

Nightmare.

I thought it was real. So real.
But i dont want it to be real.
This is a bad nightmare i wish i never had and never wish to talk abt it at all.
I had a long long nap from 5.30pm and i just woke up 30 minutes ago.
I slept while reading my book that i bought yesterday. Nice book.
It wasnt boring lah. its just me. i was tired.
There was blood in my dream.
The nightmare/bad dream woke me up.
When i woke up, my hands and finger are covered with blood.
it scared me really badly.
Again, i have no one to turn to.
*sighs*
In the real world,
O.O??? Did i killed someone or something???
Yeah, i think i just killed someone. literally.
For a second i thought it was me.
But its not. I dont know what happened.
Maybe i killed a mosquito.
But The blood is not mine.
After so many months, i had a dream. a bad one.

Things are okay for awhile.
the next minute, everything is so wrong.

Change.change.

I dont really like changes..
Why is it on the phone or on msn???
Why not face-to-face?
Coz it seems like you're leaving just because you want to and you expect me to understand whatever your needs.

Do you want to know how I feel or what am i thinking?

I don't understand why you did this
Even though you've explained it to me
You told me you change
Change in a short period of time?
Whats the reason behind all this?
"I want to leave everything here" thats what you said
You cant just throw everything just because you are there
Well, you'll need it someday and maybe most of it wont came back to you.
You said you understand how i feel?
What do you understand about it?
Im not good at pretending
You expect me to pretend though you did not say it.
I hate pretending like everything is alright.
You told me that everything is going to be alright.
Whats going on now?
You're making this not alright
I hope you're not lying
Because i know you would never do that
I have a feeling you would one fine day
Everywhere i go, everything i see, Whatever i do,
It reminds me of you.
and yet you expect me to understand this because you're no longer here anymore
have you ever thought/wonder what will it be like if we exchange places?
Am i being a fool all these while??
Am I?????
But i was happy. Really happy
I was happy being that fool.
I want to hear your side of this story.
I feel like throwing all the things i had all these year.
Everything was great untill that day came.
I don't have the heart to throw them all away
Its been with me all these years
It accompanied me to sleep, brighten up my day, reminds me of you and reminds me of everything we did.
After what had happened, I dont know what to do with them. I seriously dont know.
It made me smile and cry.
I looked at it every night.
I know its not supposed to be easy.
I need to talk abt this.
But, you dont want to hear me out. i understand that.
You just broke it
I don't know what i did wrong.
Maybe its my fault
I feel guilty when i laugh too much untill i forget whats happening around me
I did everything i could
You said you did your best
Did you really really did your best??
I thought abt this all over again.
I feel so stupid.
I was so innocent
I dont deserve to be treated like this.
I dont know whether will i have it back
And i dont know whether you want it back
You'll be sorry.
You broke it.
You will be broken one fine day.

i just got home from KLCC. i did a bit of shopping.. Just a little coz i was tired.
I got home from school bathed and went there straight away.
I went there alone.
Well, i just need some time alone and to keep myself busy.
I bought a book to read and spent half of my time reading at kinokuniya.
Wanted to buy more book but i didnt have enough money with me. XD
Theres this one book i wanted to buy but it cost like Rm300+
O.O..... i'll pass though i was like searching it since last year. I didn't know it was that expensive.
I reached klcc abt 2.30 and ate, walked around, window shopping, went to bookstore and bought some food to eat. Went home abt 5.30

3 hours... It feels like 10 hours.
Time seems to move so slow when our lives are hard.
Too much memories there.
Where are you?
Did that part of you that i love so much died or hiding or it has been replaced?

Im happy to be home alive and safe. just feel so tired. Anyway...

I need the height(in cm/m) and weight(kg) of 30 people.
Can anyone volunteer to give me that, please???
Its for my Additional Mathematics project.

Aim : To determined the Body Mass Index(BMI) of 50 people and group them in 3 categories, underweight,normal and obese/overweight. (dont worry, i wont mention any of ur names in the list. just mentioning names in the penghargaan/credits)

Conditions :

1. I would prefer the height and weight of people from age 15-18 years old. (though it was stated in the add maths question its supposed to be for form4 and 5. but, that will not make much difference right?
2. You can still contribute even though you're younger or older.
   

THANK YOU!!!

Another tiring day.....
I think i swept 3 times at 3 different places. Class, Library and house.
School again was alright.
Did some tests on fruit juices on DCPIP during biology. Kinda frustrating but its alright.
Stayed back for duties and went home at abt 3.20. Ate in the car to save some time coz my tuition is at 4.30.
Chemistry tuition was frustrating. My teacher is so.... stern and scary.
Not that he shouted at us or scolded us lar.
Just his body language and the way he talks.
Voltaic cells. I was so thankful i did not fail my chemistry coz 90% of the questions were abt voltaic cells and i miss the lesson in school. SWT.
How often do i miss school.. Hmm... Only twice this year. grrr...
Here are some song you people must download and listen or get it from me. =D

1. Boston - Augustana
2. Life is Beautiful - Vega 4
3. Lost - Michael Buble
4. Do you know - Enrique Iglesias
5. The pieces Don't Fit Anymore - James Morrison

Thats abt it.

Im back!! Wheee....

Phew.... Tired... I just did my housework/chores. Well, it kept me busy.
School was alright.
We had chocolates in Biology class thanks to my bio teacher. Thank you!! Though i wasn't in a mood for chocolates but i still ate it anyway.
Chemistry was quite boring but my classmates made it interesting with all the jokes. Our chemistry teacher is so cool. I enjoy his class very much though the topic we're studying were quite boring sometimes. He always show us some videos/pictures in his laptop though the lab LCD. haha. We always tease him.
My classmates will always have something to laugh abt everyday. Crazy stuffs everyday. Especially the boys. XD.
I was quite in a good mood these few days. I dunno why. Maybe i miss being happy.
Smiling, laughing and giggling.
Talk abt that, sometimes, i smile myself.
I don't know why...
I was trying to finish up my maths homework in school.
I smiled and smiled and smiled all day and deep down i was laughing.
Don't worry, im not crazy. I was just thinking and recalling a lot of things.
Memories. Sweet memories. BitterSweet memories.
I try not to think abt it coz it made me cry and sob but somehow it comes back to me. One by one.
I remember how much i enjoyed myself more than anything else. Really, i do.
It brighten up my day.
But at the same time, i feel sad and i wanted to cry.. I really miss all those times we had together. I wish and hope that i could still do that again.
But, i wasn't crying. I was lost for awhile. I dont know what am i feeling or should feel.
Its complicated. I guess i miss being happy.
Smiling, Laughing and Giggling. I love to smile. But please don't think im crazy. I dont smile all the time. =.="
I really really miss you. I still have not give up on you or let you go. I dont know whether i should. Should I?
But.... Theres something in me is still holding on to it and not letting it go. Im not sure what should i do now.
It broke my heart. should i give it another chance?
If i did, will i regret later?
If i did, will it still be the same?
will it be worse?
Will it be better?
Will it be stronger than before?
Im being emo again..

Anyway, i just got back from Add maths tuition. I really enjoyed this week's class. I was smiling, laughing and enjoying myself.
I dont why i have this feeling. Guilty. I tried to ignore it.
Now, my tuition friends named me "Brain" coz i always have the answers for most of the questions. =.="
Thanks to Eunice who started it all.. XDXD hehe.
It made me laugh. *bangga* (hehehe. I dont feel like this that often)
Come to think of that, it remind me of what people usually call me nowdays. For exmaple :

1. Denise
   
2. Den
   
3. Didi
   
4. "Brain"
   

Hmm.. Thats all i guess.

Holidays are just around the corner. Cheh! just a few more days. I was planning of going shopping to buy some clothes since my hands and legs are itchy already. XD Im going to make my pasport.

i cant wait for you to get back to KL, Duncan!!
thats all for now.

grrrrr... after 15 minutes of non-stop writing, everything is gone... grrrr...
i'll blog another day...

I know most of my post are sad coz i am. its too hard.
I don't understand. 
How i wish its a nightmare. But its not.
Why??
That is the question im asking myself everyday.
How to end this feeling??
What should i do?
When will it be alright?
sometimes, i can't breathe.
i feel like being alone sometimes.
or run away. but that not the right thing to do.
I'm so confused.

Pieces Don't Fit Anymore.

Is this planned?? Why??
So many questions are in my head but i have no chance to let it out.
I don't know whether is there an answer for every question.
Its not easy at all..
Its too hard/almost impossible to let go and pretend that everything is okay.
Its way too hard..
Everyday, i wonder why,how and when. EVERYDAY.
I don't know whether is it my fault or its because of something else.
Sometimes, i think/wonder too much untill i have negative thoughts of a few things.
I start to think everything seems messy and up side down.
I wish i could make things better.
Things never comes my way lately..

Conclusion : Im confused, lost, hurt, lonely, sad, pretending and angry.

Nothing last forever. (i dont know.. im still wondering whether is it true or not)

Structure of DNA.
I just post this picture for fun coz its so cool and colourful..

Tired. sleepy. pretending. always on the move. confused.

some people are nice to you just because they need you for something.
They take advantage of you/ used you for their own advantage.
some don't even say "thank you".

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Anyway, school was tiring. My classmates and I went to help Miss Lau to wrap LOTS and LOTS of presents for the teacher's Hari Keluarga. I have to admit i enjoy wrapping gifts. XDXD. Coz thats one of the things im really good at.. Anyone need to wrap some prezzies?? Well, all of us spent abt 3 periods and a half to wrap all the things. hungryyyy... Cheezels, rocky, cloud 9, chocolates and so on lah..

I'm not feeling really well in school. Teacher and some of my friends we're asking me "why u look so tired wannn..." anyway, i was tired... so i just smiled at them.

After school, went to Ampang Point to have lunch. wanted to walk around but no mood and im feeling so tired and the weather is so hot! *Psssss.......*

Thats all abt school. Duncan will be back during this coming holidays. Im sure he will be really busy. I heard that the camp will be held at Flamingo Hotel... I was like...

Duncan/Denise

We'll be having the mpyo camp at flamingo hotel
Flamingo??? which flamingo??
Flamingo hotel lor...
You mean behind my school one?? near the MRR2 highway???
yeaa...
Harrrr??? Serious ar?
*laughs*
ookaaayyy...

Hmm... not to say the hotel is bad la coz i also never been there before though i passed by the place like.... Every single day?? duhh.... i passed by the when i go to school, istana budaya, aunty's place, dad's office, mum's office, klcc, etcetc. Haha.. anyway, it should be alright. i think people can see our school from the orange-painted chalets or something. kinda weird colour.

now.... lets talk abt my dear friend, Ji Mi Yeow/ Yeow Ji Mi/ Einsteinium. First of all.....
He's a Yeow. XD. The 3 amigos (Ji mi, Duncan and Derrick) will be like... "The Yeow's rock!" "we are the Yeow's" =.=" swtswtswt....
He's SMKHK's Phua Chu Kang. LOL.
He's smart. Loves reading his books. what i meant is besides school text book lah... I remember that you we're reading a book titled "How long is a string?" XD
He is phobia of touching his food or any kinds of food.
He owes me a box of dominoes pizza. XD
He's always smiling when i see him.
He doesn't wear socks to school. on tuesday. =D
He blogs....
He loves to eat.

I guess thats all.... for now.
here are some pictures...

Ji Mi and Joon Hong. Businessman in action!

Jimi, Joon Hong, Wai Choong and Pei jian.
o.o why look so seious wan..

Ji Mi and Iman. with my pizza. XDXD

i want pizza!!

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I only knew
Days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your world's crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Though things have seemed to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the world's crashing down
And you cannot bear to crawl
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

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Move on Denise... Move on and be strong..
A part of me is not but still trying to... Its too hard to let go..
But I'm okay though sometimes it breaks my heart.

Hi readers. I know i have not been blogging lately due to some reasons.
Anyway.. Here are my exam results.

Bahasa Malaysia - 84/A1
English- 87/A1
Mathematics - 68/B3 ( Surprisingly =.=")
Additional Mathematics - 78/A1 (wheeee)
Boilogy - 80/A1 (XD)
Chemistry - 52/c6
Physics - 65/B3 ( Whee... At least i pass)
Sejarah - 70/A2
EST - 91/A1
Moral - Unknown.

Got lots of things to do in school. Lots of presentations. I'm looking for some stuffs abt vitamin A, D, E and K.
Yesterday, i just got back from my aunty's place in Perak. On the way home, i was staring at the trees, sky and some animals. A part of me was feeling sad and my heart felt like its beaking apart slowly. But another part of me was thinking abt all those times we had together, laughing, talking, loving and doing crazy things. It made me laugh for a few second. I had a feeling something is going to happen when i was staring at the blue sky and green paddy fields. I wanted to take a picture of it but my camera was not with my coz its the my bag. i was like.. nahh.... don't think negative.

So, i was trying to sleep and suddenly family and i got into an accident somewhere on a bridge in Perak. We were on our way back to KL and some maniac with a black-grey wira banged a maroon Gen 2 and the Gen 2 banged my dad's car. I was half-asleep when suddenly my whole body flew forward and banged the front seat. I was like OMGOMGOMG! in my heart coz i was just going to fall asleep. After all the feeling, i realised that what i felt before was true. My dad's bumper was damages quite badly but not as bad as the wira car where his front part of the car was squished like an ant. Anyway.. i just summarised this whole thing. We went to the police station and made a report and went home.

Anyway.. im kinda tired now after doing all the housework. haih..... i managed to finish some of my homework..

# 5 Confused

I dont feel like blogging at all but i'll still do it anyway..

Grrrr... I dont like garlic anymore... i just ate garlic bread and now my breath smells like garlic... Ewwhh...

I don't know what am i feeling now. I have a lot of emotions that im unable to express it, not so good emotions especially.. I feel like that almost all the time except when im talking to Duncan, a few of my friends and family.. I dont know why... i feel it in school all the time and sometimes at home. i dont feel like on of "it" anymore. I prefer being alone sometimes. Just sometimes but not all the time. I wish things could be better which its not since a few months ago.

I want to finish SPM! i know... i might not mean it and i know that SPM for me is next year.
I feel like doing this thing but a lor of problems will pop out.
I hate "fish" coz "fish" are annoying.... grrr...
I want to do well in my studies. Ofcoz la.
I dont know la.. im unable to express it and i dont know why.. its hard.